A momemt of uncertainty...unexplainable.

A moment where my heart goes Like a horse racing...

Fast....Curious...Afraid...Almost everything that i feel.

I just had to wait....

Wait...Patiently

The outcome may be something which i expected or unexpected...

I just had to be strong....

What makes me weaker make me stronger...

My weakness shall be my strength...

Im off....to Port Dickson.

Farouk's Wedding...


Farouk is Officialy Married to Noor Haryati

yeah.....Dah jodohkan...They met at Work in SIAEC...and Tup tup Tup ...Dah Kawin..
Definately a perfect Couple.
FArouk...really looks so handsome just now..mcm Hero hindustan lah...
Yati (or we called her Farah) was gorgeous...So Pretty...Like SuperModel..

Tadi...dunnoe lah knapa emosi tergangu jap..mcm..so fast time went seh.. Mcm baru jer smalm..we all the Charlie Shift talk abt marriage..and Abg G and Farouk talk abt Man Malaya Pakai Keris..Hehe...How i Wish..all of us...Farouk, Abg G, Cik hamid, Andrew & Me still sits in the Same Shift...

Charlie ROCKS!!!

SElamat Pengantin Baru Pada Farouk Hussien dan Noor Haryati. Semoga berkekalan Ke Anak Cucu. insyallah!!!

In deepest thoughts...

Think...think...thinking...have been at the stage of thinking this few days. Thinking about almost everything...Love...Life....Career...Friendships..almost everything under the sun.
Life can be such a bore plus painful. At times,i reach the point of cant be bothered by everything and anything in life.

Simply nuthing is perfect in this world. Life has its ups n down. Life is like a process when human grows...from an infant...to a toddler...and adulthood. For example, like an infant...they learn how to crawl..and then walk...and a lot of times..they would fall...get up again..and try walking...and at last they suceeded and could walk. Life is similar. We lead our life as per normal...at the teenage years..we'll learn more about life...hardships..love..and we will fall a lot of times..burdens to carry on...heart being broken...and such...but through all this expereience..it makes us wiser..it makes us learn from the mistake we made..and at last we suceeded in oversoming those hurdles. but yet, sometimes...while we walking...we took the wrong step, trip and fall down. Sometime the fall could be slight and sometimes it could be major causing blood and wound...and there goes the same in our life. Although, we might have become wiser..but yet we still fall again. Wrong actions..the wrong steps...may cause us situations that we might never forget. in fact, nuthing is perfect. Even MRT breaks down, even our immune system breaks down...almost everything does breaks down.And we Never Stop Falling and Learning.

i read up of am email on the 90/10 rule.Watever information that was told does make sense.
10% of what happened...cant be control by us. But 90% n how we reacted afects everything.
Im still learning to pick up all those that i have left behind. Slowly...and carefully..im bringing myself up to another level. Sometimes i wish i would rather be someone who would only think of herself...and herself. I always put others ahead of me..asking how are they? are they alright? have they eaten? how was thier day?. Why not i ask myself..Am i okay? Am i alright? Have i ate? Am i feeling sad or depressed? But i guess..its just by nature..im just not that kind..and im not being brought up that way. I just love to care for people..and mostly..i feel contented when people appreciated what ive done for them. I dont ask for money...for treats...for whatever else...i am mre than satisfied that they appreciate...and recognised my help. But then again...Not everything that we want will go our way.

This is what life is..Yes..its hurtful..its dissapointing..but we just got to live with it.

Sepi..
Yang datang bertandang
tidak pernah aku undang
Ntah mengapa hadirnya kini
Masih mencari jawapan yang pasti

Kosong..
Terasa dijiwa..
Malap tiada bercahaya
Rembulan tiada sinarnya
hanya gerimis menjadi teman setia

setiap hari yang berlalu
makin tiada ertinya
bosan dengan segalanya
tetapi masih perlu kasih dan cinta

Hadirlah kau wahai mentari
ku masih mengharap kehadiranmu
berikanlah ku secebis cahayamu
Kembalikanlah sinar dalahm hidupku

Something to share. A very touching one...Look thrugh the whole video.. The last part it shows the operation the mummy had to give birth to the baby.

