Ok..I've been hearing that people have been questioning why am i so gloomy this few days..all my entries are prone to sadness and..make them pitied me..guys..im really sorry..but i just had to pour things out. BUt dun worry..coz this entry wont be any" cenggeng" story..

• Shopping Spree

Yup. I went for a shopping spree..Wee...Went with Syafa..to TM. Tak jauh dekat jer..coz tak der byk time nak gi Orchard ker..or others..Coz ptg got to accompany my mum to hospital. Met syafa at 12 nn. Our first destination - CHarles & Keith. Just survey2 dulu..then we went to Metro...Syafa got herself a pair of sandals. First time nampak dier beli barang..maklumlah budak nih cerewet sikit..slalu nyer kalau ajak dier gi shopping..aku ajerlah yg blanjer..Then..i went to get a pair of black pants..for myself..and a gift for someone. Then..i got myself a game..Haha..tak pernah2 aku beli game nih semua..Kerja gilo...but hehe..beli ajer lah..can keep me accompany at times. Then..we went to take the gifts i bought for someone..did some modification on it. THen we go to Food Culture..PiMamamz...At last we gobackto Charles & Keith ..and got myself a pair of sandals..so here they are all my items...

My Black Pants.

A gift For Someone.

Sudoko Game - Need this to accompany me @ werk @ home @ hospital:)

And my pair of sandals from C&K

• NYP students

Yup..At the hospital..there was this batch of NYP students having thier attachment, but hey i just cant stop myself from looking at this Male nurse.Hehe..He's kind of cute.Haha..ALthough i knoe lah..he like much younger than me. WHo cares...Hehe..He just look charming with his specs on..and him like u knoe playing with my niece..was such an adorable site:) Haha...Im so ..Hehe..Happy.I show u guys a glance pic of him..haha maklumlah paparazzi.

There he is..Hehe...So....Mmmmmmm..Haha..Whats that huh? Anyway..Im so happy..motivated me to go to hospital more..once he finished his attachments..i hope by that time, my dad is back at home.:P

Oklah hope this was a hppy entry..im enjoying myself u c..hehe k lah ciaoz!

Testimonial from a Collegue

i'm "bersyukur" tat i've met a person like syida n regret at times, regret coz she difficult to understd bt no everyone's like a book u haf to read it chapter by chapterto get to happy ever after part of the story & i surely knows that the story of frenship i haf wif u has a happy ending..-THE END?

My Reply

Thanks for ze testimonial..but i dun think i wouldwant a sarcastic testimonial in my profile especially from you. If u r not sincere in writing me one, then dun waste ur time to do that. I dun ask for it btw. I dun now what's ur intention of saying "bersyukur". Might as well u say..i totaly regretted in my whole life.I know myself betta than you do. Im not difficult to understand to. I get along with all my friends in exception of you. Sorry but i cant come into terms with ppl so naive and sympathetic like you. If you think that u would want to seek attention from me,SAve it...coz im not in a favour of such person.U dun appreciate ppl in their life. all u think is for urself.If u really think that im difficult, thats up to u..coz as far as i know, im not the only one who pissed offwith u. Dun think u get away that easily for whatuve done. I talk to u at werk because ur mycollegue...to me ur just an aqquantaince now...no longer i can call a Friend. Coz Friends dont dowhat u do...

I feel like breaking down...

Looking whatever that happens...and now my friends are adding on to it..I have to put up with thier karenah. What bloody hell?
Apa salah aku, sampai drg nak seksa hidup aku mcm gini nih...
Nak salahkan drg, aku tak mampu..mungkin drg tak tahu cam mana keadaan aku sebenarnya..
But to hear that ur friend say that u failed in being patience with them..is totally heartbreaking!!
Apa...tak cukup ker semua yang aku lalui ni...nak kena put up ngan kerja..yg tak habis-habis..kawan yang lupe kawan..kawan yg ada matair terus lesap..biler single jer carik aku balik...
kawan yg kesibukan dengan kerja..dan aku kena put up with my family condition now..my dad is sick in hospital..takleh jalan..soon he'll be back home..and each of us need one another..to care for my dad..thats means..i got to put all my time at home in par with my work..Isnt that patience enuf...???? Berapa byk patience yang nak lagi nih?? Kalau org lain..boleh drg telan nih semua..cukup masa..breakdown...
My fren,
Maybe to u i was not patience enuf to put up with ur business of work and music lifestyle..ur shows, ur performance, ur training...but think abt it, if i were not patience enuf..i would have just screamed my highest pitch voice at ya..and just ask u to get lost...from my life..and never come back again..
but what did i do? Despite..having to entertain ur favourite phase of "calling me back"..i still msg u..and call u..at times...just to check on how ur doing..i dint forget u..i did not screamed at u..i did not ignore you..i still put a moment of my time to think abt u...to wonder whether ur ok...
I dunnoe whether is there a need for u to c whether im serius..and i dun even know y do u need to c whether im serius..all u ans was " i tak tahu..tapi kiter kan kawan..kawan ok per"
And did i ever ask for more? did i ever ask to be more than friends? maybe u like me? maybe u wanted to c whether i suits to be ur dearly wifey...but u dont even know me..how could u say that i failed to be patience with u..
Fren..afterall..its up to u. if u think..i failed..by all means..to me..im still trying to stand strong down here..despite at times..i feel shaky and like breaking down..
If u are destined to be my other half..i welcome u with my open heart...if not..im glad u were a friend in my lifetime.

