Its sad to see a fren go but then again nothing can stop if a decision have been made.I admit im not perfect and i can be such a bitch at times to be so petty about lil things. Its not that im doing it on purpose. But i guess i just couldnt bring myself to tolerate such nonsense anymore. Firstly, when PMS, well every guy should be aware of that. Our moods fluctuates. Another thing, i cant tolerate if ppl keep repeating the same qn again and again even after ive told them not to ask something they already know. Lastly, i cant simply tolerate when such little jokes or statements is being reciprocate as

• Ok..takper i will remember what u say
• Takperlah..i tahu siapa i
• busy? hmm takperlah you go n sleep...( w/o even me saying that im sleepy)

But at least im proud to say, when i realise i was being too harsh i did let down my ego and said sorry but he although knew it i dislike being treated that way..keep asking qn repeatedly does not even bother. And today...i was not in the mood to be angry..i did try my best to prevent a quarrel to happen.but likewise my intention was mistaken. It goes something like this

Fren: Nasib baik i ada nak layan u kat msn..kalau tak you boring..tapi i asik kena marah ngan u
Me : Taklah i tak paksa u layan i..but since u in msn i chat with u lah
Fren: Oh u ckp gitu mcm k takper i will remember what you say
ME : Apa seh..betul lah apa i ckp..oklah stop it lah k...before i get angry..lets stop this.

( Me logoff...cool down and log in again)

Rcvd an sms from him : i think u erase jer lah my contacts semua..i and u cant be frens we asik gaduh ajer....

Like hello..u are the one whos like throwing me out from ur circle of friends so why must i erase ur contacts ..After few times trying to salvage the friendship , i guess thats it. i cant be salvaging too much. no point in me trying to work things out when its only one-sided. He even dare to advise me to control my temper...I told him i know myself and im not the kind that gets angry easily but seriously i cant tolerate so much nonsense.

Frens..tell me am i that hot - tempered??? - Or maybe i am towards the guys???

Ironically, a girl can tolerate so much nonsense when guys giving them difficulties for months years...a decade but guys? Not even half a year, they raise the white flag already.

Anyway to this fren of mine..thanks for ever being a fren..but as ppl loves to say..

FRIENDS COME AND GO, ONLY TRUE FRIENDS STAY

Hujan yang turun...bagaikan mutiara
Berkilau bersinar berkerdipan....

Brrrrrr....Its so cold and im shivering.....
Woke up this morning...look thru my window. No wonder its so cold and
something is preventing me from pulling myself out from bed. Heavy downpour lah sehhhhhh....I set my alarm at 630am. After a lot of snoozing hehe at last i manage to pull myself with great force out of the bed at 730am. Luckily everything are all ready. My clothes are iron and my bag are ready. My dressing up can be done in like 20 mins. But still i reach werk 15mins late. Hehe...
reason due to after getting ready..i still cover myself with my comforter..its so comfortable :-)

Now im at werk on my lunch break hehe.Cant sleep today. Dunnoe y i feel a bit fresh. Anyway yesterday went to Geylang with my lovely girlfriends Fyza and Zul. Thry bought me a Baju Kebaya Batik..hehe a gift from them, abg g and uncle shis. Thanks all..Luv ya all~

Today not so much calls at werk. I think becos of the rain lah. The customers might have still be in bed with their comforters covering them and also it could be that they have no mood to get angry on a cool day like today. And tonite, im going geylang again with another gf, Atiqah. :-)

Oklah..that all for now..gotta get back to werk in half an hours time.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Received the letter on the day of my birthday. Didnt post it on that day coz i was still thinking.
I know im not supposed to be thinking at this stage but sumhow i guess because of the job interview i went worried me. If im accepted on that job, i need to know the timing the job ends and how do i manage the time.And another thing, during the fasting month, i find myself more tired than before and it was so difficult to get out of bed in the morning. This sumhow make me think whether can i cope work and studies. Hopefully what ever i feel now is temporary.

At the same time, im excited. Cant wait to be call a student once again. im so keen to learn and i do hope that while im learning there are company who is willing to take me to work with them. I would prefer working in the same industry as what im learning. im sure it will benefit me more.
Now i need to find the time to call the Eduloan consultant, i need to liase with them on how do i apply for the loan and such. since im earning at an hourly rate, i got to get my bro to be the main applicant. Hopefully the loan thingy will go on smoothly.