* WIll be on night shift tonite** Ohhh..its a drag...

Hehe...So here i am blogging again. Reminisce about the past, when i start getting hooked on blogs...and My companion was my Darling hanot...and till now...we shall call our self the faithful bloggerz...heheh

Commenced with "Easyjournal" and then "BLurty" and now blogspot.....
Whereas my darling hanot....got an extra which i cant remember lah what blog was it..
Sometime..i do check out on my previous blog..i could only get blurty..whereas easyjournal hmmm.i dunnoe where it goes..haha

Oh yah..the prev entry i was talking abt this izk..it was indeed a surprising miracle..when i receive sms fron an unknown number..and it was izk..Well i thought he was angry at me..probably dun even want to befriend me anymore..but i guess..his iniatitive to sms me shows a lot of appreciative from a human...At last..i found one who knows how to appreciate..Although its for a while..at least i know i nvr made people angry and hate..me..

Jus that some humans lovessssssssss to make me mad....
Muahahha!!!

Oklah enuf for now..dunnoe what to blog..lately have nothing to talk about..
Im halfway ironing my uniform..shall get back to it..haha

Take Care

Assalamualaikum Wr Wb

Frustrated.....

Bingit-bingit + bingit!

GUYS CAN SOMETIMES BE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASSSS!!!!!!

Im truly sorry if this statement offended anybody reading this blog...but i just couldnt help it..
I just dunnoe why....lately..most of the guys evolved around me get so...sickening + emotional + no heart!.

First it was rasul...claimin that how we used to be rapat..and eversince i do not want to share my personal love stories with him..he kpet a distance from me..and stop meeting me. and datsy he also dindt want to share whenver i ask abt his life...FIne...i be such an angel to admit my fault..indeed i miss my closeness with him last time.It was because of him that i manage to kick RIzal out of my LIFE! SO..i told him that i miss those time...and he told me maybe i could start by opening up...did as told..told all the sad stories...and he...just responded by such few qn...and -----------Silence...and im here was asking him to chat since he wants me to open up..and here i am being blamed for keep pushing him to chat with me! WhatEVA!

Then comes Izk...another fella...who sighz..i dunnoe how to describe him..Fairly becoz i dunnoe him that much..but according to sources...he is EMO. and most of smses came to him as sarcastic remarks...and here i am...trying to be nice and good...even saying sorry if i offended any parties...but here he is....being stubborn and i end up being the troublemaker...
ANother WATEVA!

ANd HIm! Who never fails to torture my heart....


F*** O**!!!!!!!

Pampering Myself

Went out for Personal shopping in the aternoon....Thought of beraya rumah syafa and then ask her along to shop..but she went out with her mum...sms Lin yesterday but till today she dint reply..so i guess she must also be busy.. hana? Hmm..out of question already..my shift and hers clashed..so we rearely could hang out togather...but im sure one day...we'll catch up on things that we left behind..

Anyway, back to my shopping..hehe..yeah so i went out at 6pm...well i can say i dint took a long time...to shop..when im alone..basically becoz ive planned what i wanna buy...

First destination - Charles & Keith...got myself a sandal...just a simple plain one..

2nd DEstination - Cherri - Got myself a baju..well i can use that to go for my bridal experience..which willbe held on 19 November..Cant wait for that...but the main worry is..ill be after my night shift..i just hope...my body condition is well

Third - Montip..get some brooches n bag...

Last - Long John Silver - Lama seh tak makan pat sini..so i just get myself a chicken wrap meal..and for once...hehe..the salesguy made me smile..haha..he still young..so chubby..but so cute...i guess he wanted to ask me something but i was not looking at his direction...so he kept looking at me for a few seconds till i noticed sombody staring at me...When i look at him..he like...thinking..and suddenly said "nak cheese?"..Haha i i find it funny..but i juts shook my head...