Sorry to say this but at times i feel that guys are such a pain in the ass!!!

Look at the time..its onlike Past 11pm..and my eyes are already dropping..
Unbelievable, I seems to feel sleepy earlier than usual.
Whats the cause of it? Im Aint sure...
TIred? Lethargic? Prob...or maybe my body system is back to normal.? Haha..i wish..

hmm...My new Specs...
Peeps..tell me..does it suits my face...?
or my prev specs was better?

Ma Bad..for having to cancel my supposedly Date today..Fad, if ur reading this, im truly sorry. I did not meant to cancel it on purpose...

Its just that my heart was not at ease. Just felt guilty for wanting to go out when my dad is in hospital and my mum have to drag my two small niece over to the hospital. And with my double niece "karenah". It means double headeache.
But indeed, i was glad that i cancel it, receive news from the hospital..my dad was given the choice to either go home..or stay at the Simei Care Centre. But knowing my dad stuborness, he wanna go home. Nurses said, he can go home provided there's someone who can take care of him.
Discussion was among the siblings. Since my dad "die die " wanna go home. Fine..he shall go home. We got to buy all the necessary items. Mum gonna have to go for training..on how to assist my dad if he's at home. And it also means..i have to Cut my OT...Have given the assurance to my family that for the time being..i shall not do Ot at the moment till my dad is strong enuf to be on his own.
And it also means..Im not going out for now at all except to work..

God, pls give me the strength to carry on..despite whatever that happening now...

Someone's Watching OVer ME


So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

Parents left for Melaka This Morning...and Left the Siblings AGAIN!

Survive with a Nasi Bungkus TOday..After my driving Lessons. The day is coming near and near..im confident but yet worried..worried that all will come to a waste again. Pray for me..peepz!

Body condition..a bit beter..but still feeling weak. Had my medicine just now..its gonna finish but my sickness is not fully recovered. I sound like Ratu rock Ella. Serak-serak basah man! But i do like my voice..so husky..haha! Husky tuh apa eh..main sebat ajer..On my night shift today, wonder how it will be, im so tired right now..

Argh..my spectacle shop just call. My specs cant be make..Now i got to go down again..and choose another frame, Argh SHit!!

Take Care peepz..and Happy New Yr..

Haha..ok i better go..becoming Cranky now.!!

Parents in Port Dickson. Left the siblings at home. Had to do the house chores and all.
Yesterday..went to Harem (if u guys do not know pls visit www.harem.com.sg). Had my Facial and Masssage for the first time. Heh..Facial..was gerekz. Dier korek all my black and whiteheads.. ppl say its painful..but to me..cam shiok plak. Haha. So now face clean..now the massage. Setelah 23 tahun hidup baru dapat ku rasakan betapa berpeluhnyer kena rebus hidup2. Mcm gitu agaknyer si Ketupat rasa everytime nak masuk raya. :) Hehe..well..badan kena steam ar.. then went for massage..so the segan sak..haha..apa taknyer not a single strand of clothings..aku pejam mata jer jek. Khehe..Malo ar!
FYI, this place provide a lot of things. Their service can say gd..very friendly one. Go visit the website if u wanna know more lah k.

