Not Even a Pinch of hope

What more can i say..feeling something deep down inside..but rather unsure of what the feeling is..Friends advice me to cry if i need to..let it all out and hopefully i will be ok for days to come. I wish i could cry..i wish i could let this tears running down..but my vow prevented me.
i promise i wont shed a tear for a guy..is that y i couldnt.
This sounds weird...I Wanted so much to cry..to let go of this feeling inside me..but something stopping me.
Im feeling something..but i dunnoe what it is. Too much dissapointment they say...but is that really the reason???????
Y do everytime i have to put up with this. Putting up with excuses that was purposely made. Y cant this species tell the truth. Love me if u need to..Hate me if u want to..Be frank with me IF YOU HAVE TO. The most painful moments is to know that you dindt meant your words..u said one thing but u did another...Y do u have to punish me this way.

No wonder you drift apart...having someone being by your side..
All my prayers was not answered..im only left with a Brokenheart.

Now im all alone..getting my feet..walking away...from this cruel ending..

PMS / LSC

For Women its called Pre-Menstrual Stress..and For Men its called Low Sperm Count. Hehe

Almost lived in this world for almost 23 years..and i have to accept the fact that i actually inherited my fren Hanot's Character..that is PMS mood! Everything went wrong and haywire this few days..and i had to admit..few people actually got my nerves really pumps up and i actually vent it on them..and adding on to it..all my planned seems don't go my way.

So here i am, officially with bloggers as a witness..would like to apologize those concern..especially Fazly, for having to take the situation when i blow up for simply NO valid Reason. Sorry for the harsh attitude and unconsiderate behaviour and tempers. I just couldnt help it thou. TO Faizal, WEll i dunnoe whether he is still reading it. Sorry if i ever said anything that hurt you..or even break ur trust..but frankly i dindt do it intentionally. Maybe i take things seriously and jokingly at a wrong timing.

I just hope things would turn out better next week.

FUCKINGLY

• Dissapointed
• Devastated
• Disaster
• Demoralised

Im totally...SAD!

Everything Went Wrong...

Expressway

Was awoken up by my name calling from my dad repeatedly. Quickly get up from my beautifully dream..and all i ask is to answer the bloody phone that is ringing n ringing. So feeling groggy..i picked up the call and realise that it was my elder bro on the line.

What make me so irritated was..haiyah..he call just to test me on road matters..aiyoh.i just wake up from my sleep man! The question was.." How many expressway there are in Singapore???"
Urgh...my mind went blank. What do u expect..i just woke up..im still feeling shaky..All i answer was..i call u back lah..i just woke up ar..hehe..Right after that i call my fren Fazly...and he told me there was 5 Expressway in SPore....Straight away i call my bro..and i get " Apa 5? byk kau nyer 5? ada 8..kau pergi carik..."
Fazly...thanks egh!!! Baik ar u nyer jawapan..

SO..since i cant think with my groggy feeling.. i went to take a bath. Freshen up a littile. Hmm..i call my dearest Mika..but he was driving..so i sms him instead.. And he replied me with all the 8 expressway...follow by an extra one which is on the process " coming soon"
THanks Mika~...How can i not admire u..ur so..knowlegable..approachable...enjoyable...ahh..and many2 more.hehe.. (im melting)
Call my bro staright away..and yeah..he said" yeah thats the answer.." and he brief me a little bit of the expressway...and i took the opportunity to ask him..when he wants to being me to drive in an expressway...and he said when both are free loR...hehe..i just cant wait!

Ok..so Lesson Learnt this morning.

THere are 8 current expressway in Singapore...and 1 coming soon.

• PIE ( Pan-Island Expressway)
• ECP ( East Coast Parkway)
• TPE ( TAmpines Expressway)
• CTE ( Central Expressway)
• SLE ( Seletar Expressway)
• AYE ( Ayer Rajah Expressway)
• BKE ( Bukit Timah Expressway)
• KJE ( Kranji Expressway)
• KPE - Coming soon....

Mind Jammed.

I have been trying every night..
To penned my thoughts..
But no words could simply let out..
My mind went totally blank..

There's a lot of things going thru my mind these few days
Almost abt everything..
Life...Love..Present..Future...
All i can say its never ending..

And Tonite..i try to blog again
Hoping my "toungue are not tied:
But then again..
no words came out...

I shall try again..tommorow..hehe

Wish he Was there..

All this while..i have been wanting him to be there with me...

To share my Joys..and sorows..
To witness my succeed moments or even my failures...
To hug me when i needed one
To console me when i cry..

Although i may not get the hugs..the console..
Sharing my joys and sorrow..and him being there with me..is sufficient enough..
Almost accomplish..but then again..it fades..

But i know..that Someone's watching over me.
With his blessings..i lead on my life..
No matter what life still goes on..

And his presence will always be with me...

Its Sunday...

Hmm.surprisingly im @ home. Well..THe mum gonna go to some wedding function..and i being the innocent, helpful, caring daughter stayed at home in the meantime to Care for the Dad. Been lazing ard since morning. My head does feel a bit of heavy. Thot of going out later to TM to get some pressie for my adorable niece, Iffah. BUt got to wait till the mum is back..

Been logging in the Pc since like 11. The bums are soaring now.haha.. DOing a lo of hings at the same time..house chores...the cross stich..and on standby when the dad needs help..haha.im sleepy actually. Hmm..

Anyway..a new friend gave me this..


Thanks dear...appreciates it very much . Ur so Suuuweeeet....But of Coz..im SweetERRrrrrr.Hehe

• Dissatisfaction with my instructor

Issit me or isst em? THis is my 2nd instructor..and im still not satisfied with the service and the way they teach. Am i being the problem one who just cant get it into my head..or are they the one whose not up to the standard.

1st instructor - Steven.
Definately not gd in teaching. Very Paranoid with his new brand car. He's too Afraid my driving would damage his car. VeryCalculative abt money and the time spent on each lessson. Always finish my lesson before the timing. Cheated on My money

2nd Instructir - Heng
Good in teaching initially. Slackens after i know how to drive. Sleeps while im driving so no mistakes was pointed out. Reading newspaper that blocks my side mirror view. Late in giving instructions. EXPECT me to Remembered all the routes..NOt Calculative in Money and time Spent.

So again issit me or em?

• Points to Remember

1st - Syeeda pls remember to not ignore the blindspot..check the blindspot when ur turning.
2nd - Syeeda, when lane changing..pls do not concentrate only to the rear vehicle..but u need to observe the movements of the car infront.
3rd - While waiting to turn on a cross junction, pls do not station ur vehicle as such that u cause obstruction to other road users that cause them to change lane.
4th - Pls pls observe the front car..as far as possible and react accordingly.
GUys..i need ur blesssings..Pls pray that i make it thru

Happiness.

YEah...:)

But probably for a while...

ANd soons misery will come again.

1. How the Night goes

• Did my Work
• Rest
• Eat
• Sleep
• Watch Vcd
• Sleep Again
• Work
• Rest
• Go Home.

:) :) :) :)