Indeed a happy self-outing...shopping sakan..happy2...but balik...i was so chocked and traumatize for a while...my house is full of asap hangus...and i realised that...i forgot to switch off the api...vefore i went out..i heated up the food and i forgot to switch it off..

I panicked for a while...and i really sit down and think..what will happen if i came back late...

Argh...i dun want to even think abt it..

Call my parents..and told them abt it..as expected..get a scolding from there from being careles..Well..Its out house at stake duh! cant blame them..i gues.when they get back..i'll get another one...and tmorrow another one!...Hmmmph! Seves me right!!

ok...let me just post up the things bought just now..

Thats all.haha.....Bye!

Good Morning ~!

Time now 0104am...Wow..Hehe..been sleeping very late lately...Hehe...Well..was working just nw..was in the morning shift,,Was quite busy and tied down to work due to the audit that we wee having at my werkplace..SO we got to keep the place clean and tidy..and no illegal stuffs there..the audit only came at 4pm..i thought there were not coming coz it was raining heavily..but unfortunately they turned up...but then its a good thing also..do it for once and theres no more worry of audits..

Politicals thing and favouritism things are heating up at werk..argh.i just wonder where will i be when my contracts end..are they gonna convert us to perm? Approved my transfer..? (welll i dun even know whether he send it to HR) or maybe they just kicked my ass out of the company..Yeah..i reallay dunnoe whats up there for my future..

Anyway...Been holdingon tight..and keeping myself strong....WIth the help of my closed one..i realy do survive..ALthough their help is not as much..but i appreciate for their presence when im down..
i wanna find one day..and sit down n think..of my future...

Oklah dunnoe what to say oready..tata

Jemput - Jemput Jagong.....

I made these just now...first time trying...turn out NICE!

-Its sad to realise i wont have you for long...but its sadder to realise i knew it all the time. im glad that u turn out to be that special someone who make this life worth living..im glad u're here juz lovin'me, so say that u wont leave...cos ever since u came i've been glad-

-Fate has a very weird way in showing bout love. when u juz thot that sum1 is for you..fate tricked you and turn it all around. But what fate brings us, we have to accepts with an open heart. I may not be that someone for you forever, but i will be dat someone u remember for the rest of your life -

***Suddenly the monthly love notes..become a sad one...***'

PS: its the 6th - but does it matter now.....

***Bluek***

Bloody Hell. Ericsson W850i with a starhub line cost me $698 and M1 and Singtel is offering it at $458. What nonsense...Haiz..Looks like..i just got to wait a little while..and i will get it from D's Friend..which can offer me just the phone at $600.

Phew!

Ahh..penatnyer...just got back from werk 1 hr ago...hmm..my leg sakit ar dari smalam lenguh ehehe.. Werk just was fine..except for my partner..who just came back from his long "holiday" and angin a bit lah. Everything malas..and refuse to angkat the calls even thou the phone have been ringing as thou it could explode anytime.

I pick up the courage and sent the form to the line M in charge..and i do hope...that what ever that i have planned will go my way..if i got it..that means i would be able to planned my future ahead in a better way.

Problems...

hmmm..(scratching my head)...

Well i hope what i did was right..i choose to hear the reasons out and take into considerations..i do hope....whatever that he have done all this while meant well and probably i was to harsh on him also. So all went fine...and i do hope my effort will succeed. but i shall say...i myself must changed..i shall not depend on him too much..and i must stand on my own feet...i shall not expect a lot of things to come out from him...and never put hopes on a certain thing that probabaly i would love to have it come out from him...
And..i hope this problem will not appear again in my life...if not.....

Ya allah....i wish that what i did was right.. Pls show me the right path...Bring me out od this dark alley..and show me the light...