Happiness is Destination Pain is the Process

2008-03-02T11:09:00.002+08:00

Sampaikan salam buat semua
Salam terakhir salam teristimewa
Kepada kau yang tersayang
Pada teman yang ku kenang
Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang

Usah bertanya mengapa aku
Mengucap salam terakhir kepada mu
Kerna waktu berputaran
Bimbang tak berkesempatan
Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu

Demi sebuah kenyataan
Yang amat menyakitkan
Aku yang tidak berdaya
Hanya berserah padaNya

Salam akhir
Salam yang teristimewa
KepadaNya ku memohon keampunan
MelaluiNya ku beri kemaafanKepadamu

Andainya aku punya waktu
Masih ku ingin mengulangi semula
Saat indah bersama mu
Sayang tak berkesempatan
Abadikan saja salam ku di ingatan

Salam ku yang terakhir

2008-02-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

For now,

i wont be updating this blog. Not forever..but for the moment.
A lot of things have been happening,
And i need the time to search my soul back.
Only today i realise something...
I shall make my move now before things get worst
I really need a big hug rite now....
I need to feel appreciated.
Till then.

Guys, im sorry if ever my entry was harsh or it hurts anybody.
Be it in virtual or reality,

Please forgive me~

2008-02-05T13:34:00.001+08:00

I believe it is really hard to understand myself.
No one will ever understand me and be able to read what my heart and mind says.
It takes a lot of patience and courage to those who wants to know me.
This is what i am..
Someone who dont say directly...
Who keeps in her heart...
Expect people to be able to read her mind.
Afterall, im a woman.
And woman tends to say the opposite of what she wants to say.
Womans, how brutal her outlook be, she is always soft in the inside.
Womans are emotional and cant run away from it.
womans get cranky, sensitive, emotional, easily irritated
when red blood comes out from the under.
As much as i try my best to control everything inside me,
im still weak deep inside...as much as the physical weakness due to the blood loss
im also weak in terms of controlling this sensitivity.
I never blame others who dont understand...
Coz this is the life of a woman....
And not everyone can easily understand..
It takes time....and more time.

2008-02-04T16:52:00.000+08:00

Monday is never a good day to work hehe..Monday Blues what they call it. Not because i hate to report to work but basically...after two resting days, so macam "liat" like that want to wake up. Monday also is a busy day for the office. All the sales team report back to office for thier meeting. They got the choice to either report today or tommorow but since tommorow is the last day for the week due to CNY,(Yes...u dont hear me wrong...for this week im only working till tommorow. Wed the company declare an off day...till sunday im gonna hooray hooray...sighz..makin liat lah nak bangun on next monday nampaknyer...) all 4 teams held thier meeting today. So, u can roughly imagine how busy this place is, all trying to book a meeting room...haha!!

And also today is takder mood day. Bestfriend dah dtg...It makes me feel so shagged and tired and so the no mood to do things. Stomach cramps...pingang sakit...aiyoh~Not to forget sleepiness is neverending..Today also i din have a proper lunch. First thing, stomach cramps. 2ndly, they ordered delifrance for breakfast for the whole office and there;s still so much left..so some of us decided to have that for lunch instead..hmmm..basically its sandwich. I just wondered how my GM can actually eat sandwiched just for lunch everyday and it cost a bomb too..I heard his lunch minumum is basically $12 everyday...and the rest of the PM cannot tahan if have to lunch with him coz their pocket can koyak u know..and they sumtimes try to escape and run away from lunching with him..kesian dier...haha!

Perut dah buat hal nih....so painful..and im feeling very weak...and cold...

2008-02-03T15:50:00.000+08:00

Lately, i have the urge to blog but sumhow i dunnoe what to blog anymore.

Unlike previous time, when i was in poly, blog is a must everyday.

..sharing interesting stories on what happen in school....

the fun things that happen and not forgetting those monkey loves.

But now...

Life?

Pretty boring..

No more interesting stories.

Love?

Not the time to...

As we grow each day, a lot of responsibilities we need to hold.

The fun only happens when you are schooling

The fees and almost everything, food, clothes are sponsored.

Nothing to worry about..and the only responsibility we have is to study.

Now, as working adults, we cant simply ask our parents for money.

We are big enough to be independant.

No work means no pay.

For me, apart from work and home responsibilities,

I have school fees to pay up.

At times, it makes me crazy thinking about money.

But i will always remember that,

Money Is Not Everything.

Now, ive gotten a job. Im sure everything will be fine by now.

:-)

Oklah....thats all for now.

Dunnoe what to write anymore.~

Have a good weekend everyone~

2008-01-19T13:32:00.001+08:00

Mood: Mapling

Selamat Petang Everybody!!!
Haha..Betapa Indahnyer Feeling biler dah bis exam. Seronok beb!!!
Stress semua ilang...so niari aku taknak bukak buku hehe..
Maybe besok..baru aku try2 pegang itu buku MacroE.
Boleh lah sambumg Game MapleStory aku!! Yeah its Mapling Time!!!
Hmm..ntah eh nowadays mcm takder bender interesting nak blog gitu..haha
Everytime entry pendek citot jer..baca org lain nyer entry mcm best2...
haha..oklah thats all for now..c ya~
BAck to Mapling!!

2008-01-18T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hari nih adalah hari terakhir aku amik peperiksaan..yohoooo!!!
Lega sekejap.
Tapi sekejap ajer, sebab lepas nih..aku nak kena buat MacroE nyer assignment dan revise subject tuh plak. Exam subject tuh..ermmm...17 Feb kalau tak silap. Pas tuh...on the 26 Jan plak, dah start sekolah balik. Haiz, apa nasib lah class start hari sabtu nih. AKu nak pergi johor pun tak menjadi. Hmmm ingat nak skip satu class, tapi hmm ntahlah tgk lah mcmana nanti. So....Sekarang nih tgh perah otak lagik lah. Hopefully, paper nih aku boleh lah buat eh. Dan harap2 tak jatuh tangga lagik lah...adoi!!! oklah...nak sambung blaja lagik...buhbyez!!!

Nasib Malang

2008-01-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

Very the touching!!!

Exam just now was tough. Whateva i learn didnt came out.

Only certain ones.

Looking at the paper, i admit i dint study well enuf.

A friend told me ..you cant study last minute

It need to be progressive.

Yah i agree!!

by 2.5 hours, im out of the class

Im hungry, at the same time fikiran whether i could pass

Just hope that things will go out well

and once my marks are combined with my assignments..

I will pass this exam.

i dun hope for much...just a pass.

And things got to turn out so badly,

Was walking down the stairs with

A hungry Stomach!

A Stress Mind!!

A Thirsty throat!!

Mak dah ckp biler turun tangga tgk mana pijak...

Biler turun tangga tuh..jgn minum air...

Nih lah tak nak dengar ckp mak kan...

Tahu apa jadi...

Lagi 6 to 7 steps before i reach the ground...( tinggi tao)

i slip..bottle air dah melayang..terbang..

and me...aku tergolek "dog" lah kat tangga tuh..sampai kat bawah..

ada 3 budak nih tolong aku...

satu pompuan melayu, satu pompuan cina..ngan laki cina

Aku tak tgk pun sapa dorang..kaki aku dah sakit giler..

Cumer before they go aku ckp thanks ajer lah..

Dan skg nih..Kaki aku sakit giler..nak naik tangga turun tanngga sakit seh

Haiz..nak kata jatuh tangga nih alamat tak baik..for my exams

tapi mungkin juga blessing in disguise kan..

Argh tak tahu lah!!

My whole body hurts!!

OB Exam...

2008-01-14T14:01:00.001+08:00

Hari yang dinanti-nantikan telah tiba.

Perasaan??

hmmm mcm turtle tuh lah..

Tengah mengeletar...

Seram sejuk semacam.

First time amik exam..So tak tahu apa nak expect

Will the question be direct ??

Atau they will ask to give example?

Betul2 tak tahu seh..

Tunggu dan lihat ajer lah

Di Masa yang Sama, dugaan datang tanpa diduga

Tak percaya sama sekali.

Terluka....

Ia hanyalah Ujian dari Nya...

Doakanlah semoga aku berjaya!!

Macro - E

2008-01-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

MacroEconomics is definately an interesting subject.

A Bridging Module which i have to take as i came from an engineering background.

For the first time ever, i was attentive in class for the 4 hours.

Not even a yawn! And Not infected by other people yawning!

WEll, according to the lecturer, MAcro E is a wide subject but..

due to the time constraint, Everything was simplified.

Maybe, if it goes in details, i dunnow whether the interest is there or not..HAHA

But for sure, after 2 days of lesson, it was really satisfying.

My lecturer told us a story about a China female student he taught.

He showed a statistic by the world bank which showed China was one of the lowest

And she felt insulted. She disagree to the stats and claims that the lecturer was insulting her.

Well, the lecturer emphasized to her that it is not his statistic, but the world bank.

But she was really upset and unhappy. Prev, she was studying in OZ and she claims that China

is much more richer than OZ coz in China, they have LCD TV but for OZ, they only own small

TV.

And so, the lecturer explain to us, y is it so. Firstly in China, the wages was not distributed

evenly. Some who are rich becomes richer but those who are poor are not getting richer.

And this China girl fall into the richer category w/o realising that there are people in her

country that are not equally rich as her. Second, the lifestyle in OZ is different. They are not

the material people. Doesnt mean they have small TV, they are poor. In fact, they are rich but

they dun really watch TV a lot, they are more to the outdoor lifestyle.

There are other stories which the lecturer share, regarding the economy..the history and all..

WEll to sum up the class, it was fun. This Sunday is the last class and im sure gonna miss the

class.

Restless and Agitated

2008-01-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

Time of the month.
Tengah feeling agitated and restless giler~
Tak tahu nak buat apa skg nih...
Kat MSN pun takder kamcing ho~ nyer members.
Mati kutu lah seh..
nak blaja..otak dah jammed..
nak surf..tak tahu website apa nak surf...
Takkan nak surf **** plak...astaghfiruahalazimm!!!
Mcm nak pengsan skg pun ader..
Nak call org..tak tahu nak call sapa...
ckp pasal calling-calling nih kan,
teringat zaman seondary sch...aku ada 2 best fren lah..pompuan..syafa and fara
Hairannyer, dulu aku bole berbual ngan si fara nih berjam2 kat tepon..
Syafa jgn ckp lah, dia bukan jenis gayut kat tepon lah kan
Yang lebih menghairankan lagi, kalau skg aku nak berbual ngan pompuan berjam2 kat talipon
mcm akward giler seh..
paling lama pun ..maybe stgah jam ker..itupun ngan enot lah..kalau ada masalah dalaman.
Nak berbual ngan pompuan lain..aiyoh...mcm kekok giler to the max..
tak reti nak confide in girls..mostly dgn guys jer lah kan..
Tapi skg nih jarang berbual ngan kawan2..
Sapa lah kawan laki aku skg kan..
Semua dah ada giirl...nak kena layan girl masing2 lah kan
Dr Lup aku...tak lain tak bukan Binjjr dah sesat ke bulan..tak dgr berita lagi...
Mal ada companion...
Rudy ada girl...
Izk takder girl tapi mcm biskot..
Ya ampun!!! Asal niari rasa mcm tak betul nih...
Haiz...main game pun cantik...

Tapi lebih cantik sekali is to tido!!!

Sok nak kena gi skolah bayar duit bridging module lah plak...
9th jan dah start class...

k lah ciaoz..

Running Low...

2008-01-05T21:32:00.000+08:00

Its the 5th day since 2008.

The year started not too bad..and not too good.

The interview was such a disspointment.

It was just a normal interview between agency and jobseekers.

Haiz, they even apologize to me for coming down twice

coz they overlooked the fact that i have already been interviewed by her collegueas.

But patience is the key to success and i shall persevere.

But then again, i really need to find a job soon.

The money is running low and soon it will be gone.

I have stuffs to pay

Bills...

Insurance...

Loans...

I dun mind not shopping for the time being...

but by hook or by crook i need to settle those 3 stuff above.

Sometime, finding job makes me feel useless.

How i envied those people who got a stable earning.

Happy life...less to think about...

Adding to it,

I score 1 grade lower for my assignment 2.

Yah i know, i still pass

but i was expecting an improvement or at least the same grade.

But...nvm, i shall work on my exams.

That's all for tonite..

GoodNite Bloggerz!!

GoodBye 2007 ; Welcome 2008

2007-12-31T14:57:00.000+08:00

9 hours more to go ...

The nations will be welcoming a brand new year which is 2008.

A New year to start with new resolution, new dreams

But before I embark on this new journey,

I need to reflect on the whole episode of 2007.

