Been doing a lot of thinking lately...About ME...ABout My Life...About Him..and ALmost about Everything..Sometimes..i question myself, Who am i? What do i Want in This Life...? What do ui Need? AnD in Fact..i cant even answer it for myself. Been feeling rather low and demoralised..
Previously....im a shy,Patience, easy-going, cheery, tolerance, devoted, honest but yet...emotional and sesitive gal. But now..im the Impatience, demanding, intolerance, difficult and still shy, devoted, honest, emotional and sensitve gal. But one Common thins is I HATE LIARS. Maybe i was blessed with this gut feeling, when a person lie to me..i could sense it.

Previously, When i was single, i use to be threatened and pushed around by all this girls whose man are my friend. Talking to their man is an offence..as if im snatching and intending to snatch thier man. Angry...dissapointed with the girl and their man. Yeah...i totally despise their acts. Threatening other girls...but for once do they look at their man. Sighz...but somhow..maybe becos of thier acts, they got to keep their man...ANd me..being the shy, good, nice caring one and a giver..always get ditch by a man..when im like totally IN LOVE and devoted to them. Either i got cheated..or i got timed. I wonder why do i deserve such a life.

And now..i got a Man Myself...I tried to be like those girls..who demand, who insisit..who seek attention. I thought i could get and be like them..WHose man are always by thier side. But i realised it deosnt make me happy either...At a point in time, i thought of giving it a shot..called the girls up..and try to buzz them off..But then again..i think it over..what makes me difference of them..?? Im just the same...I despise thier act but then again i wanted to do the same thing like them. I dun mind If they want to be friends and also im sure some of them know them longer..they exists in his life earlier than me...but they must know thier limits. I Trust my Man..but how can i trust those around him..Women's are man weaknesses. Im just afraid they went over board.

Ex-Girlfriends/ Ex-BOyfriends - I still keep in touch with mine...and in fact...he is in my workplace...I See him Often. But i believe onself have to know their limits. Memories are to be kept. Yes! In Our mind..not in Our Heart..or to be shown Around to people. At times, we need to think of our love one. We need to take care of their heart. We love them and as such we shouldnt hurt them. I dont call nor msg my ex everyday. In fact..sometimes i dont msg him at all. I Dont want to hurt him . I hEaRT him! To me what past is past..and i shall concentrate on the present and future.

Liars - I hate Them.. I TOtALLLY HATE IT! Everytime when a person lie, i sense it..Insecurity fill me up..and in few days time..the cat is out.. I came to know of it. I BEcame..Hysterical..insisit and demanding on the truth. WHy cant people understand..i hate liars..and i dun need them to lie to me..just tell the truth. Yes! the truth hurts..but Telling lies to me hurt me even more..when i found it out myself.

I guess...i have stepped to the wrong world. It was a mistake to be in this world in the first place. This is DEfinately not me. I shall go back to the old me..the patience, the easy goer..the high tolerance..the still devoted and honest girl...the nice and easy to be with girl. Coz being in this unknown world doesnt make me happy either. I shall be the girl who just broke into tears when she was cheated...I shall be the girl who just kept quiet and be patience hoping that better things would turn out when she was being timed. I shall be the obedient girl when she was not allowed to go out with her friends. I hate liars...as much as i want to know the truth..this time..i shall just keep mum. I may ask..but its ups to u people to tell me...BUt i plead to u guys..dun Lie to mE!! I guess that life is pretty much easier..raher than this UGly world of mine that im Experiencing now.

I may wish to be treated as a princess...showering me with gift..with words of love..embrace me with hugs and kisses..care for me when im sick..check on me..when im at work..but i love muh man unconditionally..and nuthing can be compared rather than asking for his unconditional love and care to me.

I believe everyone is destined to be with a man/woman.But to those who havent found thiers...dun worry..its just that the time have not come. I found my man..and i pray to Allah that he's the one who's destined to be with me. Insyallah. " Kita Merancang..tuhan Yang Menentukan"

Love me unconditionally...Accept me for who i am.. Dun Lie to me..Tell me the truth...is all iim asking For...from all of you out there...

" Ya allah...aku pasrah dgn segala yang berlaku..Hanya doa ku yang tulus dan ikhlas mengiringi.."

