Another One Down

Hectic....TIred...LEthargic..thats how i currently feel at the moment. Had a long day at work..Busy as a Bee... Although my job requires me to sit in the office almost all the times, but in a way the most affected ones are our mentality. It really affects coz my job needs me to stare at the screen. Probably becoz of the position im in everyday at work made my neck and shoulders HURT like hell.

Ok.one of my previous entry was about a collegue who got terminated aite? and now...another one down. My partner..whom i said was on MC. He resigned!! And that means..i have to manage my shift all by myself. If for a short period of time..its ok, But looks like its gonna be a long term basis till they find me a new partner.Im looking forward to it but at the same time..i wish it would be non-malay cos just in case if i dint get the job at the other end..and if they offer me perm there..hehe its easier for me to take leave during festive season.:)

I guess im turning in real soon. My eyes are heavy..and my neck plus shoulder have been aching lately and i dunnoe why. Anybody can give me a massage???

Ive been staring at this "Racer"( a name i got for my laptop) for quite a long time trying to blog but it seems nothing came out. NOt to say that my mind is currently blank and i got no idea at all to blog. In fact, there's a lot of things inside my mind and tis kinda messed up till i dunnoe which to attend ferst.

For sure, there is something that is troubling me..and disturbing the peace of my mind. Nuthing interest me at the moment. Was tidying up a bit of my room, when suddenly the mood changed tremendously and i started to stare into spaces. I tried to distract myself by watching some vcds, but that too desnt work and i ended up sitting infront of Racer and staring at it. i thot i could blog..but i failed in that too. It seems so hard for me to blog personal things nowadays. Probably im afraid that by me blogging about what i feel in here would eventually depressed me deeper..and thus i kept it to myself.

At the end of the day..
1) My room is not totally tidied up
2) Not a movie i completed watching
3) Im still depressed.

Kenyang Kenyang...

Hmmmm....

I assumed i would be richer this month due to the two cycle payment, but luck was not on my side..i got only 1 cycle..so not too good but again not too bad..coz it also means..next month im richer. Haha..

So...last two days..aku gi shopping. Rancangan sepatutnyer shopping ngan Enotz. Tapi di saat-saat akhir, terpaksa batalkan disebabkan enotz dipanggil kerja. So aku ajak Fyza, kawan kerja aku untuk temankan. Nasib baik jugak dier boleh pergi, kalau tak nampak gaya merayap sorang lah. So..kiter go SIm Lim seperti yang dirancangkan..Mata rambang kat sana..Mcm2 benda ada..But aku beli yg patut jer lah..so aku dptkan Speaker untuk Laptop aku. Serbagun sebab..ia oleh digunakan untuk Ipod Sekali. Lagi satu barang, oh yah aku beli Ipod Casing..Crystal Case Warna BIru..Then kita pusing2...and we head off to Bugis. Gambar Speaker Baru aku. Cun tak????

Ok..then we go to bugis..gi makan kat KFc..and i bought myself a pair of shoe and aku beli hadiah untuk anak sedara aku. Her bday is coming. Aku belikan dier baju..tapi suker atau tidak..wallahualam! Nak amek..taknak sudah..haha! Then kiter singgah kedai Adidas..ive been eyeing this bag..lawa giler. tak tahulah org lain nampak lawa ker tak..tapi yang penting aku suker..korang tak suker..apa aku kisah.Kwang kwang! Nasib Baik..lah Adidas kat Bugis tuh tak jual bag tuh..kalau tak..ada chance aku borong jugak.HEHEH!

K..citer smalam plak..LEpas OT..kiter sekumpulan..Uncle Shis, Cik hamid, Cik Suarli, Abang G, Zul,Fyza, aku dan Guest Of Honour "Sufri hudi".gi makan kat Kampung Chai Chee. Its actually an ocassion mcm Farewell Part for Didi lah sbb he was being terminated..APa leh buat rezeki dier bukan kat situ. Rezeki aku camner plak eh?? mmmm..argh taknak pikir ar. So..kiter samapi sana 9.30mlm. mungkin sbb ramai orang..kauz..service dorang dahsyat siol..satu jam ktier tunggu..tak sampai jugak makanan. Kiter semua dah lah tahan perut sbb nak makan malam..kira2 dlm 10.45 mlm baru drg hidang..TOuching siol! PErut Melalak giler! THen kiter start lah makan semua...there was a poin bagsa perut dah takleh take it...Ingat dah habis lah kan..ruper nyer ada 3 dish lagik yang belum kuar..Masyallah! Dashyat! At last kiter bungkus..and bagi2 bawak balik. Apa taknyer..the set is for 10 pax..yg ada cumer 8 pax..hehe

