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Right...First...My Birthday Celebration. Indeed, a small one, yet a meaningful one. Was at the cold office when the clock strike 12am. Before i forget..thanks a million zillion dillion nillion to those who go as far as messaging me right on the dot when the closk strikes 12am...and all those mesages come after. Thank you a lot...Im touched that u guys remember...

Had a small celebration in the office with the collegues. Abang G. treat me and all of the others...to some supper. That day was also the last day Charlie Shift reunite..coz there was a reshuffle of shift...oh yah..i got some gifts from lekha n the boys..and also my sis in law.. Thanks peeps...

THe afternoon of my bday was spent celebrating with Darlz.We drove up to Sentosa...we found some shelter...and has our small yet meaningful celebration there. Got some gifts from him...and..hmm..ok lah y not i let the pictures do the talking.Hehe...

Concentrating on the Road...

Chocolate Coffee Cake

Cutting the Cake

Smile

hmmm...Finger licking Good..

Me beside Darlz...

not Forgetting...Couple of the Year..

The post below is written on 20th September...

AS for now..things have "reda" a bit..but im still not myself..i need time to recover...Its still Playing in my eyes..and lingering on my mind.

Here the post goes...

Its 4.03am here. Im shivering from the coldness.. THis Office is giving me the creeps with the coldness... Tonite...is not a good night...to be precise...its not even a good morning too. FIrst of All, Its my xtra nite..and that means im only being paid for 6 hours to cover up the hours that i owe the company. 2ndly, Im shocked with what ive found. People tend to say, curiosity kills the cat, but in terms of us human beings...at time curiousity will bring us back to reality. 3rdly, i just wonder y do the one we love never stop hurting us in a way or another. y do humans only learn to appreciate when the person or the things we adore is not infront of us anymore.

Crushed, Dissapointed, Shattered, Broken,Speechless... Never have any intention in mind..but did not expected my visit to the profile has open up the truth and reality. The Truth Hurts! and it really HURTS a lot...and its double wooble HURT when u find it and saw with your own eyes. I question myself again n again, do i deserve all this...What have i done till i receive all this misfalls. Why dont guys use their brains before deciding on doing anything? Why dont guys think of what girls would feel , react...? the consequences of thier actions? But at times thier reactions dissapointed me even more. They take things as simple as it isI dun blame them fully.When i quarrel with someone i love. I looked at myself in the mirror. Did i do something wrong to make him react this way?

For example,
According to a guy, a girl is possessive...but correction..its actually insecure and lack of trust. The lack of trust in relationships have sometime led girls to possesiveness ...When a person's trust is betrayed..it will lead to insecureness and lack of trust. Even though, we tend to forgive but the expereience that we once had...will still be fresh in our mind. When this situation happens, the guy should actually MAKE AN EFFORT to secure the relationship and to GAIN the trust back, not by betraying the trust again. Coz if frequently a trust is betrayed after tons and tons of forgiveness, girls tend to be overeact and paranoid, afraid that their partners that they really love would betray it again. When this things happen, what u guys need to do is to help us and motivate us..not by destroying us..How long do u expect us, girls to bear with all this...WHen u guys are not happy with us due to certain things, that doesnt mean that we deserve to be treated indifferrenly...not of importance anymore.Two person in Love,What they want from thier partner is love plus sincerity, secureness and a future to look ahead to. We are not kids anymore where puppy love are all around us. Now its business time. I just cant put myself to sleep.

A lot of question are playing in my mind. I just couldnt explain how hurt i am right now...Only ALLAh Know the truth feelings... Kalau beginilah takdir hidupku...aku redha Ya ALLah...~

Gua baru jugak balik dari kerja 1 hr ago. Overtime beb! Tapi gua lambat gi kerja tadik..sepatutnyer masuk pukul 10...tapi aku nih masuk kul 10.30..itupon gua naik teksi, haiz bankrupt aku.
Nari gua betolnyer penat,,apa taknyer gua smalam tido kul 4 pagi siots. gua ada sleeping problems ar beb..nih 12 hr shift telah membaut tidurku Haywire...arhhhh....