Something Unusual Happened at Work Yesterday. A Collegue from the Admin department...was being

RASUK.

Here how it Goes.....

Heard that she just came back from another office to her office..and suddenly felt dizzy and nausea...she felt unwell..all she could remember was she went up to the boss...and said she felt unwell...and after that she cant remember at all.

Another Friend who was there..told us..that after that..she hold her head..and start shivering furriously...and fell to the ground.A technician came by to my department and inform her fiancee which is working in my department. Her fiance which doesnt know anything went to check it out..

Few minutes later, he came in and ask help from my officer to look at her..coz she like being rasuk..so my officer went to her..and try to let her drink the water yg dah dibaca-baca. According to my officer..she doesnt even want to drink..she even point a finger to my officer..like giving warning..and give the gesture like to move away with her hand...Its as if the "thing" is trying to say: Dont u dare try anything...just buzz off. THere's a lot of people there anyway..so my officer cant help that much..all this thing needs concentrations..
So my officer ask her fiance to bring her back to his house while he call a pakcik who's professional in this. Heard from her fiance there...once they reach there..she was ask to change and wear a kain...

Surprisingly...she even joget Style jawa..and all of them said..she dance it nice..the Jawa dance was "cantik". Then the pakcik like Instruct her to Sit..and this "thing" inside her..just followed obediently. When ask to sit properly..she even duduk nicely..bersimpuh. She's like a totally different person..THen when was asked whether the "thing" wants to go out..she just nod her head...and on the process of taking it out..she like nod her head down and cry...its like the thing was very..sad. but her stare..can really tell that it was not her lah.

The Pakcik told them that.."bender nih dah lama". Then the mum baru bersuara yang Ada kisah lah dulu..She start to talk to herself when she was 17yrs old...its like she didamping oleh that Makhluk halus.. Her fiance did ask that pakcik whether nih "perbuatan orang atau apa". But the pakcik advised that..lets just dun think abt that...the most impt is..to get the thing out from her body.

Personally..me also think its better not to know..better to get that thing out from her.. Because..afriad that it mite happen to her again if it being kept didamping in her body. Bender nih lain duniw..kiter lain dunia..sesekali kalau the path crossed..it will happen again.and people surround her need to understand and know how to handle this kind of situation.
She start to become like that ard 3pm...i think ard 6pm then she Recover...After sending her home..her fiancee came back to the office..All of us were hoping everything was alright. The pakcik even advised them to do ther prayers..read Al-quran..just to protect urself and all..

Then ard 9pm..allof us were ready to clock out..when he recieved a call again...and he told my officer " Cik...bender tuh dah masuk balik ar..she is behaving like just now again"...
Namapk sah makhluk nih memain tadi..biasalah Syaitan kan.. Agaknyer dier takut ngan pakcik tuh..jadi dier kuar...dah brapa jam gitu..dier masuk balik..guarantee kali nih pakick tuh mesti marah makhluk nih..

Seram jugak kan dgr2 gini..Perkara sebegini mmg wujud didunia nih...Kiter kena percaya...sbb bender2 nih berlaku juga..Tak boleh 100% tak percaya.. Now..bila perkara nih dah terjadi kat her fiance..barulah her fiance percaya perkara2 nih wujud..sbb he dint beleive all this int he first place...Hehe
I dunnoe what happen to her after the nite....malam nih lah baru ku tahu..since aku kerja malam..
Ok..any news aku update lagik..ciaoz...

Salamz...

Yesterday..Went out with Boooooo......

Haha..Happy sak!! Biasalah kan..kalau dah tinggal jauh..susah benor nak jumper...dan masing2 pon tgh budget..hehe..So...Mana eh smalam kiter pergi...

First..jumper di..SImei...Biasalah yang Terhormat...Terlambat bangun..so dari janji kul 3 ptg...kiter postpone setengah jam..Jumper Kat Simei...Thot of going to Nokia Ctr..but He Change the plan last minute..so we decided to send it in next week. Terus kiter head to Marina Square..Main Bowling..satu game jer ar..budget haha...Than..ingat nak Main Pool...Tapi punyerlah mahel!!!! $8.40 per hour kauz!! Terkencit sak...(Ooops...sorry for the bad language)
So..kiter masuk arcade instead..Haha...Dah lama sak tak main Arcade..so kiter main Datona...Betul ker nama nyer..Kereta ar....Biasalah lah dier..yang menang...Aku carik motor takder plak..chet!! Boring...spent few mninues kat situ...then...we go Makan Ice-cream Swensen..Coincidently Adik sedara dier kerja situ...hehe..So..After makan..we head home lah..
Can say..i had aFun enjoyable time...with him.. Love u lah Dear~Hope we can do this again..

