GoodBye 2007 ; Welcome 2008

9 hours more to go ...

The nations will be welcoming a brand new year which is 2008.

A New year to start with new resolution, new dreams

But before I embark on this new journey,

I need to reflect on the whole episode of 2007.

The success and the downfalls.

2007 was a sweet and bitter experience.

Early this year, I got to know someone but i was deceived.

But im happy that i took the right move before it becomes too late

and till today i never regret leaving him.

But i regret for allowing him to deceive me and taking me for granted.

Middle of this year, i was thrown with a very bad news

that affected me deeply.

My contract with SIAEC was not continued.

It was a heart-wrenching experience.

2 years working there, and i totally love it.

It was hard to leave that place

especially thinking on all those people that i have bonded with.

It was a totally unfair decisons of my superintendant.

I dun blame the officers nor my senior foreman.

I knew they want me there...

But i took all of that with an open heart..

1 month after i landed on a temp job at Singtel...as a CSO.

Its not my cup of Tea but well i just had to grab whatever that came.

Initially, it was great but after the office shifted

negative inequity takes its place.

I find that there was no welfare for the temp staffs.

Need to produce document when taking leave.

Cant take festive season leave unless got documents.

How ridiculous???

After so much patience, i decided to leave the workplace 6 months after.

The heart is no more there.

In between, i got to know someone.

Someone who's the opposite of those guys that only there for my money

Im glad that our path met..

and till today im grateful to God for presenting him in my life.

I have always taken seriously on friendships...

But i believe its up to individual.

Ive tried my best to secure some friendship

but then...friends come and go.

In November, I got someone new in my Life.

My first nephew was born on the 18th November 2007.

Iman Muhaimin.

I have also enrolled myself on some courses to upgrade myself.

It will take me 1.5 yrs and i really hope that i could go through this path

with strong persevereance and determination.

A lot of money have been invested and i really hope that its not wasted.

I have also went to skin treatment, so far so good...

And my skin are turning out well and hopeuflly it stays that way.

Im in debt with people..and i really got to find a perm job soon to settle

all my debts. Sighz...

Been attending few interviews but no results so far.

Agency have been caling me again and again..

but still no news.

Today, i received a call for an interview from agency again

on 2nd January 08

Hopefully, with the new year, this interview will bring me luck.

And for 2008, i hope i will become a better person.

A Good Daughter..

A Good Sister...

A Good Aunty...

A Good Partner..

A Good Employer...

A Good Friend..

And so...i would like to wish everyone here.

A Happy New Year...

Yok BerDikir!!

Skg nih tengkuk aku tgh sakit giler babi..and it pulls the muscle of the head.maka kepalapun sakit. Took Anarex, hopefully sakit berkurangan soon lah kan..nak main game pun mcm tak semangat. Nak kata ngantuk, tadi dah tido..argh!!

Anyway just to update on the recent activities, On sat ( 22nd Dec 07), went to NP to watch Piala Khatulistiwa. Lama giler tak tgk dikir. Nih pun my friend ajak, sbb kawan dier perform. Kalau tak, aku tk pergi agaknyer sbb tkder geng. But worthwhile lah kan, terubat rindu dihati. Teringin jugak nak clap2 hand..tapi fikir balik..takder masa ar nak main dk lagik, training dier kalau semua dtg on time takper, byk waste time..lagipun badan nih pun dan makin montel..so nak duduk srikandi confirm sakit nyer..haha..

anyway..here are few pics..more pics pls view it my multiply. Pls click at the picture gallery ok. Nak comment pn dipersilakan.

SP..I Mish You!!

Last Monday, i had a visit to SP - Yesh..Singapore Polytechnic. The place where i meet cool bunch of people, friends, enemies, crushes..you name it. Friends like Hanot, Naufal, Lynn, Affar, Shahran..haha...Enemies like...yee Chiao..Siti..and who are the name fara i think, the girl where arip and nasron crazy abt...haha... Crushes Like...ALif (1st lup seh), Yeony...and Nasron ( now becomes Hanot's fiancee)..OMG!!! So Malu...Hanot...pls pls dun u ever tell nas about it...(pleading ok)..or u already told? Shucks!!! Cant believe im saying this!! The place where i learn to skip classes, merayap and yah..warning letter. Alhamdullilah, despite the hurdles and obstacles in poly life, i still was awarded with the Diploma cert.

I actually went to SPGG to burn some fats...haha..actually i went to the gym. Since someone was a member of SPGG, so i tag along. Me being a guest of coz i have to pay lah to use the gym, but not that much lah kan. Well, the place was big and nice view man. Haha...After 3 years i left that place, skg baru masuk eh...ishk ishk

Yesh..its the SPGG!!

The Entrance...Big Isnt it???

And after the workout, i went for a short tour in SP. Well..of coz i cant wait to step in FC3.

