In deepest thoughts...

Think...think...thinking...have been at the stage of thinking this few days. Thinking about almost everything...Love...Life....Career...Friendships..almost everything under the sun.
Life can be such a bore plus painful. At times,i reach the point of cant be bothered by everything and anything in life.

Simply nuthing is perfect in this world. Life has its ups n down. Life is like a process when human grows...from an infant...to a toddler...and adulthood. For example, like an infant...they learn how to crawl..and then walk...and a lot of times..they would fall...get up again..and try walking...and at last they suceeded and could walk. Life is similar. We lead our life as per normal...at the teenage years..we'll learn more about life...hardships..love..and we will fall a lot of times..burdens to carry on...heart being broken...and such...but through all this expereience..it makes us wiser..it makes us learn from the mistake we made..and at last we suceeded in oversoming those hurdles. but yet, sometimes...while we walking...we took the wrong step, trip and fall down. Sometime the fall could be slight and sometimes it could be major causing blood and wound...and there goes the same in our life. Although, we might have become wiser..but yet we still fall again. Wrong actions..the wrong steps...may cause us situations that we might never forget. in fact, nuthing is perfect. Even MRT breaks down, even our immune system breaks down...almost everything does breaks down.And we Never Stop Falling and Learning.

i read up of am email on the 90/10 rule.Watever information that was told does make sense.
10% of what happened...cant be control by us. But 90% n how we reacted afects everything.
Im still learning to pick up all those that i have left behind. Slowly...and carefully..im bringing myself up to another level. Sometimes i wish i would rather be someone who would only think of herself...and herself. I always put others ahead of me..asking how are they? are they alright? have they eaten? how was thier day?. Why not i ask myself..Am i okay? Am i alright? Have i ate? Am i feeling sad or depressed? But i guess..its just by nature..im just not that kind..and im not being brought up that way. I just love to care for people..and mostly..i feel contented when people appreciated what ive done for them. I dont ask for money...for treats...for whatever else...i am mre than satisfied that they appreciate...and recognised my help. But then again...Not everything that we want will go our way.

This is what life is..Yes..its hurtful..its dissapointing..but we just got to live with it.