Tadi gua peh syg call gua tghari.gua punyerlah hapi kan...dpt dgr suara die.time tuh dier pat klcc. Hmmz..tapi maaf kata ar gua ckp...walupon gua happy2..tapi perasaan tak sedap gua masih ada. Gua tak tahu mcmana nak ckp ar beb...gua cuber lenyapkan tapi mcm ada sesuatu yang gua rasakan. gua rasa mcm dier sembunyikan sesuatu dari gua. Haiz...susah2..gua pon tak tahu mcmana nak tackle ini masalah..mungkin gua biarkan jer pon cantik. Insyallah kebenaran di pihak gua...

Oh yah! nih lagik satu kes...GUa tahu ar GUa peh bekas SI Iskandah tuh...dah kahwin dgn budak nama hafizah...dier ada jemput gua ar..drg kahwin sama hari ime si hanot tunang.Gua mcm tak percaya dier jemput gua..dier mintak address gua...tapi gua tak bagik ar.. Dia mcm sardine jer jemput gua...setelah apa yang dier buat kat gua..dier hancurkan harapan gua..dier musnahkan impian gua..yang penting..dier membua gua traumatise sampailah skg...
2 hari lepas..tangan gua nih gatal lah kan.gua type name dier pat search engine...sekali gua ternampak satu pompuan nih nyer multiply...ada letak nama drg..gua peh tangan pon gatal ar..gua ternampak drg nyer pic wedding. Waktu tuh..ga tak tahu ar..gua rasa sakit hati. beb...sepatutnyer gua yang ada sebelah dier..gua sayang maut sama dier waktuh tuh..tapi sampai hati dier tikam gua dari belakang..dier huru harakan keluarga gua...Gua percaya 100% pada dier..tapi dier tak menghargai..Alah..tak guna kan gua nyesal2...mungkin bukan jodoh gua ngan dier pon...lagipon gua skang ada Pacar yang 2 kali ganda lagik hebat dan lagk baik dari dier...Walaupon..pacar gua skg tak sekaya dier..tapi gua syukur ar ngan apa yang gua ada skg...Gua syg sama dier..gua harap..impian gua kali nih tercapai..

Tapi sayang ar beb..gua terpaksa tempuh halangan yang paling dashyat..Gua tak tahu gua leh lepas tak..dan gua tak tahu impian gua boleh tercapai tak... gua doadan gua harap..kali nih cinta itu bepihak pada gua...Gua pernah tgk orang lain alami masalah yang sama dgn apa gua alami skg..tapi kebykkanyer tak berjaya...gua..haiz..gua skg berdiri atas pagar skg...samada gua akan ke blkg atau ke depan..gua pon tak pasti..

Ishk..dahlah..asik cintan cintun ajer hahha..naik jelak nanti kk..ciaoz...

'gua jiwa satu, rock nvr die' Haha...

weeeeeeeeeeeeee.....i just got back from tamp. Had dinner with syafa. AS usual and as i xpected, IM LATE!.

Muahahhaahha! Planned to meet her at 6.45pm. Guess wha i only wake my lazy eyes at 6.48pm. Haha...i smsed her, ask her to go back first. I quickly had a short shower, get ready and went to meet her,,,WE went to Food Culture...i ate my Fishball Noodle..and she ate her Wanton Noodle. Then,,i went to best Denki to racque for my lapto..and i have got eyes on this particular laptop..and i think im gonna buy it..but dunnoe when. Basically it has a lot of functions. Multi-tasking. Core duo processor..which means it will not hang if a lot of windows are open. THe guy demonstrate to us, he open 14 video files...and true enough it dint hang the notebook.cool stuffs. Im goonnnaaa get thatttt.~~!!!