Oh yah..i need to reply those letter by 3rd October..and i must make the first payment by 22nd October..i must remember this dates~

10 more mins to go and im completely 24 years old.

First of all, i would like to wish all those people that have wish me ...

Fyza and Zul - Lovely Girlfriends..who wish me even before the clock strike 12. I was with them breaking fast , thus that explained it all.

Atiqah - Thanks for the shoutout on your blog. Superb!!!

Rizal - The Ex claims that he remember my bday w/o anyone telling. Hmm...not sure of that, but thanks anyway.

Fazly - Another Ex, who called me and wish althou we ended up quarrel a bit. I just cant stand ppl who sulk easily. But afterall, its great that u remembered.

Azlin ( Naufal's GF ) - Thanks for the wish via SMS. Was expecting Naufal to msg me, but was dissapointed thou coz he dindt. I was expecting it becoz we were like very close during poly years and never fail to celebrate it. He have fail to msg me for 2 years already but i never fail to msg him every year. Guess he 's too busy with his work.

SHam/ Nizam / Sham LTA - A guy i know thru AM - Thanks for the wish too.

Sharifah (ST collegue ) - Thanks Sweetheart for the wishes via SMS, Friendster and Multiply.

Fairuz (ST Collegue) - Thanks dear. yesh im the same age as you. To think that you thought i was younger than you. it is definately a compliment:)

AmyRia ( Taufik and Hady Mirza FAn) - Hehe thanks dear for the wishes.

Siaoyan(My insurance agent) - Thanks for the bday card and wish via SMS.im still 24 lah not 26..hehe

Ijal - Thanks for the wish via MSN and friendster. So sad to hear about ur Hp. Get a new one soon ok.

MarZura ( Ijal's sister ) - Thanks for the wish via TAG and also..the post on your blog..ohh i look so bad on that pic..but still i love your pic...Gorgeous~

Azry - Thanks for the wish...Although ive never met u before, but our friendship seems like years ago. I really feel comfortable having you as a fren.

Aqmal - My Lovely Buddy. Ever since he start schooling in NIE, SIghz, i rarely meet or talk to him. Miss him loads..but dunnoe whether he miss me or not. aLthough, i know he never rememberd my bday hehe he never bothered lah..i know him. He could have know from my nick but stilli appreciate his wish. He's a good critic friend. Always wake me up from my stoopid dreams and pull me back to reality.

Adhana - I almosy get dissapointed TERRIBLY by U! Luckily u msg me at 9.57pm...if not...sigh...Kecik hati~! My best Buddy...Knew her thru poly also..ehhehe... I wish i can celebrate my bday with her...Girl..biler kiter nak keluar sama2 nih...I miss you lah GirlFriend~

To all who i have missed out~ Thanks once Again.
Its good to know that i have a lot of friends circling me..and i love you all!!!
Muacks~!!!!

Salamz....Amacam puasa semua ok?? Hehe..

For me, i manage to fast for the first two days ajer...lepas tuh "bestfriend" dah kunjung tiba. But, i feel great lah at least, i got to sambut the starting and the ending of it. Insyallah,
But sumhow this ramadhan really tested me a lot.

Fuh, i remember the last time i had a severe fatal segugut was like in secondary school. The pain was crucial and unbearable. Soon, it faded away and i only experience minor pain. But yesterday, the pain attack me again. It was so bad. I was supposed to work yesterday but i dindt turn up coz of my asthma. So in the afternoon, i went to the doc to take MC. The pain was ok when i visit the doc fr my asthma. Then i went over to NTUC to get some stuffs. While i was queing up, dia datang menyerang lah seh!!! Sakit dier masyaALLah! Tak boleh angkat!!!
I was like trying my very best to tahan the pain. To add on to it, the Q was damn long.

