SAlamz Peepz!



Feeling very full now..after eating 2 pc Meal from KFC. Oh my! I feel so SinfUl...I need to shed off some FAts...
Been feeling low lately, A lot of things is going thru my mind. Life has never been easy..and as a human..life is never perfect. Every single day we lead on has never been easy..a lot of hurdles that we need to face each single day. There will be fortunates and unfortunates people. For those fortunates...they will lead their life with a smile..but for those who are not..they will be struggling to survive. But At Each single seconds..we need to remind ourself that the sky will never Always be "sunny bright"...indeed there are times where it will be "dark and cloudy" and YES..it will "rain" somehow...

As for me..life has never been better..i admits that sometime things get out of hand. Stressed yes..thats the keyword..almost abt everything...

• Career

How will my fate be after the end of my contract? Seems that i will be renew my airport pass..and renewing it for 3 years...does that give a clue somehow? A collegue Farouk was renewed for 1 yr..cos he's a permanent and he will change his pass to permanent together with the permanent staffs. Does that mean that we will be renewing our contracts? I aint sure..Sometimes this give me a thought..
Currently been searching for new jobs, but to no avail..no calls up yet..Planned to just stay at airport for the mean time while i find a permanent and secure job. Its not that i detest working in airport.. I confessed it was fun working with a bunch of caring and fun people. My life feel imcomplete w/o them there. I enjoyed working with them...but the politics...Nah! Its always the office politics that died the spirit off.

• RElationship

One Word.

TOugh.

Relationship has never been easy. Paranoid. Insecure. Trust. SIncere. Loving. Concern and etc. All plays a part. QUestions will keep fiddling in our mind. Is he/she being true and honest towards oneself? Is he/she cheating towards oneself? Is he/she Loves oneself from the bottom of thier heart sincerley, lovingly? Is ?how? WHere? WAs? Why? Common.
But try thinking abt it..why do all these questions pop up when we are in relationshipS? Its becoz..we love that person with all our heart. Jealousy exist because we feel insecure...we want our own man/woman to love us and only us..not by sharing his/her love to others. ANother reason of jelaousy is to affection..."manja"..or as what in malay says " Cemburu tandanya Sayang"
It all start withs friendship..and blossoms into love. But Feelings in relationship and feelings in friendship is never the same. in relationship..just a small matter can cause and argument. Thats what they call parts and parcels of relationship.
We as a human..need to trust our own partners..be honest..if "long term" is what we want.

Hmm..im tired...of typing..i share my thoughts when i blog agian. C ya!

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Agar kukenal erti rindu ini
Ingin aku menyelami jiwamu
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Ingin aku membenci dirimu
Tapi kebencian tiada padaku
Walau apa yang kau sangkakan
Aku tetap cinta padamu

Telah lama kuhidup melara
Telah kugagal dalam bercinta
Kini kau datang dengan seribu bintang
Bintang yang dulu sembunyi
Bintang yang tiada bererti

Kalau kau sudi menyentuhi hatiku
Aku kan selalu dekat padamu
Tapi jangan kau hanya cuba
Untuk mempermainkan cintaku

Jangan permainkan cintaku

~ AlleyCats

Im Going off to work in 1 hrs time....On my night shift tonite...no difference from other night. It will be basically Werk...talk with Boo on the phone....then watch movie..layan Farouk and Abang G karenah...Theni will ZZzzzzz.....He He! ( Sometimes...layaning karenah Abg G and Farouk is very entertaining...can make anyone forget every problem in the world..Trust me in this!:P)

Oh yah..did i tell you that..i revamp my Room...Again! Hehehe. Well..been planning to shift some things from my room actually...since years back..hehe no lah kidding ajeR! Was pretty bored at home..and becoming more bored looking at my room...very very MESSSYYY! And so that day i revamp my room..it is not fully ready yet..still a bit messy..with my past year book and all. I wonder y the heck do i still keep my poly book..and most of all My O Level BOOK! Hehehe...
I will upload the new look of my room when its ready yah.


Every tear that flows falls into the ocean
And rises to the sky
And then the rain will come
Right before the sun shines...

~Santana

GUa Ckp..sama koRang eh...

Gua Bukan Mcm Dulu ar Beb,..Gua tak Tahu KenapA..aR..

Tapi Gua..aSik TaK SeDap Hati Ajer..This feW Days..

Mcm Ada Benda aR...

Aku Tak Tahu aR..Mcm Ada SeSuatu Yang Tak Kena...

Gua Rasa..Diri Gua Tak SeLamat Ar...

Syida, you're fit to commit because you've met the right person Sure, you've been in love before, but it looks like you've really found a match in this one. You've probably been around the block a few times, and you know exactly what's out there. Whether you've had a few heartbreaks or some dating disasters, you know a keeper when you find it.




I HOPE SO....

Something went Wrong...

Im Acting Strong....

I dun feel at ease!

After seeing sumthing...

I know i should not be feeling this..
coz its History...
But as a woman u cant blame me...for being this way..
Its a Woman's Nature..

Im not Mad...not Even Angry..just not feeling right..

I Luv u D!

• Marriage / Engagement

Oh My..Whats up..with all the people around me????????????????!!!!
Why suudenly everone is talking abt this subject...I wonder..
Am i getting too old..???

Let me C.....

27th May 2006 - Joy's Wedding (Secondary School Friend)

3rd June 2006 - Mas Engagement ( Poly Friend)

4th June 2006 - Faizal's Engagement ( COusin)

11th June 2006 - Fara's Wedding ( Secondary School Friend)

XX June 2006 ( cant rembr the date) - Mini's Wedding ( My Longest Internet Friend)

August 2006 - Shikin's boyfriend gonna masuk meminang..and will plan on the engagement...

