For now,

i wont be updating this blog. Not forever..but for the moment.
A lot of things have been happening,
And i need the time to search my soul back.
Only today i realise something...
I shall make my move now before things get worst
I really need a big hug rite now....
I need to feel appreciated.
Till then.

Guys, im sorry if ever my entry was harsh or it hurts anybody.
Be it in virtual or reality,

Please forgive me~

I believe it is really hard to understand myself.
No one will ever understand me and be able to read what my heart and mind says.
It takes a lot of patience and courage to those who wants to know me.
This is what i am..
Someone who dont say directly...
Who keeps in her heart...
Expect people to be able to read her mind.
Afterall, im a woman.
And woman tends to say the opposite of what she wants to say.
Womans, how brutal her outlook be, she is always soft in the inside.
Womans are emotional and cant run away from it.
womans get cranky, sensitive, emotional, easily irritated
when red blood comes out from the under.
As much as i try my best to control everything inside me,
im still weak deep inside...as much as the physical weakness due to the blood loss
im also weak in terms of controlling this sensitivity.
I never blame others who dont understand...
Coz this is the life of a woman....
And not everyone can easily understand..
It takes time....and more time.

Monday is never a good day to work hehe..Monday Blues what they call it. Not because i hate to report to work but basically...after two resting days, so macam "liat" like that want to wake up. Monday also is a busy day for the office. All the sales team report back to office for thier meeting. They got the choice to either report today or tommorow but since tommorow is the last day for the week due to CNY,(Yes...u dont hear me wrong...for this week im only working till tommorow. Wed the company declare an off day...till sunday im gonna hooray hooray...sighz..makin liat lah nak bangun on next monday nampaknyer...) all 4 teams held thier meeting today. So, u can roughly imagine how busy this place is, all trying to book a meeting room...haha!!



And also today is takder mood day. Bestfriend dah dtg...It makes me feel so shagged and tired and so the no mood to do things. Stomach cramps...pingang sakit...aiyoh~Not to forget sleepiness is neverending..Today also i din have a proper lunch. First thing, stomach cramps. 2ndly, they ordered delifrance for breakfast for the whole office and there;s still so much left..so some of us decided to have that for lunch instead..hmmm..basically its sandwich. I just wondered how my GM can actually eat sandwiched just for lunch everyday and it cost a bomb too..I heard his lunch minumum is basically $12 everyday...and the rest of the PM cannot tahan if have to lunch with him coz their pocket can koyak u know..and they sumtimes try to escape and run away from lunching with him..kesian dier...haha!



Perut dah buat hal nih....so painful..and im feeling very weak...and cold...

Lately, i have the urge to blog but sumhow i dunnoe what to blog anymore.

Unlike previous time, when i was in poly, blog is a must everyday.

..sharing interesting stories on what happen in school....

the fun things that happen and not forgetting those monkey loves.

But now...

Life?

Pretty boring..

No more interesting stories.

Love?

Not the time to...

As we grow each day, a lot of responsibilities we need to hold.

The fun only happens when you are schooling

The fees and almost everything, food, clothes are sponsored.

Nothing to worry about..and the only responsibility we have is to study.

Now, as working adults, we cant simply ask our parents for money.

We are big enough to be independant.

No work means no pay.

For me, apart from work and home responsibilities,

I have school fees to pay up.

At times, it makes me crazy thinking about money.

But i will always remember that,

Money Is Not Everything.

Now, ive gotten a job. Im sure everything will be fine by now.

:-)

Oklah....thats all for now.

Dunnoe what to write anymore.~

Have a good weekend everyone~