The success and the downfalls.

2007 was a sweet and bitter experience.

Early this year, I got to know someone but i was deceived.

But im happy that i took the right move before it becomes too late

and till today i never regret leaving him.

But i regret for allowing him to deceive me and taking me for granted.

Middle of this year, i was thrown with a very bad news

that affected me deeply.

My contract with SIAEC was not continued.

It was a heart-wrenching experience.

2 years working there, and i totally love it.

It was hard to leave that place

especially thinking on all those people that i have bonded with.

It was a totally unfair decisons of my superintendant.

I dun blame the officers nor my senior foreman.

I knew they want me there...

But i took all of that with an open heart..

1 month after i landed on a temp job at Singtel...as a CSO.

Its not my cup of Tea but well i just had to grab whatever that came.

Initially, it was great but after the office shifted

negative inequity takes its place.

I find that there was no welfare for the temp staffs.

Need to produce document when taking leave.

Cant take festive season leave unless got documents.

How ridiculous???

After so much patience, i decided to leave the workplace 6 months after.

The heart is no more there.

In between, i got to know someone.

Someone who's the opposite of those guys that only there for my money

Im glad that our path met..

and till today im grateful to God for presenting him in my life.

I have always taken seriously on friendships...

But i believe its up to individual.

Ive tried my best to secure some friendship

but then...friends come and go.

In November, I got someone new in my Life.

My first nephew was born on the 18th November 2007.

Iman Muhaimin.

I have also enrolled myself on some courses to upgrade myself.

It will take me 1.5 yrs and i really hope that i could go through this path

with strong persevereance and determination.

A lot of money have been invested and i really hope that its not wasted.

I have also went to skin treatment, so far so good...

And my skin are turning out well and hopeuflly it stays that way.

Im in debt with people..and i really got to find a perm job soon to settle

all my debts. Sighz...

Been attending few interviews but no results so far.

Agency have been caling me again and again..

but still no news.

Today, i received a call for an interview from agency again

on 2nd January 08

Hopefully, with the new year, this interview will bring me luck.

And for 2008, i hope i will become a better person.

A Good Daughter..

A Good Sister...

A Good Aunty...

A Good Partner..

A Good Employer...

A Good Friend..

And so...i would like to wish everyone here.

A Happy New Year...

Yok BerDikir!!

2007-12-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

Skg nih tengkuk aku tgh sakit giler babi..and it pulls the muscle of the head.maka kepalapun sakit. Took Anarex, hopefully sakit berkurangan soon lah kan..nak main game pun mcm tak semangat. Nak kata ngantuk, tadi dah tido..argh!!

Anyway just to update on the recent activities, On sat ( 22nd Dec 07), went to NP to watch Piala Khatulistiwa. Lama giler tak tgk dikir. Nih pun my friend ajak, sbb kawan dier perform. Kalau tak, aku tk pergi agaknyer sbb tkder geng. But worthwhile lah kan, terubat rindu dihati. Teringin jugak nak clap2 hand..tapi fikir balik..takder masa ar nak main dk lagik, training dier kalau semua dtg on time takper, byk waste time..lagipun badan nih pun dan makin montel..so nak duduk srikandi confirm sakit nyer..haha..

anyway..here are few pics..more pics pls view it my multiply. Pls click at the picture gallery ok. Nak comment pn dipersilakan.

SP..I Mish You!!

2007-12-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

Last Monday, i had a visit to SP - Yesh..Singapore Polytechnic. The place where i meet cool bunch of people, friends, enemies, crushes..you name it. Friends like Hanot, Naufal, Lynn, Affar, Shahran..haha...Enemies like...yee Chiao..Siti..and who are the name fara i think, the girl where arip and nasron crazy abt...haha... Crushes Like...ALif (1st lup seh), Yeony...and Nasron ( now becomes Hanot's fiancee)..OMG!!! So Malu...Hanot...pls pls dun u ever tell nas about it...(pleading ok)..or u already told? Shucks!!! Cant believe im saying this!! The place where i learn to skip classes, merayap and yah..warning letter. Alhamdullilah, despite the hurdles and obstacles in poly life, i still was awarded with the Diploma cert.

I actually went to SPGG to burn some fats...haha..actually i went to the gym. Since someone was a member of SPGG, so i tag along. Me being a guest of coz i have to pay lah to use the gym, but not that much lah kan. Well, the place was big and nice view man. Haha...After 3 years i left that place, skg baru masuk eh...ishk ishk

Yesh..its the SPGG!!

The Entrance...Big Isnt it???

And after the workout, i went for a short tour in SP. Well..of coz i cant wait to step in FC3.

Full of memories, more of the sweet memories

Food Haven! Yesh thats the name. SOmething new, ada bakery shop seh kat situ..and i think the name is DELI.

And so..i wanted to have our (me, hana and naufal) all time favourites which is mee Hokkien.. but then the things belum prepared lah..coz it was still early ...haiz rugi..nvm.since im no more working can ask hana to tag along to SP.So i just settle down with Mee Siam.

And of coz, since its my blog..u'll need to see me posing in FC3.

And other Random Photos.

Hanot...come lets go to SP!!! TO have our Mee hokkien

@@ Byez...

Hady..WIns!!! Im Proud of him!!!!!

2007-12-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Yeah Yeah Hady Menang!wohooooo....

Im still feeling excited..Im not an avid fan of him...

but seeing him wins in asian idol,made me feels extremely excited and

Glad to say.. Hady you made SPore Proud!!!

It was a tough competeition. Infact, i believe all sporeans was not expecting Hady to win.

Even hady himself, i believe do not put any hopes.

As what he says, compared to the others, there are way more experienced

And eventually when his name was announced..he was shocked..i am too!!!

i was like shouting screamin on top of my lungs at 12 midnight...haha!!

What eva it is! you are great Hady!!

Just hope after this, no such rumours and negative remarks

such as..

"Hady doesnt deserve to win and all"

I really hope so!!

CONGRATULATIONS HADY!!!

2007-12-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

I feel like shit...Totally shitty feeling.

I'm already upset whenever i do my assignment

and now i become much much more upset.

I realised eversince i started my assignments,

I have become more emotional and get upset easily.

And the victim will always be my loved ones,

having to endure my rantings, my whining, my worries.

And all this have not made me feel better but worst!

Maybe....

I should just bottled up my feelings and worries...

At least, it will only eat me up but not those who loves me.

Such a Relief~!!!

2007-12-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Assignment title: Motivation assignment Singapore 11
Returning/marking status

Grade: C - Credit

The moment i saw the grade, im so happy!!
I did not expect it.
I thought i might get P1 or P2.
I was really terrified of being caught in Plagiarism.
The grades are :

HD-High Distinction, D -Distinction, C-Credit,P1 - Average Grade, P2 - Bare Pass

And i got a Credit.

But there's one thing that worries me!!
Assignment 2 for this subject is kinda hard.
Im truly clueless and i do not know how to start it.

Till now, im stucked...ARGH!!!

2007-12-08T10:21:00.000+08:00

Mood: Delighted

See the smiley!!
Thats how wide the smile i put on my face.
Hee3x. Nothing else that i can say except for a
BIG THANK YOU.

I finally got my Manja Edition with the bag. Although, i did not manage to get the Black one, well i must say that is, its the magazine that i need, not the bag.

And, i got a pair of sandals too. Just a normal simple one for me. Well, i cant buy those expensive one, coz maklumlah i nih ganas u!! Haha!!

Thanks once again. Muacks Muaxz!!!

Darkness Around Me

2007-12-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....Banyak benda dalam pikiran nih, sampai tak tahu nak luahkan mana satu. Semakin hari, semakin serabut. Kadang-kadang, otak nih terus jammed, tak tahu apa nak buat lagik. SEjak kebelakangan nih, hidup ni rasa teramat lah susah. Rasa mcm nak putus asa pun ada.

Problem pertama/kedua /ketiga...dan seterusnya sampai bila-bila....

DUIT

Perkataan yang singkat tapi maknanya besar.

Orang kata , duit bukanlah segala-galanya.

Tapi tanpa duit jugalah boleh menjadikan orang gila dan tak tentu arah.

Pening kepala nih, nak pikir pasal duit nak bayar tuh, nak bayar nih.Insurance, Yuran Sekolah, Bill HP, duit Transport Pergi balik Kerja dan sekolah,Duit Makan, Duit nak kasi Mak bapak, Duit untuk rawatan kulit aku nih.Duit rawatan kulit ngan yuran sekolah - confirm kena bayar takbleh escape.

Insurance pun tiap2 bulan confirm kena bayar.Bill Hp - Terpaksa kurangkan, Langkah Pertama - terminate Colour Me Tone. Bender alah nih tak Impt.So tadi, tamatlah riwayat service tuh. So kalau korang call aku, dgr bunyi baisa ajer lah yer.So skarang nih kena rajin-rajinlah guna talipon rumah. Makan nak kurangkan boleh, tapi aku nih bermasalah, takleh kurang makan.

Tak makan ajer, sakit..camner nak save gini.

Kerja aku plak tgh buat hal. Boleh jadi gila! Aku tgh sabar nih jer.

Cukup Masa meletup jugak tao. Gaji bayar lambat. Dier nak suruh aku makan apa, datang kerja ngan apa eh..Sepatutnyer dapat hari 21, tapi samapi skg..dah nak dekat next pay, pun tak masuk lagik.Kalau Fri nih, tak masuk, terus terang ar eh...Sat nih jugak last day aku.Tak mampu nak gi kerja. Dlm bank tinggal $10 jer. Cuber terangkan sikit eh, camner nak hidup gini.Tapi mmg ura-ura nak berhenti kerja, carik kerja lain. Dah bosan ngan kerja nih. Kiter nih dah lah temp staff, tak dpt privelege plak tuh. nak amik leave pun nak kena document.Merepek betul. Takder welfare langsung untuk kiter. Kiter nih manusia jugak sehTapi ntahlah, kemungkinan besar cukup bulan nih, last lah aku kerja sana. Tgklah mcmana.Masih dalam pertimbangan

Ingatkan, nak start business. Tapi business apa eh? Aku nih takder pengalaman.Nak jadi make up artist...hmmm cert ada tapi pengalaman takder.Practice pun kurang.Nak practice kat muker sendiri tak boleh, tgh rawatan. Kalau makeup makeover ker dinner and dance ker, bolehlah jugak. Kirer mintak upah dlm $30 ker $50 ker..oklah jugak. Ada jugak Hasil.Kalau tunang ngan kahwin, woo belum boleh lagik lah tak berani seh. Tapi kalau lah sekiranya aku set up nih business, ada ker org nak support sedangkan byk lagi make up artist yang berpengalaman kat luar. Tadi Mardiana msg, nak suruh aku make-up kan dier Fri nih for her dinner and dance, tapi tuhlah sayang sekali, dier blg last minute plak..Aku dah make plans nak celebrate bday kawan aku, dah booking semua tempat seh. Baru habuan nak masuk, dah melepas lagik..sighz..

Apa kata kalau aku buat business makanan, puff ker kuih ker cake ker..apa2 lah..Korang rasa, korang akan support ker?? Korang nak order dari aku tak? Apa kata aku berhenti kerja nih, aku duk rumah blaja masak apa2 lah...pas tuh kasi org sample then korang order..amcam ok ker? Sambil tuh boleh aku concentrate dgn studies aku. Tapi aku takleh harapkan hasil dari business jer, kena carik kerja tetao jugak, nih pun sambilan2.So what do you think guys, will you support me if im involved in all this? Will you?

Otak buntu sekarang nih..BUNTU!!!!!

Mcm nak nangis pun ada..mcm nak melalak pun ada.

Tak pernah rasa sesak mcm gini. Nak beli apa-apa pun kena pikir dua kali. Nak beli sandal biasa buat gi kerja pun, terpaksa tunda dari hari raya sampailah skang..Pakai jerlah apa yang ada.. Tadi aku tgk kat kedai simei, kasut $10 - lawa lawa...murahkan $10 jer - dan buat pertama kali dlm hidup aku, aku rasa $10 amat berat sekali.. Kadang2 sedih jugak tgk keadaan aku mcm gini. Terpaksa simpan jer lah hasrat dlm hati. Dan Juga buat pertama kalinya, aku miss "Manja' Edisi December tahun nih. Mana2 aku pergi, dah takder.sbb aku carik dah lambat. Maklumlah takder duit, dari aku blanjer $3 tuh , lebih baik aku simpan h buat makan satu hari.

Sedih...im so Sedih...so Depressed and Down!!!

Friday nih nak gi celebrate bday kawan aku, haiz duit lagik kan.