Full of memories, more of the sweet memories

Food Haven! Yesh thats the name. SOmething new, ada bakery shop seh kat situ..and i think the name is DELI.

And so..i wanted to have our (me, hana and naufal) all time favourites which is mee Hokkien.. but then the things belum prepared lah..coz it was still early ...haiz rugi..nvm.since im no more working can ask hana to tag along to SP.So i just settle down with Mee Siam.

And of coz, since its my blog..u'll need to see me posing in FC3.

And other Random Photos.

Hanot...come lets go to SP!!! TO have our Mee hokkien

@@ Byez...

Hady..WIns!!! Im Proud of him!!!!!

Yeah Yeah Hady Menang!wohooooo....

Im still feeling excited..Im not an avid fan of him...

but seeing him wins in asian idol,made me feels extremely excited and

Glad to say.. Hady you made SPore Proud!!!

It was a tough competeition. Infact, i believe all sporeans was not expecting Hady to win.

Even hady himself, i believe do not put any hopes.

As what he says, compared to the others, there are way more experienced

And eventually when his name was announced..he was shocked..i am too!!!

i was like shouting screamin on top of my lungs at 12 midnight...haha!!

What eva it is! you are great Hady!!

Just hope after this, no such rumours and negative remarks

such as..

"Hady doesnt deserve to win and all"

I really hope so!!

CONGRATULATIONS HADY!!!

I feel like shit...Totally shitty feeling.

I'm already upset whenever i do my assignment

and now i become much much more upset.

I realised eversince i started my assignments,

I have become more emotional and get upset easily.

And the victim will always be my loved ones,

having to endure my rantings, my whining, my worries.

And all this have not made me feel better but worst!

Maybe....

I should just bottled up my feelings and worries...

At least, it will only eat me up but not those who loves me.

Such a Relief~!!!

Assignment title: Motivation assignment Singapore 11
Returning/marking status

Grade: C - Credit

The moment i saw the grade, im so happy!!
I did not expect it.
I thought i might get P1 or P2.
I was really terrified of being caught in Plagiarism.
The grades are :

HD-High Distinction, D -Distinction, C-Credit,P1 - Average Grade, P2 - Bare Pass

And i got a Credit.

But there's one thing that worries me!!
Assignment 2 for this subject is kinda hard.
Im truly clueless and i do not know how to start it.

Till now, im stucked...ARGH!!!

Mood: Delighted

See the smiley!!
Thats how wide the smile i put on my face.
Hee3x. Nothing else that i can say except for a
BIG THANK YOU.

I finally got my Manja Edition with the bag. Although, i did not manage to get the Black one, well i must say that is, its the magazine that i need, not the bag.

And, i got a pair of sandals too. Just a normal simple one for me. Well, i cant buy those expensive one, coz maklumlah i nih ganas u!! Haha!!

Thanks once again. Muacks Muaxz!!!

Darkness Around Me

Haiz.....Banyak benda dalam pikiran nih, sampai tak tahu nak luahkan mana satu. Semakin hari, semakin serabut. Kadang-kadang, otak nih terus jammed, tak tahu apa nak buat lagik. SEjak kebelakangan nih, hidup ni rasa teramat lah susah. Rasa mcm nak putus asa pun ada.

Problem pertama/kedua /ketiga...dan seterusnya sampai bila-bila....

DUIT

Perkataan yang singkat tapi maknanya besar.

Orang kata , duit bukanlah segala-galanya.

Tapi tanpa duit jugalah boleh menjadikan orang gila dan tak tentu arah.

Pening kepala nih, nak pikir pasal duit nak bayar tuh, nak bayar nih.Insurance, Yuran Sekolah, Bill HP, duit Transport Pergi balik Kerja dan sekolah,Duit Makan, Duit nak kasi Mak bapak, Duit untuk rawatan kulit aku nih.Duit rawatan kulit ngan yuran sekolah - confirm kena bayar takbleh escape.

Insurance pun tiap2 bulan confirm kena bayar.Bill Hp - Terpaksa kurangkan, Langkah Pertama - terminate Colour Me Tone. Bender alah nih tak Impt.So tadi, tamatlah riwayat service tuh. So kalau korang call aku, dgr bunyi baisa ajer lah yer.So skarang nih kena rajin-rajinlah guna talipon rumah. Makan nak kurangkan boleh, tapi aku nih bermasalah, takleh kurang makan.

Tak makan ajer, sakit..camner nak save gini.

Kerja aku plak tgh buat hal. Boleh jadi gila! Aku tgh sabar nih jer.