Above all the congratulations...and Happiness...

Found out this morning..mu kuzin on my maternal side..just "putus tunang". haiz...

i envied them..but at the same time..feel happy for em...Lucky of them to have their loved one's by their side...

im Missing My Boo NOW...

Mother's Day...

Mother's Day was spent basically at home with the family...
A celebration of Mother's Day...cum My Elder's Brother Birthday..
Hm..just a simple clebration i could say..let the pictures do the talking then..

Im Such a USELESS

• Person....
• Friend...
• GIrlFriend....

I feel so shit...and crappy! Im asking myself..Why have i been like this...THis is just not me...I have been very difficult this few months i guess... Am i one...?? Could somebody TELL ME???
I worried out of no reason..I feel hurt out of no reason..I felt hurt without any reason..and i BECAME Over Sensitive without any FarKing Reason....

Im Bad..Yeah im Bad...
But Heck??!!!! Whats the cause of it shit???
I Hate to feel this...and i fell guitly to the Whole world..
I felt guilty especially to those around me..
Especially him...

THe Main Thing that disturbs me....

When U dunt do..what u said ur gonna do

I guess im like small kids where u cant make promises to me..where i will tuntut..
And if i dun get it..i will throw tantrums..but me..no its kinda diff thou..i dun throw tantrum..
But i will be worried like hell!!!! And to the extend of making me out of breath...and yeah..
I notice it...when im worried...i tend to reach out for my inhaler quite often..WHats Happening to me???

Maybe i feel so insecure and thats leads to this. Maybe what my "sicko fren" told me before is true...That its because i went thru a lot..and what i mean is a lot of dissapointment, betrayal, hurt,Liars...that i tend to become..very careful abt sertain stuffs..and that get me secure..Maybe he is Rite..Argh!!

I Need to be console...

Ps: <3 d

Yeah Yeah Dah boleh!!!!
Yeah Yeah!

Haha...im crazy!!! Nah..actually im more than excited to know that i manage to solve the thumbdrive thingy with the installed password...
Hehe..although its not my thumbdrive..but haha..im much much more excited than the owner..
Apa taknyer..bertungkus lumur trying to figure it out..EMail THe Cust Svc of Imation...
Although their service tak efficient sgt..lembap gitu reply..but then again..appreciated their help very much...

One Whole day..duk umah ajer..Tidur ard 1Hr + ajer kat rumah after my night shift..probably due to aku dah cukup tidur kat kerja..Thot of goin out..but HE was too Tired. Kesian dier..Nvm lah..masih ada masa lain nak keluar...Anyway..i got nuthing much to blog now..just enjoy the pics lah..i took at werk...

My Friend was testing my new phone camera....Hehe

ITs me & Yati...

Me & Serene...- Tommorow will be her last day at werk..I wish her sucess in her career...

Im Gonna Miss Her...My CUte little Chubby Serene!!!!

ThumbDrive...

Fuh! Wuite a hard time im having mingling tingling with this TumbDrive. I dint know Imation got such problems..but then again..everything have flaws..and i guess we R the unlucky one to have a defect thumbdrive. Hmmz...

Was figuring and solving it out since yesterday..at last i resort to emailing the Imation Helpdesk.
After few sending and replying of messages... they stated that.

"You might have a corrupted file system or some of your data in your drive is corrupted."

but not too worry..they will be sending me the Factory formatted..and it can reset the drive back to factory default..

So Here u go Huda..~

Good Afternoon Peepz!!!!!

TIme now 1.48pm. My stomach kinda grumbling thou. Hehe..but i guess i shall wait till 6pm to eat my lunch cum dinner. Got to control my food intake. Anyway..im werking tonite..hmmz..let me c, Abg G will be at work so i guess my Nite shift will surely be happening. I guess..Abg G is the saviour and the entertainer of my shift. Without him, my shift became so dull and gloomy. The office seems to be more silent without his crap.

End of May marks..the day that i completed 1 year of my contract with SIAEC out of the 2 year Contract. At the mean time, im still keeping a lookout for opportunities that offering a permanent job. Well its not that i dun like the current place now. Frankly, i love the friendly environment of my office except sum peepz which is not to mention. If one day, i have to go..i would miss my collegues the most..

Well..actually my plan was u know maybe to get a permanent and stable job so i do not have to worry what will be my future like..if my contract has ended..i dun have to worry where i shall find money to pay all my bills..to assist the family. And on top of it, i thought of maybe upgrading myself..and therefore i need an office hr job. Well..this is just planning thou.

Kiter Merancang ..Tuhan Menentukan...

My Sunshine..

I guess i found my sunshine.

For the first time ever...

I did not reply to Mika's Message..

I wish my sunshine will always lightens my day even if it has to go far away..

Another Mission Accomplish.

Motorola V3X is in my hands now..:)

K now...
I hate what im feeling now..i feel so insecure..
Maybe i feel this because i wanted to give my heart and soul to someone
but im afraid to do so..
Im afraid that he will mistreat me..
Im afraid he will neglect me..
Im afraid he will leave me
Im afraid of a lots of things
But at the same time im emjoying the present moments...

Kerna cintakanmu ku jadi begini
Kerna sayangkan mu ku telan semua
Betapa hebatnya kau di hati ini
Kenapa kau tak pernah fikirkan aku (hatiku)
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihanmu
Ku sedar siapa diriku di sisimu (hatimu)Di sisimu…

- Hetty Sarlene (Siapa Diriku DiSisiMu)