Makin lama, sakit tuh makin menjadi2. Badan pun rasa dah lain mcm..dah mcm nak melayang sampai at one moment, i couldnt hear anything as if my ears was blocked. DAh gitu, apa lagik terus angkat barang campak tepi and i rush and find a seat. I seated for almost 15 mins, the pain still doesnt subside. I really couldnt walk. Fikir nyer fikir, tak kan nak duk situ lama2 kan...so i had to force myself up and walk. Journey yg 10min tuh rasa macam setengah jam seh..Sampai ruma jer..i went to the toilet then go inside m room and was curling up to tahan the pain. Nak gi dapur makan obat pun tak larat. I cannot walk lah seh!! Terpaksal i called out my mum and my mum took panadol for me..Soon, i fell asleep adn the pain is gone.

Today, while i was getting ready to go out, it came again...it was not as bad as yesterday but boleh dikatakan teruk. Almost tak jadi keluar seh..so i took the panadol force myself again and go out...sooon it is gone. Thanks Panadol!!! You R the best lah!

So tadi, ikut my mum go geylang go kedai emas..go and cuci my gelang and repair sikit..Beli bahan2 kuih maybe the next off day im gonna do it. Biar buat cepat-cepat, senang sikit hehe..then i went to survey2 the baju. So far, i had some baju in mind already...Byk seh baju lawa2..sighz..But i baru survey dekat Joo Chiat and the pasar ajer..The bazaar not yet..hehe soon soon...:)

K lah thats all for now. Sok kerja sehhhhhhhh....

This entry mungkin bersifat peribadi sikit lah ey~

Whatever it is, this is definately not the same old story whereby

• miss syida is having some crush with boys



• miss syida is missing some boys terribly



• miss syida had her heart broken again
  

Nah not any of those but more to how my beliefs and how i look upon guys.

Well, to start off with this entry, i can no longer read Malay Love novels. Read this,
the queen of Malay love novels could not read it for now. It must be shocking but this is the truth. I have three books in hand, and evertime i start to read it, i ended up closing it instead.
Its just too mushy, making me puke and i find all are just fairytale. There is no such love like how the book goes about. As readers, we wish it could be the same way but in reality, that doesn's exist. Guess what, now im turning in to Malay Mystery Novels, but i had to admit, malay novels just couldnt run away from love scenes. I just had to bear with it. Only the mystery made me continue reading. Wanna know the title?? Its called Misteri Mayat Terapung di Resort Melati.

I dunnoe why but i guess my heart has turn into stone. Im just not interested in matters of the heart for now. I made friends with guys be it from AnakMelayu, friendster and etc but to meet them i can say only if they are patience enuf to wait till i agreed. I can sometime give my bloody attitude to them. For those who are patience enuf, they survived but for those who do not will just vanished slowly. There are also sum who expects me to text and call them, hah..sorrilah i got no time for that. I have wasted my money on guys too much and i will never ever want to repeat it again. To me, making friends does not apply to singles only. You can befriend with anyone, tall/short,fat/skinny, old/young, single/married. SO likewise,i dun see a point of asking the qn "are u single?" in the first conversation. Frankly, i dun bother abt that.
So with regards to that, i had made a couple had some tiff. i dint know the guy was attached and i dun bother asking. Thus, i chatted with him in msn and soon the next day he call me up claiming that he had a fight with his gf and the one who chatted with me was his gf actually. Initially, i though that i should feel symphatized for him, but thinking that he did call me syg. dear when the fact that he had a gf. What i can say it only one thing, u deserve it!

I guess whatever bad experience i had last time is really affecting me. Im paranoid and traumatize for what happened. On another note, i felt great that it happened. I guess i had to learn thing the hard way. For a guy to earn my trust, its not that easy. Infact, when i see a couple happily chit chatting, sometime my heart will whisper to me, is this guy for real or just acting?? Haha..i know i shouldnt be that cruel but i guess i just couldnt run away from it.:-)

Everytime, my friends ask me about heartmates, i wish i could just change the topic. infact, i hate to talk about it. It use to be one listed on one of my priority list but now, its not found in it yet. I would love to concentrate on building my career and concentrate on my studies first, before engaging in this issue again.

Anyway...this are the pics that we took in swensen airport. happy viewing.