Arggh...my leg hurts. and wanna know y..?
Yours Truly here.fall down while coming down the staircase at Bugis Junction!!!Ergh..Malunyer aku!!!! I was going to the electronics shops.and i dunnoe how did i fell...Dear was beside me..but he didnt notice that i was falling till i was on my knees. Only after that, he help me up...haha...i dunnoe wheter ppl see me or not...i dun dare to look to ppl faces..muahaha...and it didnt hurt at first but now the fall put a great impact to my leg muscle..so pain...nak turun tangga pon susah...awwwww.

went to metro just now...bought some makeup stuffs..and i practice it on my eyes...

Lawa tak? but the maroon colour didnt go out so much..cant really see..

hmmm..k lah nak ouz..take care

guess what..im using my dad's laptop..

fuh kencang!!!! i loikeeeeeeeeeeee....
mcm gini ar best..aku bolh surf dlm bilik...boleh meniarap..selesa noh'
haha tapi kalau dier tahu aku guna laptop dier , mati mati..tentu mati'
Mum and Dad go Kampung..hahha..maharajalela aku
apa salahnyer pinjam laptop kan..cumer tak mintak izin ajer...
Yawns..ngantuk2. just got home from werk

Boo pon not in town. went to KL..haiz boringnye..ingat ptg nh nak go dinner ngan syafa..itupon kalau aku terbangun.lagipon aku ingat nak gi gain city ar..nak racque laptop for my own. Ingat nak beli VAIO ,,,mcm cool ar but i want my laptop to be wi-fi and ada bluetoot~ i wonder if they have that function,

My neck sakit lagik..hmm dear said maybe is ligament tear..that means i use my left shoulder muscle too much and due to that its overstretched. I ask him to massage my neck and shoulder. Jgn kata picit..kao tekan lah pakai satu finger.aku dah menjerit...thats why he said ligament tear...ntah lah..maybe i shld go c doctor...

ok nak sleep..zzzzz

Presenting ......

The Minah-Minah Tunang

And the Most Adorable (courtesy from Faizal's Blog)

First Daughter of Mummy Mardy

Laila Auni Qistina

*Written at 1318 hrs in the office*

Is it me or issit him??? Or Maybe i Should blame it on PMS. Pre - Mesnstrual Stress just made we "Ladies" suffered a lot. Not only we suffers from the aches and pain but also emotional stress.

Correct me if im Wrong :

People says that "Love is Beautiful" but the real fact is that sometimes "Love can be hurtful"

Im in so so so so so much pain now. And before i forget..Im Shivering!! This Office is VERY cold that it prevents me from typing correctly. Repeatedly, i have to press the "BackSpace" Button. FYI, im using 2 jackets to cover me from this coldness. I Dun Feel GOod...My Neck Hurts A Lot...My Collegue Zulekha did me a favour just now by helping to massage by neck and shoulders but sadly, now it becoming to hurt even more . Not that she's not good. Her Massage is powerful,, she got a lot of strength but maybe its just me. I think there's something wrong with my neck and shoulders. It keep hurting at the same place and the same spot. Addition to it, im having blocked nose now. I jus dun know, for the past few days ive been having this blocked nose be it in the office or at home.
GOsh...Even the Teh tarik im drinking right now..doesnt taste at all.

There's plainly nothing to do at work...Finish up my job before lunch..and that left me with nothing to do now except keeping my mouth busy..but even dat doesnt work coz of the lost of interest in appetite. Everytime i had my class, for sure i will be very lethargic the nxt day. Class yesterday was fine. I did the hands on..and i got a lot of comment from the teacher. BUt cant be blame, im still new, will be improving.

ahhh...the fact that im sick..nobody give a bother about it. I dun hope for constant caring, but just a few simple words to ask are you ok?.Pls take yr medicine...but aM i AskinG TOo MuCh???Sighz...