Hmm..Niari OT..gua rasa penat sesangat seh!! Ingat nak OT full 9am - 9pm...tapi haha...tak jadi..aku balik 1 hr early..besok kerja lagik..pancitz! Skg nih mcm2 gossip ada pat kerja..especially abt shift change lah shift reshuffle lah...Makin menjadi2 plak...Politics never ending punyer.!!! The one i worry most..ntah dier amik aku permanent ker tidak...hmmm...

PEMERGIAN Allahyarham Ishak Bin Ahmat.

Pemergiannya...sungguh mengejutkan. Tiada yang menduga..dia pergi dgn tiba-tiba. Allayarham menghembuskan mafasnya yang terakhir, di Jakarta sewaktuh menjalankan tugasnya. DIa dikatakan telah menghubungi isterinya dan mengadu sukar bernafas..ketika berada di sana.. Dia meninggal ketika dia beradu. DIkatakan mengihdap menyakit jantung...Tiada siapa yang tahu. Namun Allah lagi menyanyanginya..dier pergi buat selama-lamanya..Jasa, pengorbana dan kontribusinya pada dunia seni amat dihargai..Semoga Rohnya Ditempatkan Dalam Linkungan Orang2 yang Beriman~AMin!

EnuF Said...Im SuCh a DiSSapOintMent...

Ive been Tagged by Lin...

7 Random Facts About Me

1. EMotional ( SInce WhEn I Get This...i Dunt Know)
2. Putting My Love Ones Ahead of Me.
3. Sensitive ( I start to be SensiTive Recently..i dunnoe Why)
4. Forgive ( I easily Forgive People...but forget..hmm)
5. Punctual ( i will always try to be punctual..i dun like peepz to wait up for me)
6. I Dun Favour Chocolates,ice-cream and Snacks
7. I love Swensens Black Pepper Seafood Pasta!!!


7 Things That Scare Me
1. Emotional disappointment
2. Losing The one i Love
3. Being Kept in the dark
4. Death (Maklumlah bukannyer baik sgt)
5. Flying Insects
6. Going to the Girls Toilet at Werk After Midnite before subuh( Many story ar)
7. Going to shops where the Salesman are Malay Guy..who's young

7 Random Songs in My Head
1. Unfaithful - Rihanna
2. Andang Cintaku Menyala - Ezad & SAfura( Me & Boo Love Song)
3. CInta Pudar - Lips
4. Kian - Mawi ( very Deep Meaning)
5. Biarlah Rahsia -Siti NUrhaliza ( i like the sound of it)
6. Someone's Watching over me - Hilary Duff (very soothing..make me feel strong)
7. React - Eric Sermon

7 Things (or People) I Like (or Love) The Most
1. Family
2. Fazly
3. My two cute Niece
4. My HP ( I feel so small and lost w/o it)
5. My wallet..( a lot of stuff in it-money, cards and most impt..my picture and him)
6. My Friendly collegues
7. Life

7 Things I Say The Most (Often)
1. Kurang ajar kan!!
2. "D...."
3. Got Problem issit...
4. Oh...ni macam takper i ingat..( always to him..majok ar konon)
5. Shut up...
6. Rabakz sak!!!
7. Gundu..

7 People to do this
1.Zie
2.Masturah
3. Nora
4. Ijal
5. Joy
6. Syafa
7. Aqmal

Haha!!

Ive Been Tagged!!! By : Zie..
Gonna nominate some peepz later..so check it out!

20 people I could think of right now....