And today..morning went to tamp..to settle bills stuff and i went to make my specs. FUh..coxt me BOOM! Taknak ckp ar..Sakit jiwa! Afternoon..went to Marina to have a game of bowling with my siblings., my sis in law..and another new soon-to-be member of the family..haha..bakal kakak ipar lah kan..Had dinner @ pizza hut..fuh kenyang..but dari tadi sampai lah skg..haus giler babi ar..Hehe..

Ar..besok kerja. malasnyer..sakit lom betol baik nih..ngantok pon ader nih. oklah make a move ferst. ciaoz.

My sick Face..

Its getting worst. My Flu..My cough..
My Body temperature...36.5..no fever.
But im feeling hot inside but colder outside..
Urgh..
Cant handle it anymore..!!!
Going to "Bomoh Hassan" TMrw..
Haha!!!!

AaaaCho...Uhuk uhuk!

Even the chocolate doesnt taste at all. Had to stay at home instead of reporting for Overtime today..Flu cum blocked nose started since yesterday subuh..Was depending on the tissues everytime coz my "hingus" keep dripping.

Went out with a collegue cum friend yesterday, Helmi. Went to Watch FD3. It was a thirlling movie plus BLooDy Action!!! Its so Gross..The story is good but urgh..i could not stand the sight. Even thou i was sleepy dat time, the story makes my eyes go wide with all the thrilling death!
WEnt to LJS after that to catch my lunch cum dinner. Oh yah did i mention that im stopping to eat CHICKEN for the time being???

Encountered this rashes call "Gata-Gata" Its like mosquito Bite...but it will come out dozenz and dozens of it all over your body. Yucks!! I hate to say this coz when i start saying..im imagining it..and now i have goosebumps all over me...ergh...Reflecting on it back, i suspect it was the chicken..coz..whenever i eat chicken on a particular day..this "gata-gata" will appear..but when i dint..it doesent..
BOO HOO HOO!
Does it mean i cant eat chicken foreveR? Argh..so de rugi man!!!
anyway, slept early yesterday..was so damn tired plus tired..and tired. Wake up at 7am but seeing my condition worsening...had cough and flu..decide to stay @ home instead. Now..im rotting at home...I just..Spent my time on the net...watch vcd, listen to music...eat, sleep..Haha but the most impt thing, i dint eat medicine haha...

Oklah..here are sum of the pics i took yest.. Njoyz lah..but please hor. He's definately not my Special One. FULL STOP! :)

It was on the free ride bus from marina sq to city hall.

To Blog...or Not to Blog....

Been thinking for a few minutes and here i am deciding to blog. Since i got nuthing else to do rite..so y not..just blog jer lah kan..while at the same time.."MSNing" with a bunch of friends.

While "MSNing", tertiba ajer..i feel so..sad..mcm TEREMOSI Seh...

A fren was talking about..liking somebody and all..Haiz..so touching~ Its like most of my fren are hooked up..and im so call left alone. .Isnt it nice to feel being loved by somebody..? To know that there's someone who cares and feels for ya. Haiz..isnt it beautifully wonderful?
Adding on to it, when they are hooked up, i got to make myself understand that they are attached and they would like to spend some intimate times with each partner..and that means i got to entertain last minute cancellation due to meeting their partner..and all. Haiyah..i cant blame them for that also.i mean..im sure each of us punya life..pretty busy..so nak spend time with luv ones pon susah..so..kdg2 tuh..telan sendiri ajer lah..

Talking abt relationships and stuffs, remind me of the guy that i confessed my feelings for..ntahlahkan..nak kata its a mistake pon i aint sure..nak kata i regret..dunnoelah..It seems he's not taking it in an open-minded way as he claims to be. Menghilangkan diri..msg biler perlu..mendiamkan diri..dun feel like going out berdua. Mungkin betol jugak apa yg dier ckp, i might have a different opinion of him when i got to knoe him. But then i guess, belom kenal sgt and now my opinion on him mcm berubah sikit. Nak take time..soulsearching and all. But brapa lama? I dindt knoe he was weak in this stuffs. Kalah org perempuan. Im just dissapointed in his semangat untuk hidup ajer.Its like kerana perempuan he became like that..ohh..what a shame.!

Alah..takperlah..my frens nak hooked up..getting hitch biarlah. Dah sampai masa drg kot..
As for me, i still have so many things to achieve. Hmm..perasaan suka pada seseorang tuh sentiasa wujud tapi..i will not make it control my life..PEace Bebeh!!!:)

Sorry...if i sound sucky!!!Haha
Definately not easy to sing and play the guitar..
Im not a pro:)

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