Cukup Masa meletup jugak tao. Gaji bayar lambat. Dier nak suruh aku makan apa, datang kerja ngan apa eh..Sepatutnyer dapat hari 21, tapi samapi skg..dah nak dekat next pay, pun tak masuk lagik.Kalau Fri nih, tak masuk, terus terang ar eh...Sat nih jugak last day aku.Tak mampu nak gi kerja. Dlm bank tinggal $10 jer. Cuber terangkan sikit eh, camner nak hidup gini.Tapi mmg ura-ura nak berhenti kerja, carik kerja lain. Dah bosan ngan kerja nih. Kiter nih dah lah temp staff, tak dpt privelege plak tuh. nak amik leave pun nak kena document.Merepek betul. Takder welfare langsung untuk kiter. Kiter nih manusia jugak sehTapi ntahlah, kemungkinan besar cukup bulan nih, last lah aku kerja sana. Tgklah mcmana.Masih dalam pertimbangan

Ingatkan, nak start business. Tapi business apa eh? Aku nih takder pengalaman.Nak jadi make up artist...hmmm cert ada tapi pengalaman takder.Practice pun kurang.Nak practice kat muker sendiri tak boleh, tgh rawatan. Kalau makeup makeover ker dinner and dance ker, bolehlah jugak. Kirer mintak upah dlm $30 ker $50 ker..oklah jugak. Ada jugak Hasil.Kalau tunang ngan kahwin, woo belum boleh lagik lah tak berani seh. Tapi kalau lah sekiranya aku set up nih business, ada ker org nak support sedangkan byk lagi make up artist yang berpengalaman kat luar. Tadi Mardiana msg, nak suruh aku make-up kan dier Fri nih for her dinner and dance, tapi tuhlah sayang sekali, dier blg last minute plak..Aku dah make plans nak celebrate bday kawan aku, dah booking semua tempat seh. Baru habuan nak masuk, dah melepas lagik..sighz..

Apa kata kalau aku buat business makanan, puff ker kuih ker cake ker..apa2 lah..Korang rasa, korang akan support ker?? Korang nak order dari aku tak? Apa kata aku berhenti kerja nih, aku duk rumah blaja masak apa2 lah...pas tuh kasi org sample then korang order..amcam ok ker? Sambil tuh boleh aku concentrate dgn studies aku. Tapi aku takleh harapkan hasil dari business jer, kena carik kerja tetao jugak, nih pun sambilan2.So what do you think guys, will you support me if im involved in all this? Will you?

Otak buntu sekarang nih..BUNTU!!!!!

Mcm nak nangis pun ada..mcm nak melalak pun ada.

Tak pernah rasa sesak mcm gini. Nak beli apa-apa pun kena pikir dua kali. Nak beli sandal biasa buat gi kerja pun, terpaksa tunda dari hari raya sampailah skang..Pakai jerlah apa yang ada.. Tadi aku tgk kat kedai simei, kasut $10 - lawa lawa...murahkan $10 jer - dan buat pertama kali dlm hidup aku, aku rasa $10 amat berat sekali.. Kadang2 sedih jugak tgk keadaan aku mcm gini. Terpaksa simpan jer lah hasrat dlm hati. Dan Juga buat pertama kalinya, aku miss "Manja' Edisi December tahun nih. Mana2 aku pergi, dah takder.sbb aku carik dah lambat. Maklumlah takder duit, dari aku blanjer $3 tuh , lebih baik aku simpan h buat makan satu hari.

Sedih...im so Sedih...so Depressed and Down!!!

Friday nih nak gi celebrate bday kawan aku, haiz duit lagik kan.

Kalau tak pergi mcm tak sporting gitu, bday aku dan lain2, dier pun share jugak belikan hadiah untuk aku.Lagipun, dier salah seorang yang memberi kesan dalam hidup aku.

Geng kitaorang - hehe bukan geng merepek eh..

Geng consist of Abg G, Zulekha,Fyza,Uncle Shis dan aKu.

Uncle Shis dah gi haji, Will only be back n 27 DEc. Semoga uncle Sihat kat sana.

Doakanlah yang terbaik untuk saya.

Dan tak lupa juga,

Lastly, Thanks Ben for your help all this while and your understanding in all matters.

Sajak - Hampir

I was cleaning up my folders in my Laptop when i chance upon a poem, ive written way back.
Cant remember when it is, but i guess it could be during my emo-emo days..Ahakz..

Hampir

Hampir aku terlupa pada yang kekal esa
Yang Mencipta memberi Nyawa
Hampir aku terlena dibuai mimpi indah
Yang hanya wujud di alam maya
Hampir aku terlanjur dalam dakapan asmara
Yang Hanya membawa aku didampingi dosa
Hampir aku terseksa dalam derita cinta
Yang meracuni minda menghancuri jiwa

Bangunku dari khayalan
Berpijak di bumi yang nyata..
Menyedari akan kenyataannya...

AKu adalah hambanya
Tiada kekal dalam dunia
Aku Manusia biasa
Tidak Dapat lari Dari dosa
AKu Sering diuji
Untuk Melihat Ketaatanku PAdanya
Dunia Yang Sementara
Penuh dengan tipu daya