Hmm...First day of fasting, how does it go? Not too bad for a start but had a sore throat when I wake up for sahur, took the orange color tablets and went back to sleep. In addition to it, I had stomach pain. Hihi so much incident on a first day fasting..

On my lunch break now, and left few mins before i get back to work. Tried to take a nap but wasnt able to due to the high volume of noise ( hehe - my collegueas talking to cust) + my department is situated right to the manager's cubicle( that made me uncomfy) . So, i just laze around surfing on the net and chatting with my "loyal chat buddy" at werk none other than Missy Atiqah. Sighz, im feeling so cold rite now and its only me with the jacket.

Yesterday, i met up with Zulekha and Fyza at Swensen's Airport. Well can't post the picture yet coz im at werk and i dun have the pictures with me at the moment. Waited for Zulekha to end her shift at 9pm. Well sumhow stepping in airport left an emotional feeling towards myself. Call me EMO, but well i really felt like crying when i step in the airport. Only god knows how much i MISS that place..It was definately a wonderful experience working with SIAEC. Although the fact that, the management treat me bad but i do treasure and value those people who have make my working life there enjoying and full of lovely memories.

The Charlie angelz then made their way to Swensen. We ordered Veggie Pizza, Salmon and Cheese Pasta, Chilli Fish Pasta, Fries and Fondue. Simply amazing meal, a day before fasting..haha. We were chatting about the problem that my fren fyza is facing, abt why she wanna drop her studies. After consultation and her reasoning out, its best if she withdraw now since she is not interested in the course and before she waste much more money. She too have admitted that she has made a hasty decision and have regret it. I guess, she just have to take this as a learning point.

On another note, i feel so much pressurized rite now and im like keep asking myself again and again, is this what i want..is this really what i want coz i dun want to end up similar to her but i simply cant get any answers from my goodself. But everytime, i look up at the jobstreet, this is the area that i search for. So is this where i belong to? sighz..

Lately, the weather have been so shiok. It really tested my strength to pull myself up from the bed every morning. I almost couldnt wake up...but thinking of the discipline and responsibility towards myself,i force myself up. Tommorow,is my OFF day~ hooray! this means i can wake up late..Hehe..

I received an sms from my close fren Fyza and i was shocked when she text me that she's gonna withdraw from the degree course she's taking. I thot she was just playing around. But when she call me up, i can sense that she's about to break down. to myself,im wondering is werking and studying a difficult task?? If it is, then how do others cope and manage their time? I was like pestering her not to withdraw as this is not basically few hundred dollars..but she have already made the payment for the first term and that cost $5500. If she withdraw means, thats gonna burn. But after she reasons out, well basically i cant force her. No use forcing if someone has already reach the limit she can stretch for. Basically the things that affected her was, ferst - her jobs require a lot of mental thinking and planning, then she is also teching tuition for 2 students during weekends, and after werk - by the time she is tired and has to attend school and nothing gets in her head. And adding to it, she have some personal problem..

Well i guess i cant force her since she already claims that when she cant do it, she tends to give up easily. I tried to give her some advise and suggestion, but if let say nothing came out from it then i guess she have to choose either or. I cant influence her that much, coz its herself that is studying. No point of me forcing if she is not interested.

But i cant denied the fact that i feel upset and demoralize due to this. Oh gosh i need someone to boost up my self esteem, self confidence, or whatever you call it...

On Saturday, i had to work full shift. I dread going to work on saturday. Merely due to the fact that we tend to receive a lot more calls and addng to it, my TL was on off and i had to liase with difficult cases with the covering TL. Afterall, i survived anyway :D

After work, met Syafa - my movie partner and we headed to the cinema for our Ratatouille ( did i spell it correctly?) show. The cinema hall was packed with parents and kid. Overall, its a nice, fun show. It covers all expression - sad,happy,angry and not forgetting the laughter that filled the hall. Then we headed to KFC to have my dinner. I had the new menu that comes with the Fish finger. Hmm the taste, so so lah...the normal fish finger taste..:) I think most of them still prefer the 2 pcs meal. I did observe the whole restaurant and i cant find anyone having that meal.Hmph~

The FIsh Finger meal

Ummmm....

Yum yum!!!

And my Sunday was spent at home doing spring cleaning..