Kalau tak pergi mcm tak sporting gitu, bday aku dan lain2, dier pun share jugak belikan hadiah untuk aku.Lagipun, dier salah seorang yang memberi kesan dalam hidup aku.

Geng kitaorang - hehe bukan geng merepek eh..

Geng consist of Abg G, Zulekha,Fyza,Uncle Shis dan aKu.

Uncle Shis dah gi haji, Will only be back n 27 DEc. Semoga uncle Sihat kat sana.

Doakanlah yang terbaik untuk saya.

Dan tak lupa juga,

Lastly, Thanks Ben for your help all this while and your understanding in all matters.

Sajak - Hampir

2007-12-03T21:26:00.001+08:00

I was cleaning up my folders in my Laptop when i chance upon a poem, ive written way back.
Cant remember when it is, but i guess it could be during my emo-emo days..Ahakz..

Hampir

Hampir aku terlupa pada yang kekal esa
Yang Mencipta memberi Nyawa
Hampir aku terlena dibuai mimpi indah
Yang hanya wujud di alam maya
Hampir aku terlanjur dalam dakapan asmara
Yang Hanya membawa aku didampingi dosa
Hampir aku terseksa dalam derita cinta
Yang meracuni minda menghancuri jiwa

Bangunku dari khayalan
Berpijak di bumi yang nyata..
Menyedari akan kenyataannya...

AKu adalah hambanya
Tiada kekal dalam dunia
Aku Manusia biasa
Tidak Dapat lari Dari dosa
AKu Sering diuji
Untuk Melihat Ketaatanku PAdanya
Dunia Yang Sementara
Penuh dengan tipu daya

Thought of the Day

2007-11-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

Past are naive thinking and lesson learned.

Present is matured thinking, improved

and not to repeat the same mistake.

Tak Tercapai Akalmu

Ku congak apa yang didepan ku

sebelum atur langkah

ku tahu kan ke mana

tak mudah aku kan diperdaya

dengan pujuk dan rayu

hasut ke dunia mu

Sesungguhnya ku

lebih dari yang kau tahu

baik buruknya sesuatu

selalunya difikirkan dulu

Biar berdentum

langit runtuh dan menghempap diriku

tidak tergadai tata susila ku

yang menggambarkan siapa diriku

biarlah bergoncang

bumi di telapak kakiku ini

namun takkan ku rubah pendirian

yang membuat aku menjadi aku

mungkin sukar tuk difahami

kerna tak tercapai akal mu

Jangan ku kau sasarkan sebagai mangsa

yang kau sangka mudah rebah

santun bukan yang ku lemah

mudahnya rosakkan dari membina

mencemarkan dari memulia

tak menghirau dari mengendah

2007-11-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Lunch. Had Nasi Lemak with Suzi at the pantry. Now, the nasi lemak effect has already started, im feeling sleepy. Ahakz.

Yesterday after work, i went out. I dint know where we were heading to. Without me knowing, im already infront of a chinese massage shop at Parkway. O Oh...Kinda scared but haha...since im already there, got no choice but to try it. Well, it was a fruitful one. The China lady really have a lot of strength..She press some part of my body which is so painful that i wish i can shout out loud. Although it is painful, but it was a nice one...especially when she massage my neck and shoulder...Ah..Heaven~ i think i got to jemur my bantal lah....my neck still hurts as yesterday...
I think the veins must have been swollen coz i can feel like a bump ..

Anyway..i received a call just now from an unknown number. It was from Elaine Recruit Express. She call to ask me for an interview for an admin perm position. Since it was a perm position, i decided to take the offer for the interview. Hopefully this one would not be as disspaointing as the job offer i got previously but till then, i shall not put as much hope for this.

Well i guess i better kill off the Q call at werk rite now. C ya~

New Skin

2007-11-28T16:07:00.000+08:00

After so many days of contemplating whether to change the blogskin, at last i found a nice simple decent one. Very attractive, to me at least. Im left with 15mins more before knocking off.

Today i woke up with a painful stiff neck and it hurts till now. I cant even tilt my head to the left. The pain is so critical. Wanted to go doc this morning, but then not enuf money to go. Damn! YES! My pay has still yet to be credited. They sucks man~

Im on my Assignment 1 for the next subject. Got the materials...now only need to write it. need to submit it on 3/12/07. Sighz...And yah..another point to take note, im addicted to MAPLESTORY. All because of my elder brother introducing me to this. i shall elaborate about it on my next entry.

Assignment Submission

2007-11-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

Im Nervous....I Fear...Im Scared...Im paranoid.
Im in the process of submitting my assignment...
Been a few hours, but i just can get this damn fingers to click on the Submit button.
this is my first time...and im so terrified.
I hate the word Plagiarism. I just fear that my essay will be full of that shit.
No one understand
Mixed Feelings...and i have to face all this alone...:-(

I shall gamble and submit my assignment at 12 midnight sharp.
Pls pray that i will get thru it.

Weird....
Im submitting my assignment with teardrop...
Im such a crap!!!

2007-11-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

Mood: Frustrated

Im at work rite now and feeling very very tired. Today will be the last night i will have my class for subject ILM. After today, i do not have to attend to class anymore but to work on my assignments. I thought of taking MC this morning but thinking about the leftover in my bank account, i decided not to.

Money Money Money...
Lately ive been thinking about this very frequently.
Been very very tight...and guess what for the ever first time,
im left with only $20. Can you believe that????
WEll for sure I CANT!!!! Ive never been this broke before. Seriously.
And the thought that im in debt for my school fees, my face treatment and all..
Im getting so depressed thinking about all this.
Although im in debt with my own family member, but still i dun feel at ease.
I just had to be patience wiating for my pay to be credited to me..

Unfortunately, today i received the news.
The Bomb exploded.
There's some delayed in the salary.
Hearing this news, i almost went into tears.
the news was so disheartening...im so dissapointed.
How im supposed to pay my phone bills, my sch fees, my treatment..
And this sunday i have a dentist treatment..i had to cancel it coz i cant afford it simply said.

As much as i do not want to use my savings,
in such circumstances, i really got no choice.
So sad~

A New Guy in My Life

2007-11-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

Ive known his existence roughly around a year ago...

but well i dint get a chance to really know him.

we've never met, we've never spoke

but i know he's there...

but i cant be sure that i will meet him.

I leave it the almighty to decide.

However, everyday i pray and i hope,

that Allah will fulfilled my dreams of meeting him.

Last 5 days, i had an instinct that he will come and see me real soon..

And true enuf, the folowing day, he came by.

But i was not available to welcome him.

I was too busy and was occupied with work and school.

My parents send me his pic.

I felt a different feeling when i saw it.

I dunnoe why but from the first look,

i know im gonna love this guy so much

And only after 2 days, i got to meet him as he came to my house.

Lucky enuf, the lecturer let the class leave early.

I rush home...had my shower, get ready and went to see him.

I was nervous yet excited. I just couldnt wait to meet and hug him.

Its been a long time ive waited to see him im person.

And yah, i was so happy and delighted to see him.

the feeling was hard to describe...

but i dun want to miss saying this to him

............................

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Welcome to the World

Iman Muhaimin Bin Muhammad Mulia

Semoga menjadi anak yang Soleh.

Dear Nephew.......Stay Cute Always!!!!

2007-11-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

Im at training right now. Nowdays, i simply couldnt find the time to update this blog of mine. Though t of changing to the new skon but still got no time for that. This week for 5 days straight, i got classes right after work. That's the reason why i got no time for all this. Got a chance to write thi short entry only coz its my break time. At the same time,a lot of things going thru my mind and money is the most impt issues rite now. Im still struggling. Shall elaborate more on that on my next entry. Got to go now. Take Care.

~Wide Awake~

2007-11-11T03:44:00.000+08:00

Time on my Lappy : 3.45am

Im Awake right now. I slept at ard close to 10pm i think and i wake up around 1+am.
My neck was so strained just now that it affects my head resulting me to have the normal migraine i had. The plan was to work on the assignment after maghrib but wasnt able to do so due to the throbbing head. Decided to pop in the panadols and rest...and i was awaken by the temperature that is so hot.my aircon was off - no wonder.

Work and school was fine yesterday. we went thru the last chapter and the assignment. I got 2 assisgnment now in hand and assignment 1 is due in 2 wks time. Thought of visiting the NLB in bugis to find for resources but well, i dun think i know how to find my way there...well im budak kampung u know...haha. So i decided to just visit the NLB in Tampines after my appt tomorow to find the resources i need for my assignment. I need to have at least 3 references...I wonder whether the NLB is open tommorow and till what time. Well..i better check it out.

Oh yah, btw i was so pissed off and irritated while im on my way back home from class. class end at 6pm and well everyone should know how the crowd is in CT Hall and furthermore its a saturday. I was one of the middle ppl trying to get in the train...and bloody hell there are so many uncivilised people who keep pushing and pushing trying to squeeze themselves in althought the fact that there was not an inch of space. All of us were squeeze like in a can of sardine. To add on to it, all those ppl who were carrying haversack dont even know how to use thier brain. Despite the fact that they know the trian was crowded, they still do not have the courtesy to take off thier bag from the shoulder and carry it with thier hands..DOnt they know that thier bags takes up space...

Then, while the crowwd have subside in the train, there this 3 young guys mak kental...i find it annoying and such a disgrace. Talking loudly as if telling the ppl in the train that he drink beer.
Speaking it in Malay..and the conversation was like " Aku kalau minum beer, keluar gatal-gatal sak.." Like bloody hell, even if u drink it, u dun have to broadcast to the whole world lah. And Mmg padan muker kena gatal2...amik lagi benda2 haram tuh kan...Im not trying to act good lah, i do have malay frens who drink but then again, its between u and him...but dun have to announce lah kan...

Im on my Pre-MS mode...Felt annoyed by a lot of things...

CLoud 9....

2007-11-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days i have not update my blog. Ever since i started schooling, i dont even have time to logon to the net frequently. By the time i get home, ill be very very shagged and all i wanna do is sleep coz i need to gain all the energy again for tommorow long day. My school schedule have been pretty hectic.

Just Imagine...
1) Waking up at 6am to get ready to go to work
2) by 7 am, im out of the house..
3) Start work at 8am and end at 4.30pm
4) Have my early dinner and all.
5) By 6.30pm, class start end at 10.30 pm
6) Reach home at 1130 pm
7) 12 midnight...Sweet Dreams..

And i will have to repeat all this for 5 days..just imagine how shagged i am.

But well, i started off the first week of school excellently. He, who never fails to accompany me for my early dinner on his off days without complaining and even fetch me from school and the fact that he stayed a distance, that have never become a reason for not fetching me. Instead, he apologize for not fetching me sometimes due to him not feeling well. sometimes, i really feel guilty for troubling him again n again. To him, i really appreciate all your actions. Ive never felt this way and ive never been treated this way. It just shows me how much u feels for me,. I cant thank you enuf for all the things that you do.

I hope all this are not just a dream..and i really hope all this dreams wont turn out as a nightmare in the long run...

Ok lah enuf of my mushy2 thingy...hehe. I better get my brains working for my assignment.
The Lecturer Mr Alick wants us to draft out the assignment based on our understanding first..so im better off now...coz im feeling tired already..hehe

GoodNight.

Think Before You Speak

2007-11-02T10:54:00.001+08:00

I have deleted my previous entry. To those who have managed to read it, well i guess its ur luck
Last Night Frustration and Dissapointment resulted me in feeling extremely guilty. I wish i Could just Give a hardcore Knock on My Bloody Brains. Why was this bloody brain not functioning last night?? Otak letak kat bontot agaknyer!!

2007-11-01T13:12:00.000+08:00

Let me write about the induction the other day before i delay it any further.

Well the induction starts at 9am. Before that, Ben Picked me up and we went to have our breakfast at Macdonald Centrepoint. I had my Big breakfast while he have his Pancakes with sausage. After that, he send me to school. Well, i reach on time, find my seat beside 2 of my study group members. The induction was pretty dry. Basically, we are doing group discussion on how to write essay, report and study case. Presenting talking to the whole class. - that is the thing that i fear however as time goes by i will have to do that also. Then, followed by how to do research references and the most impt thing is How to avoid plagarism.

Senang Kata it was Boring lah. I didnt enjoy so much lah. Bleurgh!!

2007-10-31T16:15:00.000+08:00

Hi,

My company is looking for a
Temp Customer Service Officer.

Requirements: ITE CERT, Diploma or A Level.
Call Centre Environment.
5 days Work.
1 Weekday Off, 1 Weekend Off
$7.50/hr

Anyone interested pls tell me. Thanks

IT huRtz...

2007-10-29T14:13:00.000+08:00

I shall postpone my induction entry to a later date.