1.My Mother
2.My Father
3.My Boo, Fazly
4.My Niece, Iffah
5.My Niece, Izzah
6.My GoodFriend, Aqmal
7.My Close Friend Syafa
8.My Best Girl PolyMate, Adhana
9.My First Love but was not returned, Alif
10.My Best Guy polyMate, Naufal
11.My ex-collegue,Mona
12.My ex-crush, Rasul
13.My sweet looking engineer, Eddie
14.My best Dikir Friend, Faizal
15.My use to be block neighbour, Joy
16.My Secondary Form Teacher, Mdm Adibah
17.My Brother, Ahmad
18.The Anugerah Champion, Hyrul
19.My close collegue, Fyza
20.My dk friend sister, Mardiana

.The questions part.....

How did you meet #14?
My best dk Friend, Faizal...Oh met him Thru Syafa..

What would you do if never met #1?
I wont be in this world...

What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
Mardiana and my first Love dated...haha..i dun think so mardiana is already married

Have you ever like #19?
My best collegue Fyza, yeah i like her for who she is..very cheerful and bubly..and LOUD

Would #6 and #17 make a gd couple?
Aqmal and my brother Ahmad??? NO! Although they may know each other..

Describe #3?
My Boo, Fazly.
Very Funny, Loving, Charming...Although at times he really get on my nerves..but i still LOVE him..

Do you think #8 is attractive?
My best girl polymate...she is always attractive..

Tell me something about #7?
Syafa, my secondary friend...very shy...blur...and yet very cerewet..:)

Do you know any of #12's family?
No...Not even one..

What would you do if #18 confess that he likes you?
Anugerah Champion, says he likes me...Oh cool~ ill ask him to sing for me every now and then..

What language does #15 speak?
Joy...Hmm..ENglish, Malay..i guess

Who is #9 going out with?
Hmmm..His Girlfriens..byt the name of IMA

Would you ever date #4 ?
Of Course...VEry cute and Loving Niece

Would you date #7 ?
Syafa? Hehe..Definately no..i aint no lesbian

Is #15 single?
Joy???? Single??? She's MArried!!

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11 ?
Mona! No...She may be Crazy and easy to hang up with..but serious relationship..no~

What school does #3 go to?
Previously from ite yishun.

Where does #6 lives?
Aqmal...@ Woodlands

What's your favourite thing about #5?
My Niece, Izzah...Her Cute Smile..

Have you seen #1 naked?
No...!!! What a sick question~

Now I need to pick 5 peoples to do this....Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!!

So the nominees are:-
1) MArdiana
2) MAsturah
3) Lin
4) Nora
5) AnyRia
Once you read my tag...feel free to do it ok.Nvm take ur time!

* Rules:Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people.

Recap on the Past few events...

• 7th July - Our 2nd Month Anniversary

Hmmm...Personally to us..our first month was really a drag.. It took so much and too long to reach the first month...but then agian this time...Time really is ticking fast..Never did we known that we have been together for 60 days..and more to come.

Nothing Special on that day..he call me on 6th July, ard 11.30pm..as i remembered, we were debating on education stuffs. The fact is, we are really debating..abt IQ, EQ and how one day the Diploma Cert will just a SHIT and no one will look at it...And at the peak of our debating, suddenly he just paused and wish me "Happy Anniversary..and says that its 12 am"
HOW SWEET!! We never got to celebrate it officially due to both of us working...maybe we could say that on the 4th we met..and have dinner at popeye's. Does it count?

At times, i dream it could be better..maybe having some candlelight dinner..with a sea scenery...with the cool breeze blowing on our direction..Having a delicous feast...He treat me like a queen and i treat him like a king..He surprised me with gifts...some personal touch..hugs and kisses..some loving and romance..ending it up with him sending me home with a car..so that he could go back in a car too..dun have to take the train..wishing me gd nite...a slight kiss on my forehead..HOW ROmanTic! Is that So much to AsK? Hehe

Ok Done! Back to HomeLand...I knew it wld never happen. But i really wish our next and next and next anniversary..the ending would be much better..Perhaps. Anyway..I wish Us a Happy Anniversary..Semoga Allah Limpahkan Rahmat Pada Kami Berdua~

• Parents in Malacca Again

Hmm.. Mum n Dad..went to Malacca again Yesterday with the Car. Left the daughter and the son at home. Are we being abandoned..haha..i dun think so. Both of us are big enough i shall say. The ELder Brother At his own Home..with his family. Werking Nyte Shift today. Boo Attending An engagmenet function with his family in Choa Chu Kang.. The Brother at werk. Left me alone the whole day...Cook Myself a Maggi Goreng, Ayam Goreng..hehe..