Renovate my room...Cheh..nah...just shift some furnitures to make the room look more refresh and a better view.

Mmm..checked my bill thru *1626 and i was shocked to see my bill. Its still $100+. Gosh, what did i do till it rise up to that amount? I thought i was alread on budget..guess i have to monitor my sms and call starting from today. I really need to save a lot of money. Once if im accepted to school, this means that i need to use a lot of money. Oh Allah, murahkanlah rezeki ku~!

4 more days and its Ramadhan~!

Yippeee~! A month of blessings and repent. Tapi kalau dah repent lepas habis puasa jadi setan balik pun tak guna...tul tak.? BUt well as humans, penuh dgn kekurangan. But what i will do is to improve myself bit by bit...Insyallah, everything gonna go fine..yang penting nawaitu.

At the same time, this reminds me of my prev job. haiz, it really touches my heart. I still remember clearly, the times when we sambut ramadhan in SIAEC. Sahur together, break fast together. We will bring our plates and bowl to the "collection centre" and we will collect our food. Then once the time is up, we will let the chinese collegueas to takeover the job and we break fast together. ahur time, we bring our own food. At 4 am, reheat the food and sahur..SIghz..

Oh gosh, i miss it. I really miss it!!!! I wish i could go back to that place, but well i was not meant to be there i supposed and thinking of that beruang makes me satisifed to walk out of that place. Even if im there, but not in that beruang good book..i guess i wont have any future. Even after 5 years, i will still remain in my position. so, its better to find another job and im still on the lookout for a permanent job.

I guess thats all to update...Will be back soon...

yo bu Sai yo...

Salamz....

Ever since i came back from Malaysia, i havent got the chance to update this blog of mine. The penyakit malas has hit me again...as usual *rolls eyes* HaHa!! For me to update everything that has happened in Kampung is totally neverending, but let me just say note down the major happening.

First of all, the kampung never changed. No improvements and dusty as ever. Luckily for me this time, i didnt get my asthma but my skin suffers a bit of irritation due to the dust environment. I did bring my medication, so Problem Solved.

Another major thingy, my dad's car met with a minor accident. It was raining heavily there. Only my parents were in the car. My bro, sis, me and my niece have reached my atuk sedara place. We were all drenched. While trying to dry myself, out of a sudden i heard a loud bang. I was startled. When im out of the house, i got more shocked when i say my dad's car outside

It was a three car collision....

And this is the Culprit!! Its a chinese fella. and i dunnoe how he drive.
His car suffered the most. My dad's car suffored from minor scratches. No Dent at all.
Hehe..Chevrolet is good man...Strong haha!

The story goes like this. It was raining super heavy and my dad wanted to turn right,
but he hazard first ( well supposedly he should have just signal right). Nevertheless, he is still
not in the wrong cause the blue car behind him have already stop when they notice the hazard light. And then came the white car, suddenly ramped into the blue car, resulting that car to move forward and kiss my dad's car bumper. Luckily nobody is injured. Sicne my dad car didnt suffered any major thingy, it was left between the other two cars to do the claiming. hehe.

Another major thing that sumhow affects me badly, well i cant pour it out. Its kinda personal. Family issues. Not within my family..but it involves the big family. I just had to wait and see what is gonna happen next. Hopefully everything gonna be alright. But of coz there is a limit to everything. But when thigns got out of hand, i guess i just had to step in. Furthermore, respect is to be earned. Not anyhow given to people. Dun tell me if a person intention is bad, im gonna still give respect to that person.Hmmm...just wait and see..

On another note, hehe. The lazy sickness has strike again. Wanted to reg for school today but ended up postpone it to Friday. I was too lazy to get this fat ass out of bed. Lagipun, im fasting today, that makes me even more lazier. haiyah, i dunnoe how im gonna cope during fasting month. Everytime i pay back my fast, i get sick. My head willbe spinning non stop. I got 2 more days left..I hope tmrw the day will go fine and since im at werk, hopeully it distracts me from thinking about the hunger..

WEll..oklah thats all..enjoy the pics below.

Candid Pics~

Trainaing my niece to be a camera addict..hehe~

Merdeka!!!!

Thats a good one~!muacks~