I just have to blog about what i feel at the moment.

An SMS by someone is really affecting me.

When i read the messages,i felt different.

Somehow, i had to keep up controlling myself.

The tears was about to fall, but i have to try my best to stop it from flowing.

Being me, i hate to show off my tears but at times, being a woman of coz i cant.

I dunnoe how shall i intepret that message.

Is it suppose to be a good thing or not.

But for what i know,

im Hurt.

Suddenly...the old wound bleeds.

WeLcoMe OrIeNtAtIoN

2007-10-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

*Yawns* . Im Still feeling sleepy and tired. It was so hard to wake up this morning. Even in the Mrt Train, i was standing and sleeping. Can u just imagine how i sleep while standing?? I myself couldnt imagine that. I reached my workplace at 850am close to 9am. The two lady TL was not on duty and for the first time i was being asked why im late...and for the first time i got a warning , in future no such excuses like " wake up late". Shuckz! I really got to Buck Up.

Yesterday after work, i went to school for my WelCome Orientation. I reach there ard 6.05pm.I went to Level 2 first to collect my Kaplan Student Pass. Hmph! They spell my name Wrongly. Suddenly my name become so unpleasant" syidatoundah". what kind of name is that. The malay girl at the counter apologize, she say its a Chinese that did the card. She will change it and to collect next week. Then i proceed to the Class, i was the first few to arrive. I register my name. There were so many tables and chair. Seems like a big group..and yes it is! There are 80 ppl in my class..can you believe that. We were separated into 17 Study group and each group consist of 5 ppl. I am in Study Group 12. Initially i thought my group have 2 ladies and 3 guy..but somehow looks like my group consist of 4 guys..but when i look back the adresee for one of my members is a MS. But seriously, the person doesnt look like a she. And till now, i could figure out whether its a she or a he. Tried to look at the body, but still i cant figure out. She's big size that explains it. Her features are like guys and her voice also like guy. I wonder and wonder..i guess only if we go toilet together than i will know what its gender..haha!

I was given my textbook and notes yesterday. I was also presented with the Class List of 80ppl. When i look thru it, i feel so timid and envied each one of them. Suddenly, i felt out of place. Most of them come from a big company and most of them are holding a management positions. Manger, Asst Manager, Planner, Supervisor, Executive, Shipping Asst,Procurement Officer..and what do i hold? Im only a TEMP CUST SVC OFFICER in a TELECOMMUNICATION Company which is not related at all with what im studying. Im so pathetic sia. But at the same time, i wish this could be a golden opportunity for me to embark on a new line of industry. Who knows, knowing all of them in the managerial position can land me in a permanent position in a big company. Who knows? I really hope so. Some of them are also exchanging namecard, and i got nothing at all..Sighz.

I ended my orientation at 9pm and i went home. I have to carry the so heave textbook and by the time im home, i was so shagged. I ate my dinner and shower....and lie down. True enuf, i doze off in the next few minutes. Even, when Ben call me, i heard the phone ringing but was not able to answer it as i was too too too tired. Thats all for the orientation.

Wait for my entry on my induction which will be held tommorow. Im gonna have a long day again tommorow. 9am - 4pm. But im sure to love it:-)

High Heelz

2007-10-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

As you can see, my blog layout have changed.
No, not because i want to revamp it, but i was editing some pics for my blog,
when i accidentally deleted some of the html codes and at last i couldnt find out whichone is missing. Thus, resulting me to change everything. For the record, im still not satisfy with this layout. But for the time being, let it be.

I Was on Off today. I went out to Maybank to set up an islamic banking Account.I dint know that Maybank have the required minimum to be only $200. But anyway, done that..then i went to have my lunch at Hajah Maimumah. Lama seh tak makan sana...If im not wrong, the last i went there was with Abg Cairo..and that was donkey years ago..when im still in poly i think.
Then, i went to catch a movie with a fren at GV Grand. Went to watch SuperBad. Oh My Goodness~! The story Sucks a Lot. The story plot was so sucky...i dunnoe how to explain it. its an M18 show...and for the first time ever, i was being screened asking for my Id. Well, i just took it as a compliment lah kan, i look young hahah!! I was wondering why a comedy story is an M18, then i realise..the language are all full of dirty words..and some nude graphics..And to end it all, what i know the story is about 2 guys which have been fren since young, then grow up together..getting hooked up..talking about girls...d*** and p***y. Trying to buy alcohol when thay are not even 18...and partying dancing with a girl...and ended up having his trousers with blood coz the girl was having her periods...Its so Gross + Nonsense...Well Whateva! Its over Anyway...

Then we made our way to Airport, i was craving for my Chicken Deli Potato..
Nih part lagik satu..The girl who attended to us was so blur and we were like about to laugh plus comment on her. I wanted an ala carte Deli potato..and she was referring that potato as a sandwich, we were like so blur..since when we order sandwich..so we were like saying jus the deli potato..and she kept saying. .." yah lah just the sandwich w/o the drink and soup". I gave up..i just agreed to her...we ordered a mineral water..as well. Then when she serve us, we were asking for out mineral water..and she looks blur again..oh my oh my...another watever! The most important thing, my craving have been fulfilled. Yeah!!

Then i went home, i was with my high heels..oh it sucks man wearing high heels.. My sole was so painful. im just not use to wear high heels..and i swear not to wear it again..unless i dun have to walk...hehe...

Well thats all for today...

2007-10-22T14:09:00.000+08:00

i'm FeeLiNg VeRy SaD and DepreSsed With The CoNdiTion Of My FaCe RigHt Now. My EcZeMa is reALly PinNing Me Down. It DisTurbs My EMotions. I FeEl so DemoRalizing and InSecure. And if i GoT thE ChOiCe, i Do Not Want To go OuT tO Werk . Maybe, its JuZ me, but SumHow i Feel that Everyone is LooKing at My Face, and is CriTiciZing It.

EverSince, My Eyes Were BadLy afFeCted by EcZeMa, It has Never BeEN BetTer. All OthEr Area are imProving, ExcEpt My Face. I Look Dark..As if thEre's A Dark Circle Around My EyEs. I Feel So Low Right Now. This MorNing, wheN i LooK at My Face I just Wish i Could Bury Myself. MayBe to Others, It dont Look bad but to Me, A Single Scar or RashEs on My Face can Bring Me Down Within a Split SEcond. I Just Couldnt Bear to Look at MySElf Either. I went to the Doctor, to See what they Can Do. BUt Im DissAPointed. DoCtors Have aLwaYs Giving Me The SAme AnsweR agaIn n Again. I HAte That!! I GOt an MC in RetuRn to StAY At hone and REst. When i Got back, Mum Told me to Try Wajah Beauty Centre, I DoUbt, whether theY can Help Me..but I Dun Minf TryiNg but That Also MeaNs I have To Spend..and Thinking of My FInaNce, where Shall i Get the Money With my Sch, Werk, Transport, Insurance, And ALl..I cant cope..Seriously i Cant Cope...I REally Have to StruGgle and Find My Way Out...

No One unDersTand....

2007-10-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Time checked: 1538hrs
Mood : Bored + I wanna go home!!!

Sighzz...Why does the time runs so slow today? I cant wait to go home.
Everyone is in the raya mode whereas im stuck in the corner of the office with 3 walls surrounding me. The only company i got was Atiqah on MSN. Normally, Ben will accompany me in MSN too but he's working today. Not forgetting Warna FM , the only thing that boost my raya mode by listening to Raya songs at work.

This few days the calls have been good. Less call due to KL Team have also pick up the mio calls. Infact, there's another department also picking up the calls. But sumhow, there's someting worrying me. Despite so many dprtments answering mio calls, my half day leave for tmrw still not approved. Only tommorow morning, it can be approved. Heard from my Tl that they are worried that the KL team might surprised them with a high MC rate and definately the calls will affect us here in Spore. Sumhow i sense that might happened as a lot of KL team are MALAYS and they too need to prepare for festive season. As for me, my tl advised to take MC but to think back, haiyah taking Mc is expensive. Paying for consultation and medicine when im not sick. Thus, im still sticking to work tommorow and hope for the best that they will approve me leaving half day.

The truth, i dont mind werking full day but i pitied my mum whp have to settle everything on her own, no one to help her. Although, i know im a lazy bum which helps just a little but i think the little help do counts as it lessen her burden even though just a tiny. But in this situation, i really cant do anything.

Sighz...anyway...i shall take this opportunity to wish all Muslims

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Seandainyer terkasar bicare tersilap kata atau kata-kata yang menyinggung perasaan,ampun maaf dipinta. Tidak pernah terniat untuk menlukai.

Untuk mereka-mereka yang mendera perasaanku, menghancurkan impianku

tiada apa yang dapat aku nyatakan kecuali perasaan yang amat kesal dan ia adalah suatu pengalaman dan pengajaran buat diri ini walaupun ku mengerti ia akan menghantui diri ini selamanya. Aku redha dan berserah.

Pada mereka yang hutang aku duit beribu-ribu million, , saya ampunkan segala kesalahan mereka namun tetapi ingatlah saya haramkan

kesemuanyer dunia dan akhirat.

Bukan kejam, tapi dibandingkan apa yang mereka harungi tidak setimpal mana yang akan aku hadapi biler berdepan dengan zakat harta.

2007-10-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

Finally The OT's Family get to Meet each other.

Presenting....

-=Hanot=-

-=Norot=-

-=Syidot=-

Let me see..Grrrr...I cant seem to find out the last time we met each other
It must have been pretty long that we seen each other.
Oh i Miss the First KL trip we had together.
Girls..when shall we make a trip again?
How about Seoul? Haha...

ANyway, we had such a fun time.
Ramadhan is definately a good month.
It does mengeratkan silaturahim..

After our iftar, we went to Marina Sq to shop.
Helping out Hanot find her Raya Shoes and Make up.
I was contemplating whether to get a sandal as well or not.
My sandal was bad..haha..the girls know what was the condition of my sandals.
But on another thought, i shall not spent my money unnecessarily since
i do have other sandals to wear..just that i dun feel comfortable in it.
Thus, that explain the existence of my new wish.

I guess thats all for today's update.

Feeling tired after helping out with some chores...i shall turn in..

C ya~

2007-10-08T11:23:00.000+08:00

As expected, i did fall sick on Sat. By 11am, my migraine was really turning from bad to worst. I couldnt endure it anymore. My eyes were watery and i felt like vomitting. After so much consideration, i actually req to go back. Initially i thought, i do not want to go to the doc coz i do still have my painkillers. BUt then, they require an MC thus, i have to burn my $25 jsut to get an MC. Sighz...

Reach home, i went to sleep. Couldnt eat the medicine as i was fasting. I just hope the migraine will go away. Knowing myself better than anyone else, the migraine did not go away. Instead it transfer to my right part of the head...I was enduring the pain all along..till the time i need to break fast. After i break my fast, took the medicine and it took 2 hours before my migraine subside...FUh!! It was such a relieved.

Today i'll be breaking fast at ~~vivo~~ Esplanade @ 2hot cafe. It willbe my first time there. Gonna iftar with Hanot and Norot.. HEhe been a long time since we hang out together...

2007-10-06T08:29:00.001+08:00

Good Morning to ALL.
awww..going to work today really sucks man.
Im too tired and lethargic, my body doesnt feel good.
All due to me went down to Geylang Yesterday nite with my family.
The place was horrible, human traffics.
Atiqah, i guess ur rite this time. Oh man! there are a lot of humans
I was sweating...and my body felt so sticky...Urgh~!!!

Seriously, i just had the feeling that i will be sick.
Not as in fever , flu or that kind.
but migraine...yeah. that will happen when im lack of food, sleep and rest.
I just wish im able to go on today..
Working on a Sat is definately not exciting at all
But then again, i need to survive.

I tried to take leave on raya eve,
but my TL claims that they dont allow temp staffs to take leave w/o doc
Nonsense! cant they understand its raya eve??
I tried to take half day instead..still pending for an answer
If still cannot..my TL say "pandai pandai lah. doc byk kat luar"
Haha..best kan dpt TL gini...:)

After Hari Raya, i will have to start paying my sch fees,
Going for the orientation and collect all the materials
Getting to know my coursemate and such.
My classes gonna start in NOV.
Im left with a whole month to enjoy myself and after
that i just need to focus on my studies.
I just pray that i will do fine.

2007-10-03T11:23:00.000+08:00

Pissed!! I was totally pissed last night.
Call me bitch..call me heartless but i do not care anymore.
U give me pain, trauma, paranoia, and History
u made my life miserable and regretful.
I regret knowing you...