A Glance in the Office....HeHe

Today was definately much better. My Migraine is over..but my body still feels lethargic.Not much work to do today..and today i ate little as i can due to the mouth ulcer im suffering right now. I just ate bubur, n maggie. My office have become lika a combat ration, FULL of Maggies, biscuits, 3 in 1 drinks.

Work was fine. I got to mingle around with the TEMp Staffs. I rarely mingle and talk to them. I just prefer to keep to myself at work thou. A lot of politics in office, u never know who might be the spy to the superiors. Heard that Andrew is gonna transfer to Base Maintenance and the newbies will be taking over..Sighz...even thou andrew is kinda irritating at times, but then i sure gonna miss him. He is the ICON. He knows almost everything about SAP. Shucks~Im dead meat if he's gone. A lot of things i dunnoe. Rgdg the New bunchof peeps, 2 of them are fine but there' one which i never berkenan. He was suspected as a spy to the superiors by some of us. He make Lame jokes..and definately irritating! Just buzz off from me!

ANd Now..im WAiting for him to call me..
Ive been good this 2 days...and i hope i will be this strong as the days passed by.

Oh Yah! Congrats to Mummy Mardy for the BIrth of Laila Auni Qistina! She must be as cute as her mummy.Cant WAit to see HEr..AT least post her pics please mummy mardy yah~

Im Supposed to go to work For Overtime today..But i had to stay at home due to the bad migraine i had this morning.

Reason - Sleepleess Night Again

Yesterday went to a friend's engagement..spent a few hours there..Just wanna Say Congrats to her..and insyallah hingga ke jinjang pelamin. i Went back at 6pm..Drove from Jurong till Simei..i Was so Sleepy..Mata pon terkebil-kebil bawak kereta..Nasib takder apa2.
Reached home and i found out that my dad bought a laptop and a portable dvd for the car. Frankly, Im SOOOO jealous. He got to buy a laptop first. I still want to survey first which is the best for me..furthermore..nak kumpulkan duit byk2 dulu. then im off to dreamland with a Panadol.

Woke up at 10am. popped in another panadol. Well..i dun wanna say much what happened after that. It just hurt my emotions too much. Is this how it felt to be in love. I admit there are ups n down, but is this the kind of hurdles i have to face thru everyday. I try not to think of it ..but it keeps haunting me day by day.

It was a tossing night. I tossed here and there but my eyes just couldnt shut itself. Its already 4.30am. i wantcehed vcd..till 530am.. My body starts to feel tired..I thotught i wouldnt want to sleep coz..i got to turn in for work and i thought i could wake up at 6am..but too bad, i knocked off and wake up only at 8am. Still on time to go to werk but my bad bad migraine is preventing me from going off. I had to stay hom..i popped in my painkiller..and i woke up at 3pm..and alhamdulilah the migraine was over...and ir eally hope what happened last night was just a bad nightmare...

Salamz Peepz. Take cARe! Luv you All..

I Need a psychiatrist. Im Going Crazy at any moment. My Sickness is getting Real Bad. i need to Cure..Provide me with injections, pill, theraphy, consultation..whatever...as long as im going back on track.

Lately i have not been able to control my emotions. Im becoming weaker n weaker day by day. I dunnoe whats happening to me. How come i become like this. Everyday i ask the same questions to myself, but i just couldnt find the answers to my questions. Whats happening to me?

I had a sleepless night yesterday. I was in so much Pain. Im Hurt, Angry and Hungry. My head Hurts...My heart Hurts...My sTomach hurts. I couldnt slept at all.. I was so pissed off with myself..What did i do till i become uncontrallable..Even i force my eyes to sleep. I just couldnt get this damn eyes to shut!!

Ya Allah..telah terbenam bintang dan telah tidur segala mata. Engkau tuhan yang Hidup dan yang menguruskan Segala Urusan dengan sendiri. Engkau tidak dipengaruhi olen rasa mengantuk dan tidur,tenangkanlah malamku, dan tidurkanlah mataku.