First Dish: COld Dish..tak tahu lah apa dlm dier..lantak ajer
Second Dish: Sharkfin Soup..Nikmat siolz..( belen bungkus)
Third Dish: Nasi Jagung
Fourth Dish: Ikan Bakar
Fifth: Udang Rangup
Sixth: Kangkung bElacan..sedap tapi tawar sikit..Dah lapar telan jer lah
SEventh: Keladi..err tak sentuh pun..tak reti..(bungkus)
Ini partlah ingat dah habis...rupernyer
Eight: AYam Lemon SAuce ( bungkus)
Ninth: Baby Squid (bungkus)
Tenth: Chap Choi Veggie(bungkus)
Last: Desert(bungkus)

Kenyang Kenyang.....*Burps* ALhamdulilah...

Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki pada yang mulia CIk suarli dan Cik hamid Sbb Belanja kiter2 nih semua..Amen!

Hari ini Punya lah penat. Woooish teruk juga aku niari. Dah almost sebulan lebih aku kerja sorang, PArtner aku ntah hilang ker mana...terus ghaib. Dgr2, Officer sampai carik dia kat rumah tapi tak dpt jumper. dan Skg nih Boss aku pun dah tak tahu nak buat apa lagi, melainkan menyerahkan pada HR untuk membuat keputusan. Dan kerana itulah aku harus buat semua perkara sendirian. Ada OT pun hmmm..bukannyer boleh harap sgt lah kan. Dulu ada si DIDI, ringan sikit beban aku..responsibility aku. sbb dier banyak dpt membantu aku, walaupun cumer sikit jer yg dier tahu..tapi ada lah jugak yg dier boleh bantu. Si Asten OT tadi..dier cuem buat 7 barang jer..AKu pulak takder masa nak tgk apa yang dier buat..AKu very the busy.
Niari aku main kejar-kejar..barang tuh takder lah hilang lah transit lah..penat seh..
Communication breakdown lain..Haiz...

Actually aku nak type lagik..tapi tangan dan mata tak mengizinkan..so aku belah dulu ajer lah k..
Sambung besok..C ya~

Trust....

Short word yet Meaningful
Easy to give but once betrayed..there's no turning back.
Hard to gain when betrayal was made.
It is also significant in relationship.
FAmily, Couples, BF & GF.

Bagi aku Kepercayaan tuh Bukan suatu Perkara Mudah. Memang Memberi seseorang Kepercayaan itu mudah..tapi seandainya Kepercayaan itu sudah tiada lagik..agak sukar untuk Mengembalikannya. Dan mungkin juga ini akan sedikit sebanyak memberi kesan terhadap Orang lain jugak. Oleh Kerana terjadinyer perkara perkara pahit masa silam, untuk memberi sepenuh kepercayaan pada insan yang baru mungkin agak susah sedikit.
DAn Kerana tiada kepercayaan atas pasagan masing-masing, maka akan terjadi lah pertelingkahan yang tidak sepatutnya diadakan. Diri sendiri juga akan sentiasa rasa takut dan imaginasi akan sentiasa fikirkan yang bukan-bukan.

Untuk Memulihkan Keadaan sebegini memakan masa yang agak panjang. Dan ia juga perlukan dua belah pihak untuk sama2 menyelesaikan masalah ini. Tapi bagaimana sekiranya sebelah pihak ini tidak melakukan apa2. Tidak mengerti masalah yang sedang pasangannya menghadapi. Pada si Lelaki, dia memberi kepercayaan nyer pada si perempuan dan dia harap si perempuan akan memberikan kepercayaan yang sama. Walaupun setelah mendapat tahu apa si perempuan pernah lalui...dier tetap berkeras bahawa dia tidak seharusnya disamakan dengan orang lain yang pernah melukai dan mempermainkan hati si perempuan...

Jadi Dalam Situasi begini, Bagaimana Pula Caranya? Bagaimana harus si perempuan ini meyakinkan diri nya bahawa lelaki ini lain dari yang lain dan si lelaki ini tidak akan menghancurkan hatinya?

Hey..hey Hello Mello Jello Welllo...Selamat Pagi Warga BLoggerz...
Amacam Sudah Sarapan ker? Hmmm...mesti sedap...bagi yang tak reti bersarapan..Hehe..Jangan lupe makan lunch yer. Muahaha...