Im sorry but this is not the old me that you are talking with.
I ever promised myself and i even pray to god that you and i will never cross
the same path again but being the super nice and dumb me,
i let you have the chance. I befriend you.
To me, each individual deserve a chance to repent and realise their mistake.
But you are just proving to me that you dun deserve a chance at all.

That resulted me in treating you this way.
Im sorry i know its Gonna be festive season soon,
but i cant accept any excuses anymore. U had ur way too much.
On that day, if i dun see anything at all. Im gonna say it to you and ur family.
Although i dun have any contacts with ur family, but there will be other ways.
I dun go for duniawi but i go for ukhrawi..jusz remember that...

2007-10-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

Thanks Nizam For the Gift....

Appreciate it a Lot.

Although i guess u knew me less than a month

But the thoughts u had in SERIOUSLY presenting me with the gift

was Really touched. Thanks Once Again.

PS: So now..Pls be confident of urself. Do not criticize ur self by saying

People will vomit looking at you. All of us are humans and we are never perfect.

You may not be good looking as what u claim you are, but

who knows beneath that not so good looking face, lies a heart of a gold.

So now...tell me what you wish for...coz i guess 4 more days ur turning wiser~:)

2007-09-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

Its sad to see a fren go but then again nothing can stop if a decision have been made.I admit im not perfect and i can be such a bitch at times to be so petty about lil things. Its not that im doing it on purpose. But i guess i just couldnt bring myself to tolerate such nonsense anymore. Firstly, when PMS, well every guy should be aware of that. Our moods fluctuates. Another thing, i cant tolerate if ppl keep repeating the same qn again and again even after ive told them not to ask something they already know. Lastly, i cant simply tolerate when such little jokes or statements is being reciprocate as

Ok..takper i will remember what u say
Takperlah..i tahu siapa i
busy? hmm takperlah you go n sleep...( w/o even me saying that im sleepy)

But at least im proud to say, when i realise i was being too harsh i did let down my ego and said sorry but he although knew it i dislike being treated that way..keep asking qn repeatedly does not even bother. And today...i was not in the mood to be angry..i did try my best to prevent a quarrel to happen.but likewise my intention was mistaken. It goes something like this

Fren: Nasib baik i ada nak layan u kat msn..kalau tak you boring..tapi i asik kena marah ngan u
Me : Taklah i tak paksa u layan i..but since u in msn i chat with u lah
Fren: Oh u ckp gitu mcm k takper i will remember what you say
ME : Apa seh..betul lah apa i ckp..oklah stop it lah k...before i get angry..lets stop this.

( Me logoff...cool down and log in again)

Rcvd an sms from him : i think u erase jer lah my contacts semua..i and u cant be frens we asik gaduh ajer....

Like hello..u are the one whos like throwing me out from ur circle of friends so why must i erase ur contacts ..After few times trying to salvage the friendship , i guess thats it. i cant be salvaging too much. no point in me trying to work things out when its only one-sided. He even dare to advise me to control my temper...I told him i know myself and im not the kind that gets angry easily but seriously i cant tolerate so much nonsense.

Frens..tell me am i that hot - tempered??? - Or maybe i am towards the guys???

Ironically, a girl can tolerate so much nonsense when guys giving them difficulties for months years...a decade but guys? Not even half a year, they raise the white flag already.

Anyway to this fren of mine..thanks for ever being a fren..but as ppl loves to say..

FRIENDS COME AND GO, ONLY TRUE FRIENDS STAY

2007-09-27T11:04:00.000+08:00

Hujan yang turun...bagaikan mutiara
Berkilau bersinar berkerdipan....

Brrrrrr....Its so cold and im shivering.....
Woke up this morning...look thru my window. No wonder its so cold and
something is preventing me from pulling myself out from bed. Heavy downpour lah sehhhhhh....I set my alarm at 630am. After a lot of snoozing hehe at last i manage to pull myself with great force out of the bed at 730am. Luckily everything are all ready. My clothes are iron and my bag are ready. My dressing up can be done in like 20 mins. But still i reach werk 15mins late. Hehe...
reason due to after getting ready..i still cover myself with my comforter..its so comfortable :-)

Now im at werk on my lunch break hehe.Cant sleep today. Dunnoe y i feel a bit fresh. Anyway yesterday went to Geylang with my lovely girlfriends Fyza and Zul. Thry bought me a Baju Kebaya Batik..hehe a gift from them, abg g and uncle shis. Thanks all..Luv ya all~

Today not so much calls at werk. I think becos of the rain lah. The customers might have still be in bed with their comforters covering them and also it could be that they have no mood to get angry on a cool day like today. And tonite, im going geylang again with another gf, Atiqah. :-)

Oklah..that all for now..gotta get back to werk in half an hours time.

2007-09-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Received the letter on the day of my birthday. Didnt post it on that day coz i was still thinking.
I know im not supposed to be thinking at this stage but sumhow i guess because of the job interview i went worried me. If im accepted on that job, i need to know the timing the job ends and how do i manage the time.And another thing, during the fasting month, i find myself more tired than before and it was so difficult to get out of bed in the morning. This sumhow make me think whether can i cope work and studies. Hopefully what ever i feel now is temporary.

At the same time, im excited. Cant wait to be call a student once again. im so keen to learn and i do hope that while im learning there are company who is willing to take me to work with them. I would prefer working in the same industry as what im learning. im sure it will benefit me more.
Now i need to find the time to call the Eduloan consultant, i need to liase with them on how do i apply for the loan and such. since im earning at an hourly rate, i got to get my bro to be the main applicant. Hopefully the loan thingy will go on smoothly.

Oh yah..i need to reply those letter by 3rd October..and i must make the first payment by 22nd October..i must remember this dates~

2007-09-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

10 more mins to go and im completely 24 years old.

First of all, i would like to wish all those people that have wish me ...

Fyza and Zul - Lovely Girlfriends..who wish me even before the clock strike 12. I was with them breaking fast , thus that explained it all.

Atiqah - Thanks for the shoutout on your blog. Superb!!!

Rizal - The Ex claims that he remember my bday w/o anyone telling. Hmm...not sure of that, but thanks anyway.

Fazly - Another Ex, who called me and wish althou we ended up quarrel a bit. I just cant stand ppl who sulk easily. But afterall, its great that u remembered.

Azlin ( Naufal's GF ) - Thanks for the wish via SMS. Was expecting Naufal to msg me, but was dissapointed thou coz he dindt. I was expecting it becoz we were like very close during poly years and never fail to celebrate it. He have fail to msg me for 2 years already but i never fail to msg him every year. Guess he 's too busy with his work.

SHam/ Nizam / Sham LTA - A guy i know thru AM - Thanks for the wish too.

Sharifah (ST collegue ) - Thanks Sweetheart for the wishes via SMS, Friendster and Multiply.

Fairuz (ST Collegue) - Thanks dear. yesh im the same age as you. To think that you thought i was younger than you. it is definately a compliment:)

AmyRia ( Taufik and Hady Mirza FAn) - Hehe thanks dear for the wishes.

Siaoyan(My insurance agent) - Thanks for the bday card and wish via SMS.im still 24 lah not 26..hehe

Ijal - Thanks for the wish via MSN and friendster. So sad to hear about ur Hp. Get a new one soon ok.

MarZura ( Ijal's sister ) - Thanks for the wish via TAG and also..the post on your blog..ohh i look so bad on that pic..but still i love your pic...Gorgeous~

Azry - Thanks for the wish...Although ive never met u before, but our friendship seems like years ago. I really feel comfortable having you as a fren.

Aqmal - My Lovely Buddy. Ever since he start schooling in NIE, SIghz, i rarely meet or talk to him. Miss him loads..but dunnoe whether he miss me or not. aLthough, i know he never rememberd my bday hehe he never bothered lah..i know him. He could have know from my nick but stilli appreciate his wish. He's a good critic friend. Always wake me up from my stoopid dreams and pull me back to reality.

Adhana - I almosy get dissapointed TERRIBLY by U! Luckily u msg me at 9.57pm...if not...sigh...Kecik hati~! My best Buddy...Knew her thru poly also..ehhehe... I wish i can celebrate my bday with her...Girl..biler kiter nak keluar sama2 nih...I miss you lah GirlFriend~

To all who i have missed out~ Thanks once Again.
Its good to know that i have a lot of friends circling me..and i love you all!!!
Muacks~!!!!

2007-09-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

Salamz....Amacam puasa semua ok?? Hehe..

For me, i manage to fast for the first two days ajer...lepas tuh "bestfriend" dah kunjung tiba. But, i feel great lah at least, i got to sambut the starting and the ending of it. Insyallah,
But sumhow this ramadhan really tested me a lot.

Fuh, i remember the last time i had a severe fatal segugut was like in secondary school. The pain was crucial and unbearable. Soon, it faded away and i only experience minor pain. But yesterday, the pain attack me again. It was so bad. I was supposed to work yesterday but i dindt turn up coz of my asthma. So in the afternoon, i went to the doc to take MC. The pain was ok when i visit the doc fr my asthma. Then i went over to NTUC to get some stuffs. While i was queing up, dia datang menyerang lah seh!!! Sakit dier masyaALLah! Tak boleh angkat!!!
I was like trying my very best to tahan the pain. To add on to it, the Q was damn long.

Makin lama, sakit tuh makin menjadi2. Badan pun rasa dah lain mcm..dah mcm nak melayang sampai at one moment, i couldnt hear anything as if my ears was blocked. DAh gitu, apa lagik terus angkat barang campak tepi and i rush and find a seat. I seated for almost 15 mins, the pain still doesnt subside. I really couldnt walk. Fikir nyer fikir, tak kan nak duk situ lama2 kan...so i had to force myself up and walk. Journey yg 10min tuh rasa macam setengah jam seh..Sampai ruma jer..i went to the toilet then go inside m room and was curling up to tahan the pain. Nak gi dapur makan obat pun tak larat. I cannot walk lah seh!! Terpaksal i called out my mum and my mum took panadol for me..Soon, i fell asleep adn the pain is gone.

Today, while i was getting ready to go out, it came again...it was not as bad as yesterday but boleh dikatakan teruk. Almost tak jadi keluar seh..so i took the panadol force myself again and go out...sooon it is gone. Thanks Panadol!!! You R the best lah!

So tadi, ikut my mum go geylang go kedai emas..go and cuci my gelang and repair sikit..Beli bahan2 kuih maybe the next off day im gonna do it. Biar buat cepat-cepat, senang sikit hehe..then i went to survey2 the baju. So far, i had some baju in mind already...Byk seh baju lawa2..sighz..But i baru survey dekat Joo Chiat and the pasar ajer..The bazaar not yet..hehe soon soon...:)

K lah thats all for now. Sok kerja sehhhhhhhh....

2007-09-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

This entry mungkin bersifat peribadi sikit lah ey~

Whatever it is, this is definately not the same old story whereby

miss syida is having some crush with boys

miss syida is missing some boys terribly

miss syida had her heart broken again

Nah not any of those but more to how my beliefs and how i look upon guys.

Well, to start off with this entry, i can no longer read Malay Love novels. Read this,
the queen of Malay love novels could not read it for now. It must be shocking but this is the truth. I have three books in hand, and evertime i start to read it, i ended up closing it instead.
Its just too mushy, making me puke and i find all are just fairytale. There is no such love like how the book goes about. As readers, we wish it could be the same way but in reality, that doesn's exist. Guess what, now im turning in to Malay Mystery Novels, but i had to admit, malay novels just couldnt run away from love scenes. I just had to bear with it. Only the mystery made me continue reading. Wanna know the title?? Its called Misteri Mayat Terapung di Resort Melati.

I dunnoe why but i guess my heart has turn into stone. Im just not interested in matters of the heart for now. I made friends with guys be it from AnakMelayu, friendster and etc but to meet them i can say only if they are patience enuf to wait till i agreed. I can sometime give my bloody attitude to them. For those who are patience enuf, they survived but for those who do not will just vanished slowly. There are also sum who expects me to text and call them, hah..sorrilah i got no time for that. I have wasted my money on guys too much and i will never ever want to repeat it again. To me, making friends does not apply to singles only. You can befriend with anyone, tall/short,fat/skinny, old/young, single/married. SO likewise,i dun see a point of asking the qn "are u single?" in the first conversation. Frankly, i dun bother abt that.
So with regards to that, i had made a couple had some tiff. i dint know the guy was attached and i dun bother asking. Thus, i chatted with him in msn and soon the next day he call me up claiming that he had a fight with his gf and the one who chatted with me was his gf actually. Initially, i though that i should feel symphatized for him, but thinking that he did call me syg. dear when the fact that he had a gf. What i can say it only one thing, u deserve it!