HEhe....Yum!Yum! Just a simple dish..takder bahan nak masak lagi sedap..furthermore im alone. Oklah..off to werk.

PS: Ive been tagged but no time lah today..tommorow maybe.

Ive been tagged by two peeps...and i got to have suffcient time to do this..so just wait for it..probably tommorow..im tired now..

Broke....Broken...Broke!!!!!!

FCUK!!!!

Im BlooDy Broke...My HP bill is Killing me...and Digging a hole in my Pocket..
All my Life, i Never inherited so much cost on my bills..OH NO!
SingTel even sent a reminder regarding my BILLS!
And never did i know of that they will charge me for late payments..
Never Bother about me Stating the exact figure on this solely blog of mine..
Coz...I DUN EVEN WANNA SEE THE DIGIT!!!

HELL HELL HELL

Anyway, returning from work..i sacrifice my savings..
And pay that bloody bill..and im now left with $75 bucks which i will pay when i get my next salary...
Now..i got to live on my balance for another 2 more weeks...
Can i survive...i hope i do..
Or ill need to starve...
But hey..good sign too..Need to Shed some of thie bulging fats that is growing in my body...ERK!

Artis : Mawi
Tajuk : Kian

Kian jauh
Kian hilang
Kasih antara kita
Nampak tenang pada zahirnya
Tapi batin terseksa
Yang terguris tak nampak di mata
Yang terhiris terluka

Sesekali terbit air mata
Tahan sebak di dada
Kemanakah nak dibawa
Resah kian melanda
Di manakah hendak ku khabar
Pilu di dalam dada
Bila kasih di hujungnya nyawa
Rasa ingin dimanja
Perasaan pun kian tersentuh
Bila rindu ini berlabuh

Apakah yang dikejar dalam hidupmu
Berkali ku kata padamu
Kita singgah di dunia yang sementara
Penuh tipu daya
Yang kekal di sana
Biarlah kita bersama
Usahlah hanyut terus terlena
Kerana dunia

Pada aku masih ada
Kasih belum terhakis
Sebenarnya sudah lamaKu
sungguh berkecil hati

Recall that day was listening in to Mawi - Kian at work..with Uncle SHis n all. Initially Uncle thought that it was a lovey-dovey jiwangz song. But since i heard it already personally i dun find this a jiwang song..although the fact that i dun really understand the song so much.
After listening to the song, uncle manage to read thru the words. Hehe.. WHat uncke says makes me think...

Apa ada pada kita dalam dunia nih?
Siapakah Kita?
Apa yang Kita Cari?
Dimana kita nak Cari?
Mengapa kita Cari?

All this questions, i find it hard to answer coz it really digs u out.. Nak kena selam dalam2 naluri kita..dan tanyer diri sendiri.

Salamz...ciaoz~

Woalaaaa!!!!

A New SKin..Yeah and i shall say a refresh one...

Thanks to the person who made this blogskin...and also thanks to Yours truly for the small effort for putting up the pics in the circle...thingy..
Hehehe...
Awww...i just love this skin man!
And yah..that's a glimpse of my man....

Talking about news. Recently, read up abt this "Kawin Misyar" in Berita Miinggu. To those who quite dun understand what is "Kawin Misyar"...well its actually a woman changing husband as easy she wants it to be. In Islam. man can have 4 wifes in one go..but not woman. And so this particular woman has been changing husband for five times and now she have the intention to remarry again as she's having problem with her current one. Woah...To me personally, one glance she looks like a sugar mummy..coz in another words she actually "fed" this husband..giving them money to survive..and all. FYI, all the husband is overseas..and she will only msg them when she need "it". as she claimed, she prefer freedom and space and not tied up to commitments and she do not want a family with all her husband.
Hmmz...i just dunnoe..what she's thinking up her brain...if she do not want a family..and dun want to tied up with commitments..y in the first place marry...ISnt it clear like she actually got high sex drive..and she marry just to have it in a "halal" way..

Well..this are just from my point of views...no offence yah

Ciaoz..Salamz...