So apa aja aku buat niari ?? Hmmm...well aku baru ajer balik dari kerja mlm nih..satu malam aku tak tido kat kerja,,Aku dok layan citer DUNIA BARU dari tv3 kat ipody..Haha..tuh lah dier temanku skang..dan aku nih dah tersangkut ngan itu citer..haiz..bukan sangkut ngan cerita..yang sebenarnya aku dah tersangkut ngan si MOhd PieRRe ANdre. Dia berlakon Sebagai Mohd Adif..Ahh...boleh gila aku layan citer tuh..dahlah aku ketawa srg2...Hai...Mohd Pierre Andre...Arghh...CLoud 9 jap..AKu suke tgk dier..cara dier ckp..mcm cool dan ala ala decent gituk..dah lah charming..dan yg paling penting..senyuman nyer ahhhh..menusuk dikalbu..Haha..OVerRated lah Pulak aku nih kan...Oklah..AKu updata pasal aku nyer Hero nih lain Kali Hehe...

So Skang nih tgh convert Video untuk aku nyer IPODY ..kebetulan Malam nih Xtra Nite aku..so bolehlah aku layan movie lagik malam nih..Hmm..ckp pasal xtra nite..Haiz..kawan best aku kat kerja si Didi dah kena Terminate..nih ar..org main busuk sak..padahal agama sama..Tak ku sangka pulak aku akan bertemu org yang mempunyai hati yang busuk. Kalau didi ada, mesti xtra nite aku nih gerek..haiz so terpaksa lah aku layan aku nyer MOHD PIerrE ANdre...Khekehe..THere i go AGain..

Oklah...Once dah bis download dan convert nih...Tuan Putri nih nak masuk beradu..HEEH SEE YA!!!

Ok..Lately i have too much to share that i actually unsure where shall i start my Entry. And another reason since its too much, therefre the word "lazy" pops up. :) But then today,i shall try my luck. Hopefully the entry will be present nicely. Hehe.

14th March 2007 - I got a lot of Unexpected Calls.

WEll...initially i did tell that it would be my last entry about my Ex. but i guess Again, as of Today i will have to talk about him again..ever since he "reappeared" in my Life.
@ 9am - Received call from him while i was sleeping. Dint entertain him that much bu i remembered him saying he was on MC. and he claims that he will call me back..and so i went back to my dreamyland.

@2pm - Received call from Mini. It was a shocking surprised i must say. I have not seen him for months after he gets married. If the avid bloggers still remember, Mini is my internet friend for i think more than 5 years but we are not destined to see each other. We catch up on a lot of things...and now Mini is a housing agent. SO if any of you interested to buy or sell a house and u need an agent, i'll recommend him to you.

I woke up and wash up..and i call my ex back wanting to ask..why he have called me up..but he was not at home. SO i leave it be.

@11pm - He called me..asking how things are..and ask me whether we can go out together..ANd so i told him yes we could and reveal my identity saying that i have someone with me now..and automatically after that the conversation was a bit strained.After much interrogation, he admitted being pissed by the news dat i have someone else..and he was dissapointed cos he thought that he would have a chance with me again...The rest, i shall keep the details within me..
BUt only one question , i would want an answer to " Why now?? "

Watching...Ugly Betty now...not really paying Attention to it haha..as im online with bro Rudy...and at the same time watching make up movies on you tube. Did nuthing much today..except dropping by at my kuzie wedding...to eat. So Cruel of me. Not that i have the intention of just eating there but due to the reasons that my migraine was pretty bad..so i had to take off earlier than i expected. If not because of the migraine, i had stay and see the bride.. Well u all know abt me, bridal and makeup. I really hope she woulf post it up somewhere so that i can actually view it. HEhe...

And so i went home..took a panadol and slept...but was awoken to the same pain like before...it just dint get off my head..ans so i got to take the painkiller...and yah i felt relieved now that the migraine had gone..and i think there would be no problem for me to go OT tommorow. I have yet to iron my uniform and im kinda pretty lazy at the moment coz im at the comfort of my own bed and as if there is a strong force that is pulling me and sticking me to my bed. Ahakz...

Ok yah...i need a model on the 15th March Again...Im really out of Idea who im gonna use..i tried asking EMy..and she's yet to confirm and i really hope seh could make it...I(Haiz Enot..kenapa lah shift kau ngan aku clash ehh....Dulu kat Income..Hari2 nampak batang idung kau...SKg nih..Tak nampak Terus dok...Aku windu saMa Kau...Kao tak WIndu aku KER??? HAHA.)