I guess whatever bad experience i had last time is really affecting me. Im paranoid and traumatize for what happened. On another note, i felt great that it happened. I guess i had to learn thing the hard way. For a guy to earn my trust, its not that easy. Infact, when i see a couple happily chit chatting, sometime my heart will whisper to me, is this guy for real or just acting?? Haha..i know i shouldnt be that cruel but i guess i just couldnt run away from it.:-)

Everytime, my friends ask me about heartmates, i wish i could just change the topic. infact, i hate to talk about it. It use to be one listed on one of my priority list but now, its not found in it yet. I would love to concentrate on building my career and concentrate on my studies first, before engaging in this issue again.

Anyway...this are the pics that we took in swensen airport. happy viewing.

2007-09-13T11:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm...First day of fasting, how does it go? Not too bad for a start but had a sore throat when I wake up for sahur, took the orange color tablets and went back to sleep. In addition to it, I had stomach pain. Hihi so much incident on a first day fasting..

On my lunch break now, and left few mins before i get back to work. Tried to take a nap but wasnt able to due to the high volume of noise ( hehe - my collegueas talking to cust) + my department is situated right to the manager's cubicle( that made me uncomfy) . So, i just laze around surfing on the net and chatting with my "loyal chat buddy" at werk none other than Missy Atiqah. Sighz, im feeling so cold rite now and its only me with the jacket.

Yesterday, i met up with Zulekha and Fyza at Swensen's Airport. Well can't post the picture yet coz im at werk and i dun have the pictures with me at the moment. Waited for Zulekha to end her shift at 9pm. Well sumhow stepping in airport left an emotional feeling towards myself. Call me EMO, but well i really felt like crying when i step in the airport. Only god knows how much i MISS that place..It was definately a wonderful experience working with SIAEC. Although the fact that, the management treat me bad but i do treasure and value those people who have make my working life there enjoying and full of lovely memories.

The Charlie angelz then made their way to Swensen. We ordered Veggie Pizza, Salmon and Cheese Pasta, Chilli Fish Pasta, Fries and Fondue. Simply amazing meal, a day before fasting..haha. We were chatting about the problem that my fren fyza is facing, abt why she wanna drop her studies. After consultation and her reasoning out, its best if she withdraw now since she is not interested in the course and before she waste much more money. She too have admitted that she has made a hasty decision and have regret it. I guess, she just have to take this as a learning point.

On another note, i feel so much pressurized rite now and im like keep asking myself again and again, is this what i want..is this really what i want coz i dun want to end up similar to her but i simply cant get any answers from my goodself. But everytime, i look up at the jobstreet, this is the area that i search for. So is this where i belong to? sighz..

2007-09-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

Lately, the weather have been so shiok. It really tested my strength to pull myself up from the bed every morning. I almost couldnt wake up...but thinking of the discipline and responsibility towards myself,i force myself up. Tommorow,is my OFF day~ hooray! this means i can wake up late..Hehe..

I received an sms from my close fren Fyza and i was shocked when she text me that she's gonna withdraw from the degree course she's taking. I thot she was just playing around. But when she call me up, i can sense that she's about to break down. to myself,im wondering is werking and studying a difficult task?? If it is, then how do others cope and manage their time? I was like pestering her not to withdraw as this is not basically few hundred dollars..but she have already made the payment for the first term and that cost $5500. If she withdraw means, thats gonna burn. But after she reasons out, well basically i cant force her. No use forcing if someone has already reach the limit she can stretch for. Basically the things that affected her was, ferst - her jobs require a lot of mental thinking and planning, then she is also teching tuition for 2 students during weekends, and after werk - by the time she is tired and has to attend school and nothing gets in her head. And adding to it, she have some personal problem..

Well i guess i cant force her since she already claims that when she cant do it, she tends to give up easily. I tried to give her some advise and suggestion, but if let say nothing came out from it then i guess she have to choose either or. I cant influence her that much, coz its herself that is studying. No point of me forcing if she is not interested.

But i cant denied the fact that i feel upset and demoralize due to this. Oh gosh i need someone to boost up my self esteem, self confidence, or whatever you call it...

2007-09-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

On Saturday, i had to work full shift. I dread going to work on saturday. Merely due to the fact that we tend to receive a lot more calls and addng to it, my TL was on off and i had to liase with difficult cases with the covering TL. Afterall, i survived anyway :D

After work, met Syafa - my movie partner and we headed to the cinema for our Ratatouille ( did i spell it correctly?) show. The cinema hall was packed with parents and kid. Overall, its a nice, fun show. It covers all expression - sad,happy,angry and not forgetting the laughter that filled the hall. Then we headed to KFC to have my dinner. I had the new menu that comes with the Fish finger. Hmm the taste, so so lah...the normal fish finger taste..:) I think most of them still prefer the 2 pcs meal. I did observe the whole restaurant and i cant find anyone having that meal.Hmph~

The FIsh Finger meal

Ummmm....

Yum yum!!!

And my Sunday was spent at home doing spring cleaning..

Renovate my room...Cheh..nah...just shift some furnitures to make the room look more refresh and a better view.

Mmm..checked my bill thru *1626 and i was shocked to see my bill. Its still $100+. Gosh, what did i do till it rise up to that amount? I thought i was alread on budget..guess i have to monitor my sms and call starting from today. I really need to save a lot of money. Once if im accepted to school, this means that i need to use a lot of money. Oh Allah, murahkanlah rezeki ku~!

4 more days and its Ramadhan~!

Yippeee~! A month of blessings and repent. Tapi kalau dah repent lepas habis puasa jadi setan balik pun tak guna...tul tak.? BUt well as humans, penuh dgn kekurangan. But what i will do is to improve myself bit by bit...Insyallah, everything gonna go fine..yang penting nawaitu.

At the same time, this reminds me of my prev job. haiz, it really touches my heart. I still remember clearly, the times when we sambut ramadhan in SIAEC. Sahur together, break fast together. We will bring our plates and bowl to the "collection centre" and we will collect our food. Then once the time is up, we will let the chinese collegueas to takeover the job and we break fast together. ahur time, we bring our own food. At 4 am, reheat the food and sahur..SIghz..

Oh gosh, i miss it. I really miss it!!!! I wish i could go back to that place, but well i was not meant to be there i supposed and thinking of that beruang makes me satisifed to walk out of that place. Even if im there, but not in that beruang good book..i guess i wont have any future. Even after 5 years, i will still remain in my position. so, its better to find another job and im still on the lookout for a permanent job.

I guess thats all to update...Will be back soon...

2007-09-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

yo bu Sai yo...

Salamz....

Ever since i came back from Malaysia, i havent got the chance to update this blog of mine. The penyakit malas has hit me again...as usual *rolls eyes* HaHa!! For me to update everything that has happened in Kampung is totally neverending, but let me just say note down the major happening.

First of all, the kampung never changed. No improvements and dusty as ever. Luckily for me this time, i didnt get my asthma but my skin suffers a bit of irritation due to the dust environment. I did bring my medication, so Problem Solved.

Another major thingy, my dad's car met with a minor accident. It was raining heavily there. Only my parents were in the car. My bro, sis, me and my niece have reached my atuk sedara place. We were all drenched. While trying to dry myself, out of a sudden i heard a loud bang. I was startled. When im out of the house, i got more shocked when i say my dad's car outside

It was a three car collision....

And this is the Culprit!! Its a chinese fella. and i dunnoe how he drive.
His car suffered the most. My dad's car suffored from minor scratches. No Dent at all.
Hehe..Chevrolet is good man...Strong haha!

The story goes like this. It was raining super heavy and my dad wanted to turn right,
but he hazard first ( well supposedly he should have just signal right). Nevertheless, he is still
not in the wrong cause the blue car behind him have already stop when they notice the hazard light. And then came the white car, suddenly ramped into the blue car, resulting that car to move forward and kiss my dad's car bumper. Luckily nobody is injured. Sicne my dad car didnt suffered any major thingy, it was left between the other two cars to do the claiming. hehe.

Another major thing that sumhow affects me badly, well i cant pour it out. Its kinda personal. Family issues. Not within my family..but it involves the big family. I just had to wait and see what is gonna happen next. Hopefully everything gonna be alright. But of coz there is a limit to everything. But when thigns got out of hand, i guess i just had to step in. Furthermore, respect is to be earned. Not anyhow given to people. Dun tell me if a person intention is bad, im gonna still give respect to that person.Hmmm...just wait and see..

On another note, hehe. The lazy sickness has strike again. Wanted to reg for school today but ended up postpone it to Friday. I was too lazy to get this fat ass out of bed. Lagipun, im fasting today, that makes me even more lazier. haiyah, i dunnoe how im gonna cope during fasting month. Everytime i pay back my fast, i get sick. My head willbe spinning non stop. I got 2 more days left..I hope tmrw the day will go fine and since im at werk, hopeully it distracts me from thinking about the hunger..

WEll..oklah thats all..enjoy the pics below.

Candid Pics~

Trainaing my niece to be a camera addict..hehe~

Merdeka!!!!

Thats a good one~!muacks~

2007-08-31T15:53:00.000+08:00

Yo bu sai yo~!

TGIF!!!
Haha..aku kat kerja skg nih. Asik surf website jer..sampai dah tak tahu nak surf website apa. Nak tengok youtube,takder earpiece lah plak. Anakmelayu, hmm takder stickynotes. Multiply no updates. Neopets, aiyah pet aku nih asik kebulur ajer..brapa byk pizza aku sumbat pun tetap dier lapar. Kuat makan betui~! SKg nih th boring giler~

~ Oh oh oh balik kampung...Hehe. Malam nih berangkatlah kami ker Kampungku..so excited haha. Nothing is much more wonderful than spending time with my family.~

Dun Miss me hor~!
Sarang Hae Yo~! Muacks...

2007-08-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

CraZy us...!!

Phew~ it took me one whole day...to finally decide on what skin shall i use for my blog. At last, i settled down with this one. and i took few hours to edit here and there to suit my preferences and taadah~ Im happy with the result.

Ok so, yesterday spent my day attending Neng's wedding @ Sin Min. Knew her thru Fyza, she was Fyza's model during the class and the friendship blosoms from there. Her wedding was fabulous! I love the Deco so much!!! and i bet it must have cost a bomb and without saying, she simply looks gorgeous.

Me and the Bride - Neng

i Lurve the Pelamin

not forGetting the Gorgeous Deco...

AFter that, we thought of catching a movie, so me and fyza stop over at PS forgetting that it is a Saturday, the queue was flooded with humans! So we decided not to head on and went to carrefour to shop for groceries. So today, i cooked Mee Soup. Just a simple dish. Spent the day continuing watching my korean movies.

Err...did i tell you im addicted to Korean movies.

Falling in luv with most of the actor...

They are charming..:)

2007-08-23T12:09:00.000+08:00

I am in a state of confusion, pending for decisions. I really need to speed up my thinking and made the right choice. Should I or should I not?

I have attended the seminar on furthering my studies. From what I saw and felt, it is definitely an interesting course. It is a Management course under Logistics. So this means that I will be learning about business module. Duration: 18 months. I will be based in Singapore strictly unlike other institution where studying overseas for about 1 week is required. All doubts have been cleared in example, if let say we failed the subject, we will be given the chance to repeat without paying but of course there will be T&C. Definitely, I am contented with the T&C.

I have done a little bit of research on the logistics market in Singapore. It seems that there is a growth on the market. The areas where I can go after completing this course will be, Aviation, Transportation, Supply chain and also business. Experience wise, although not much I had some of it during my 2 years in siaec with regards to inventory, goods movements, order processing and etc.

Now the things that worry me is
1) I haven’t found myself a perm job. I am on Temp jobs and I don’t know how long they require me. Furthering my studies will result me in taking bank loans and thus I need a job to support at the same time.
2) The course fee cost me a BOMB!!! Much more than the normal dowry to get married..phew!. Am I confident that I can survive in this course and not drop it halfway and waste a hell LOADS of money?
3) Can I cope studying while working? Can I stand the tiredness and the hassle of rushing to school after work? Can I manage? I am known to get sick easily…Will these affect me in anyways?
4) During Poly days, I did take 1 subject related to business module. If I’m not mistaken, it’s called Technopreneurship. And guess what I got “C” for that. I dun really favor that subject so much. Involving in this course means, I have to take additional tuition subjects like Marketing Principles, Accounting, Macroeconomics and etc. I don’t even have any rough idea what all that will be about. Will it be a tough subject?

I’ve been thinking and thinking but I still got no solutions to this. As what people say, sometimes when we think and plan too much, it will result with absolutely nothing.
The best thing to do is to plunge into the deep water, and learn to swim. In other word that means, I have to struggle. If there’s a will, there’s a way.

Oh gosh…my mind is totally blocked. I need someone to enlighten me. I am open for opinions. Anybody who have been in my situation before or probably have the experience in studying while working, I NEED your advice.

2007-08-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

Time : 1220am

This is what happened when im at the comfort of my own room and my own bed with my Laptop. Sheesh! I should be sleeping right now. Im supposed to wake up at 6am tommorow and im still awake. Usually at my bro's place, By 10pm i already doze of..but look at the time now...its half past midnight. I better turn in soon or else..ill get drowsy tmrw and my head will spin again. WIll be having a long day tmrw...Thats all for now.update again soon. Ciaoz

2007-08-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

Just Wanna Wish ALl SIngaporeans a

Happy National DAy...

2007-08-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

Wanna know how i feel????

Dissapointed and Cheated.

This even made me hate guys more. What's the problem?

Is it so hard for you to tell me ur married???

I mean, im not gonna be jealous or whatsoever.

Come on, ur my friend. if you tell me that news, ill be more than happier

to congratulate you.

But now, what have you done? Damage to the Friendship??

Oklah..i shall not say damage lah but sighz, its a total dissapointment to me.

Ive known you for so long. ok fine, i know u ever told me u dun believe in love.

But whats wrong in just admitting and tell me that you found someone and are happily married.

Yes, i know we lost contact for a while.

But hey! I did ask again when i came into contact with you again, whether are you married.

Why such a big ego..and dun want to admit?

What do you expect me to feel after i found out from the media

You are Married and Expecting ur first Child.

and why cant you just admit it when i call you to ask?

I prefer to know it from your mouth rather than knowing it from someone else

Suspen? is that what you call it?

For me to see you and your wife on TV is a big surprise from me to u?

is that it???

Im Speechless!

im not Angry...

Just feeling a little low.

i treasure friendship so much

yet i get this in return..

I need time to recover. Dun worry "husband", im not angry at you

I just need a little time to calm myself down.

Take Care.

2007-07-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

I have not been blogging religiously...

Due to the fact that im too tired to blog

and adding to it no interesting story..

To sum it up, my weeks have been quite ok

Although i have to face the fact that i HAVE to entertain

All the customers that call.

They can be such a pain sometimes.

However, im more than delightful coz i have the access to the net at work

Dat sumhow lift up all the stressfulness at work.

Lately, i have been suffering from migraine and my neck aches badly.

What i noticed is that,
My neck will start to ache ferst, there's this particular "urat".

That is always the place where it ache and soon after my migraine will start.

This can be say as quite normal coz migraine have connections with the neck.

When my neck is so strained, my head will start to feel plain.

Floaters have been increasing but from what i have research,

that is nuthing to worry about. I really hope so.

Yesterday, i went to my SIL school, JYPS.

Im helping out with the dance show.

I didnt do much lah, coz they have their own instructors and make up artist.

I just helped with the hair bun and the accessories.

There are others which is the kid's mum who helped out

but they dont know how to siput the rambut.

Sumhow ive been ask to do the siput.

The kids are adorable. Cant help it thou.

Seen their show for rentak timur held by the school.

From what i c, the adik-adik ( the lower primary)

are more natural in dancing and they are not shy to smile on stage.

But the kakak-kakak ( the upper primary) seems to be shy

and restrict thier movements

BUt i believe they can do better coz they ever won the SYF

So...no big deal.

Some of the pics,i manage to take. No pics of me doing the hair lah coz

nobody is free to take for me..HEH

The girls mingling around whilewaiting for the time to be on stage

Sarah...AInt she lovely??Dah besar mesti jambu nih.

My SIL putting LipGLoss for one of the Girls

The girls..dancing

2007-07-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmmmmm

I never ever had such situations before and ever told myself that my eyes are only for Malays.

But dunnoe why suddenly i have an itnerest in Chinese Guy.

sumhow they seem so cute and nice guy.

Issit becoz the Malay gou sucks big tyme that i turning in to other races????

Haha...

But then hor...He's attached and he is 3 yrs younger than me...

AND

Today was the Last i SAW him.

So ...

SYIDA!!! Pls Stop DREAMING!

But...seriously, he's such a nice n cute guy.

2007-07-22T06:05:00.000+08:00

At Last, i managed to get my fingers blogging up. Seriously, ever i start working, i find myself more tired than before. Working from 0900 - 1800hrs everyday including Saturday was surely hectic.

Let me just update certain things at work.

1) My TL @ RAFFLES "SUGGS" Big tyme.Never i encountered person like him. So Square faces and stern. Atmosphere there was superbly pressurizing. ALthough it seems that Technical Department seems ez as compared to Sales which is prone to changes and the materials are wider...but sumhow we get all the shit. ANgry, Frustrated customers came to us demanding to knw on the lack of quality of the ppl in our company. I mean, if im in their shoes, i would complain to. How to survive when my service is not up and cause me so much inconvenience..?? How can they make me confident of the service i took from them when on the first day of installation, it cocked up.

2) I was indeed lucky coz i was transferred to TEPL and will handling enq on sales. Infact, the environment there is much more friendly and of coz way way better. At least, the TL there is although serious, but reasonable. Even the collegues are nice and its a laidback atmosphere. only one thing, its kinda hard to find good food there..but its ok..maybe who knoes i can shed off that fat that is hidden in my body haha!!. Furtehrmore, the journey to my work place if from my place in SIMEI ...wah so tiring..it took me at least 1 hr to reach...and thus i am considering staying with my brother in Sengkang. Only that, i need to walk a distance lah to take the bus..As i said again, who knows i may get rid of the stubborn fat.:)
REally pitied few of my collegeus from my batch who was stuck in raffles. Only 4 of us were transferred.Initially, i was a lil bit dissapointed when i came to know of the transfer but experience make me wiser. I just look at the bright side and now i feel im lucky to get the oppotunity to transfer. My place was so relax that i can actually have the time to email my collegues @Raffles but in retyrn, they are unable to do so coz of thier workload and they have little time to entertain the email.

Eversince the launching of MIO TV, yesterday i had to OT and answering this service enq was HARD. So much weird question that i had to hold them up quite long to find the answers for them. Wish me all the best yahhhh!!!

I need to return to my beauty sleep. hehe was awaken coz of Sahur..hehe...dah ganti 3 hari..left 4 more days to go..GO Syida GO!!

Ps: I let my mum use the number that my ex used before under my name, and i get screwed by my parents due to a message that was receive scolding vulgarities and asking for money. ( hmmm i guess im not the only one demanding money from him)Im tottally Pissed off. Pissed off with that stoopid ex of mine...and pissef with my parents as well for some certain reasons.

2007-07-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

Shit!!!!!
Im just not used to work office hour....It sucks big tyme. I tend to fall sick easily. FOr this week only...my system breakown three times...FIrst it was with the cough and flu...then my headeache..till i actually vomitted at work...and Today...I experienced the same headeache again. Frankly, i cant keep going on like this man...it really is not a WONDERFUL feeling. And if i cant stop having this downtime, i dun think i can work. I dunnoe why lah....it all started with my neck... I guess due to the long hour of sitting..my neck get strained up...and then it will affect my head....and i wil get migraine. I really need ample time to get used to this..and i need it to be fast.

Work today was okie i can say...I was put on listening before lunch..The calls are practically ok..only a few that i encounter demanding customer. Right after lunch, i was on buddy calls. I am the ferst one among my batch to try and those who knoe that i actually pick up calls...they give me a thumbs up. Well...there's nuthing to be proud of lah for me..coz i have de experience. And i think the incoming calls in Income is much more heavier than this. I told my buddy that in Income...my average call per day is 60 and max is 100. She was shocked..coz at my current workplace...we only answer calls an average like 20 calls per day.Of coz sumtimes the call can be very long due to troubleshooting lah. When i took the call, everything went fine...( sumbody beside of coz fine lah ) hehe...No angry calls...so sumhow still ok lor..i only took 7 calls coz after dat my head was spinning.

Yah, for those who work in Income Call Ctr, i am facing Zuraina's case again.. TL so stuck up...Very stern leh.. Luckily the supporting TL is a bit lenient and approachable..if not die lahhh...

Oklah..i guess thats all for today's update. Tommorow i will be fasting....Ganti ler...Lagi berapa bulan jer seh...And Sunday im dating my girls out..WEehhooo!!

2007-07-10T20:58:00.000+08:00

Work was definately much much better compared to yesterday. We learned about troubleshooting the broadbands and sighz...im still confused till now. Sumhow, i find the materials quite heavy and the informations are overwhelming. For once, i have to admit working in Income back then was much easier than this. I will still be on my training tommorw. The day after i will be attached to a buddy to listen in all the calls. Followed by next week, i have to attend a training on IPTV. ALthough it have not been officially launch, they want us to be fully prepared for it. And subsequently, i will have to pick up live calls. Hmmm thinking about that makes me shiver.

To be honest, its not that im not used to taking live calls but the way my TL put it worsens it all. Well he claimed, " once u guys are picking up live call, u cant be depending on us anymore..its only u and the multimedia as a guidance and that is the time where u show to us how ur performance is. If its not up to the standard, im sorry u have to leave". That makes me nervous. I know i have to believe in myself. Believe that i can do it. Its just that im afraid i will dissapoint them and myself. Hmmm never mind...i just let the matter rest for now i still have few days to build up my confidence.:)

Anugerah result was out just now. Luckily one of the contestant that i vote went in. Hehe. Well honestly, i vote for Kassrreal and Roslan. Too bad that Kassrreal didnt make it. Actually i just like his smile, his gelek and the way he sing.So sad, now cannot see him on tv anymore. And yesh! Roslan make it...Maya..i know she's gonna be in. Her voice is power! Nurun...hmmm can say tough fight between her and shakila..but anyway congrats..to those who make it..and to those who did not....Try Again!:)

Ok....im waiting for my Janji Diana..Take Care Peepz

2007-07-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

Thought of the day:

"Keep your fears to yourself, but share your courage with others. "

Down with flu and cough since 2 days ago

SIL also down with Flu.Niece down with COugh.

Must be the season.

Tried my best to attend my training yesterday,but i was too weak.

Ended up making my way to Faith CLinic and took MC.

And i spent the whole day sleeping.

Seriously, i never felt that weak before.

Somehow, after maghrib i felt a lil bit energized..

probably due to the energizer battery.

I mean my medicine.:)

Thus, i was fit to go to werk today. I actually felt a bit worried coz i missed the "mio policy" training that was scheduled yesterday. Since i will be in that team..so i guess that training was significant to me. But heard feedback from the collegues, the trainer was boring. Hehe..so i guess i was quite lucky to miss it. i shall just ask the collegeus or read the materials on my own.

Tommorow will be my last day of training. The guys are like planning to wear formal...so call graduation. Haha crazy bunch of guys. I bet only the guys would like wear it. Friday are the day that you are supposed to dress down but they all "terbalik". Well actually they plan that for the purpose of taking picture tommorow. Somehow, im funny lah. Back during my poly days...im not cose to my own classmates or module mates..but i was close to the other module mates. ANd it happened again this time. Im not so close to the " mio teams" but more to the " Billing team". Im Weird...I know.

But soon,,i gotta be close to them coz..ill be working with them:)

So i believe on Mon, i will know where im posted. Wither Raffles or Serangoon North. I really hope i will get Raffles. Coz..it will be much more nearer to my home. and i believe Monday too will be my OJT. Buddy2 system. Hehe..now i start to reminiscing the time back in Income. I miss my Cracy collegues..Mona..Mokanam..Jack..Mark..Hanot..and others...:)

I hoep i will also get the same fun in singtel.

Till then..

Ciaoz!

2007-06-30T17:27:00.001+08:00

Bruised

My heart's Bruised. It hurts deeply.

Emotionally disturbed.

And i thought after few months of keeping silence,i was strong enough

BUT....I was Wrong.

I guess im not fully prepared for all the situations that might happened.

Its the end of june but promises was not kept.When he hear my voice, he hung up the call.

He rejected my call. Its not as if im begging for him back. Never!

He never wanna hear me out. What was he thinking? Im yearning for him all this while??

Kiss my ass!

He think i wanna call for fun. I just need whateva that he have taken from me.

Its mine and was never his. I was good with my intention initially but is this how he return my favour. Humans are just unappreciative. I guess from now on, nobody deserve my help. I had enuf of helping people but they took advantage of my kindness. I got no other ways of asking it back except for being in contact with him. I dun even know any details of him

He's a Cheater. And i was Too Naive to realise that in the first place.

I was taken by his sweets words..his stability..his career...

The second time i encounter with these people.