Ok..yah some pictures to view..i tried it yesterday..comment bout it for my improvements yah.

Warded at Home

Dun get Panicky! Im not hospitalized. Just warded my ownself at home. I guess after few weeks of straight Overtime, i had to give up. My Body couldnt take it anymore and im Shagged. I need some rest.If not because i fell sick, for sure, i will be at work. Hehe. Well..opportunity doesnt come bery often. My partner is on MC and therefore i could take his OT slot. FUrthermore, i dunnoe how long will i stay.Hmmmm...

Ok..so i thought of taking this moment to do some stuffs which has been due for so long but then again i failed. My Migraine was so bad that i couldnt do so much things. I dindt took my panadol as i do not want my body to be dependant on it so much and yes i bear the pain.

So...i only manage to d few things. Im done with sorting out my pictures and store it into a cd. Making a cinematic slideshow for my bro engagement event. Copy a CD which i borrowed from Didi. Oh yah, and i make up my niece...those little princess ..hehe...and yah..i resort to taking panadols and i slept after that.

Things that i still need to do:

• Springcleaning my own room
• Wash my Fan and get my father to repair it
• Sort out my VCDs and search for the missing ones
• Read my novel which has been bought for months.
• My Art & Craft Work

Ok..thats all i can think off but i guess there's more.

Anyway....here's a picture of my two little princess

At Last.....

I think I got A Lens that suits my eye well..Not of the Colour but how it suits and adapt to my eyes..Previously, when i wear contact lens especially coloured ones, my eye will turn very watery..and the lens easily moves around and my eyes will be red and itchy and even tho i just start to wear at the beginning of a day, my eyes will look so sleepy. And the lens will only last me for a few hours. I tried FreshKon, Freshkon Colour Fusion and another brand which starts with E...... ; i dun really get the name. So Now..i guess i settle down for Freshlook. So Far, so Good!! It can last me up to more than 12 hours..So im sticking to IT now...:)

Ok bout Work...1 Week have gone after the interview and y are they not calling me up??? Didnt i get it?? OH no!! I really hope that i could get that job...Working with the same company but of Different Department. As for now, i heard of rumours saying that i will get thrown out..The Gorrilla dont want me...but probably the best choice they would make for me will be i signed another 2 years of contract... And my answer will be "NO WAY STOOPID!!' Im not gona entertain such nonsense...What? The rest got a permanent place there..and i got to bear being a contract for another 2 yrs...and after 2 years...where will i go idiot?? ANd For sure if i were to find another job they would like ask me..after 4 yrs in That Company...Why u leave??? and yeah after all they would get a bad impression on me. In the other hand, Y mus i lose out?? WE came in at the same time, but i have to stick with being a contract staff..just because u dun like me...
Im not like those kind who wherever they go they smile and greet...and becoz i dun do that u label me as rude and arrogant.. Hello MR!!! GEt this in ur brain..im not a hyprocrite and never a pretender...i dun go around carrying balls ok! Oh GOd..Pls grant my wish..pls pls let.me get that job.....

Yah! yesterday i met him...at last...:) Not a good moments initially...I poured out all the feelings that i have hide it inside my heart...and i explained to him..y and all...I never ask to meet every single day...all i ask is for me to feel special and i know that someone out there care for me...I know how his work is...his committments and all..but i dun want the chances to be used again like what My ex did to me...i told him that im telling him all these not to spike him or provoked him..Everything i did is to make sure that all this thing doesnt eat me up tottaly and i know ive changed..i became very protective of myself..and its difficult for me to trsut others..all because of what my ex did to me.
All the time i was very strong while i talk things out...but i melted...when he hug me and say he is sorry..and for the first time ever i cried in someones hug...And when he sent me home..he said Sorry Again..but u knoe lah me..as i said..i become VERY protective of myself. I appreciate the forgiveness but till u dun prove it..to me the SORRY is meaningless...

But i feel glad on the outcome of yesterday happenings...

:):):)

Thats all i got to update..ANy interesting story..ill update again:)

Signing Off...

Its have alwaes been the Fear..and today it eats me up Totally...

Im Starting To Imagine.

Maybe i Should Accept Facts.

I was MEant to Lead a Life this Way.

Maybe I SHould Stop Calling.

Maybe i Should start being Selfish and EGO.

Putting myself up Among Others.

Think of Me.

Today in History, i shall Tears to Sleep.