How stupid i was!

CIDs!!!!Hear me out!

U guys are in my Blacklist!!!

I dun give a damn of how honoured ur job is. U prevent crimes...investigate crime

but Sad to say..ur no different from those criminals.

Outside world...people may think highly of u guys..ur job for the government.

BUt u guys are such a hyprocrite.

And i just reckon..

The same thing gonna happen end of AUgust,

when i insist of what's mine.

Be prepared!

2007-06-27T23:05:00.001+08:00

Had a fun time with Fyza today....Did some hands on...

Now i let the pictures do the talking.

To see more...Please go to the Gallery.

2007-06-25T20:24:00.001+08:00

Seems that nowadays its just so hard for me to blog.

Everytime i tried, i ended up failing.

Is there something wrong with me?

Have my life turn into a total bore? AM i boring?

I have been watching this 16 Episodes of Korean Drama "My Girl" almost everyday

..and after 3 days...now im at EP 11. 4 episodes more to go. An enjoying story i must say.

Hillarious but yet it touches a human heart but sumhow it can be emotionally disturbed too.

At times, i felt a sharp pain piercing

And i know i was just overreacting.

Time have passed.And its almost a month i left SIA. i miss them so much.

When im down...they are the one who cheered me up but now..i cant rely on them anymore

but for sure they will be remembered...the happy times...:)

I Love them!

In another 3 more days im gonna start my temp job. For the mean time, i had to live with this. Futhermore, i need the cash to go on. Bills...Bills..Bills...

I really hope i could be financially stable soon.

* Gonna contnue with my korean drama.*

2007-06-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

Its been exactly 3 weeks ive been rotting at home eversince the day that my contract ends..and im so NOT loving it. Well..i cant deny that i have so much time in the world that i can do almost everything that i want..but what does all that means when u got nothing to spend..and every minute u think of how to survive in the near future.

I guess my resume have been broadcast to the whole of Singapore..but sumhow surprisingly no one call..i just had to live on with the inspirations of " Belum ada rezeki". But well for the the time being i guess i just settle on with a temp job. Shorlisted and i hope that i got it. Pray for me.

Toodles...GoodNite..

2007-06-17T09:55:00.000+08:00

Despite the dissapointment i faced with a few bunch of my friends but yet i ended up having a good time yesterday. Apparently, i was VERY bored at home to the Max...till i felt that i was suffocating inside de house. I scroll down my contacts...still deciding on who to call. Mixed feeling..dunnoe who to call sia. Issit dunnoe who..or nobody to call. Hmm..reminiscing the past..during the younger days...fuh...kawan keliling pinggan seh...but now..haha..ntahlah eh..toned down..cam malas pun ader..and another factor that is..some friends are not worth keeping.

So i ended up going out with Atiqah. Picked her up @ Century Square and that was the start of the hilarious journey. Muahahaha..Putting two girls with a map...haha really gone bonkers. No wonders they say..girls sucks at map and have no sense of direction. Admitted! :-P. But actually hmm can say progress for me..so call ok lah..kalau baca tuh map pelan2..mesti dpt. Cume yesterday we were like so kanchiong...hehe ended up..kiter jalan jer lah..Planned to go VivoCity...Took the ECP..and guess what..we exited wrongly but dun worry coz we still reach the place hehe. Watch Ocean Thirteen...Yah..They suceeded in getting the diamonds..hehe..Before that we ate at Earls Swensen. Sumhow..i find not much variety lah..mcm bender2 yag aku tak tahu makan gitu. Haha..Ended up eating the fries, Ice cream.and half of the bread that atiqah bought. Right after the movie...we went back home. Tried again to look at map..but ended up giving up and just follow the flow...wehehe..

A Picture of Us..

2007-06-16T12:14:00.001+08:00

Anyway...the link to my holiday photos...

http://chindah.multiply.com/photos/album/5

2007-06-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

Cameron/KL/Malacca

First day @ Cameron = Ok here goes my entry for the recent trip that i went with my siblings. My Elder brother with his Family in 1 car while me, my 2nd brother and his fiance 1 car. We left my bro house a 2 am in the morning. I drove from Singapore up to Pagoh. It was my first time experiencing driving up thru the woodlands checkpoint and into JB. Hehe..ntah mcm nervous plak. Nak kasi passport lah...nak masuk cashcard lah..hehe tak biasa seh. But once i got into the highway..wooohooooo..i believe that was the best part. Initially, it was a warm up thingy. im still unsure on how to overtake with those high speed vehicle coming from the right...but as time goes by..i got the momentum of it..and driving as fast at 130kn/hr was definately shiok..hehe takleh speed lagik..takut kena speed trap plak. At pagoh, we changed driver. My 2nd bro took over..while my Elder bro took over my sis in law in the other car. Tooking the new route to cameron was definately tiring...We only manage to reach Cameron at 9am in the morning. While on the way. my niece" the princess tomboy" vomitted. Byk Pusing2 lah. Once we reached..we had our So call Lunch at this Mama Shop. Well budget lah kan..But frankly..the food there was nice especially the "teh tarik" not forgetting the prata and the masala thosai.

Once we checked in, we had our rest for a while..and then we went down off to Brinchang..to get the night lighting..off to the Pasar Malam..if im not wrong its call "Tapak Pasar Malam Brinchang". Had or dinner at this kedai namely " Nik Ikan/Tomyam" sumthing like dat. The sErvice was So Poor..Lambat giler. WE waited for our food like almost half an hour seh. that was de first and de last we eat thereAfter that trip..we went back to our hotels and Nights off. Interesting PArt...5 adults and 2 chidren squeezing in 1 room...muahaha..can u imagine that??

2nd day @ Cameron = We head down to the interesting places..Cactus point. Butterfly Farm, Cactus Valley, Uncle Sam Farm, Kasi Manis Strawbery Park, Strawberry Corner, Uncle Kea's Strawberry Farm...Senang kata...kat sana tuh kan..Kalau tak Cactus..strawberry...itu jer lah..hehe..BUt the scenery was truly fantastic. We head down to tea Plantation and we went back to the Pasar Malam Brinchang. Bought some souveniers...and all..we bought some food for dinner at the pasar malam...and we went back to our hotels.

2nd day interesting part - A minor incident happened to my 2nd bro..hehe rushed down to Brinchang hospital..but the doctor there got no special equipment..so my bro had to bare for it..till the next day..to go to HKL.

3rd day (KL) - After our breakfast at the Mama shop..we head to Kl. Once we reached Kl..we sent my 2nd bro and his fiance to HKL-Hospital Kuala Lumpur..and then me and the rest went to check in our hotel ferst. once my 2nd Bro had done with the hospital..me and the rest took the LRT to HKL. Punyerlah besar and susah seh nak carik the specific tempat..we took half an hour walking here and there...and at last we reach..so we fetch my bro then..we go eat ferst...and back to hotel..this time..we got 2 rooms..so taklah mcm ikan sardine kan. At nite..kiter go petaling street since time is too constraint..the touching part plak...aku sakit perut..takleh shopping seh...karana menahan kesakitan hehe.

4th day - The most tiring day of all..morning..we went for the breakfast hotel. Somehow i noticed someone familiar..but takot salah org lah kan..so i ignored it. After breakfast..we went to Masjid India...then..we got o Semua House..i bought something for my collections ..I wanna try it to Hanot..tapi nih minah biler lah dier free eh..aku tgh free giler nyer...Seeing in RM..meletup..but converting it ro Sing Dollars..its worth it lah..Then we go to KLCC...jalan2...then lastly at night we went back to Petaling street....bargain here and there..and back to hotel.

5th day (Malacca) - Time to go back...but we singgah to Eye of Malaysia..took the ferris wheel...then...we head off to Malacca...to my atuk house..visit him for a while..then we head off to KFc and Perhentias...and went home..i Reach home ard Midnite..and Off to LalaLand..

Something to share with u guys..saw it at Cameron and KL

See the Advertisement (Cameron) - Comming Without Food. They were trying to say "Dilarang Membawa makanan dari Luar"Hehehe

@KLCC - Mahalnyer nak masuk Toilet at this level. Kalau convert pun mahal siotz...$1 beb...hehe. So Funny,

Oklah thats all!!!

2007-06-11T23:01:00.001+08:00

Im back People!

Oklah...I definately had a fun holiday with the fact that in total i use $300 that includes Transport( oil and tol) and of coz my spenditure. Wanted to update about my holiday but not for now.Im still feeling tired lah...
Upon my return, i have to be a temp Housewife. Haha..have to do all the job. Cuci baju...sidai baju..masak...lipat baju..cuci kereta...Siram Pokok...Im so tired lah.
yesterday i cook Ayam Burma waten with Rice..and today i cook spaghetti...and tommorow..i thot of not cooking..hehe penat beb...
Oklah skg nih pun dah penat giler..so im taking my rest soon..
Ill update about my holiday soon..be patience guys

2007-06-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

I cant wait for my holidays...

So BORED at HOME

2007-05-31T11:28:00.001+08:00

Officially UnEmploYEd

Yesterday was my last day in SIAEC.After my night shift, I was escorted out like a prisoner to the checkpoint and then surrender my pass and staff ID. It was definately hard...Walking out with a heavy feeling thinking about the fact that i will not step into that place again.

The night before, i and uncle went to have our supper at SATS canteen. Hehe, Uncle treat me to the food there...Sighz..suddenly feel very touched. Reminiscing about the past, sumhow i feel happy that i was given the chance to know the nice people there..Uncle Shis, Abg G, Zulekha, Cik Hamid, Haidar..And yang Lain-Lain lah kan. It was great knowing them. I really hope to see them again..Tapi guarantee jumpa nyer lah hehe.

yesterday before i do my clearance i went for an interview at Ry's Workplace..I just wish for the best je lah kan. Straight after work..i went to meet Mal and off to Acer Service Ctr...At last my Disc can be ejected out. Its due to the bezel that came off and prevent the disc from ejecting. Followed by to the Banquet...and have my lunch. Once i reached home, i went flat...I sleep like a log..from 3 pm...till 11pm..i wake up and had my diiner..took two panadols coz my head was spinning badly and i landed again till this morning at 9 am. I guess that was the longest sleep i ever had.

Hmmz..ingat nak kemas bilik nari...but haiyah my dad tgh sedut aircon lagikk...hmm..got to go now...take care...

2007-05-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Went for a Makeup W/SHop Just Now With Kak Nazlin ( another freelance makeup artist). She is so Bloody PRetty lah SEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Her Face is So The Smooothhhh. Reach her place 30 mins late due to the courtesy of My colleguea Hafiza who was late and get pissed with the so call Slow MRT. Haha...So...WE reach, we were served drinks and straight to The lessons. she teach us 2 methods..soft socket and Smokey Eyes. Since my face is with rashes now, i could just swallow my saliva looking at my fren who get doll up by Kak Nazlin. Lawa seh..we are looking more to personal makeup lah ..not bridal..HEHE. Im so envious...i want to be dolled up too.. Takper there can always be a next time...:)

After that, we went to Expo for the MPH Sales..There are a few other sales also..but dindt look into it except for the branded sales.. I end up spending $80. I bought a baju...Bag ( again) and 2 storybooks. YEah! I got Another collection of book from Cecilia Ahern...This will make the fourth book.

Guess what, im blogging away in my mum's room. Im sleeping with my mum tonite! Suweeet takkkk???!!! HEHE. My room kena ransacked ar..haha..taklah..Actually i clean up my room already..and u know what...in the afternoon nyer..my father go repair and bersihkan my aircon sbb tersumbat...Tak guna tol! buat penat aku jer kemas..skg berserak dan berabuk balik..DAh mcm apa bilik aku..sampai takleh nak tido..So hehe tumpang bilik mum lah kan...

K lah thats all about it

Missed call on my phone from a private number.
Is that the only way for u to reach me??
Gotta be Kidding!Shame on you!
Get REal! I mean business This time!

2007-05-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

JANGAN MENGELUH ..........

Kita selalu Bertanya....................dan Al-Quran sudah menjawabnya.................

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU DIUJI? QURAN MENJAWAB

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," ("I am full of faith to Allah") sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta." -Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?

QURAN MENJAWAB "Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI? QURAN MENJAWAB

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya." - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA RASA FRUST? QURAN MENJAWAB

"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB "Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB "Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk" - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

KITA BERTANYA : APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB "Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ? - Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KITA BERTANYA : KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?

QURAN MENJAWAB "Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal." - Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

KITA BERKATA : AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!

QURAN MENJAWAB "... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir." - Surah Yusuf ayat 12

2007-05-21T15:00:00.000+08:00

The stronger i thought i was, the weaker it made me.
The rain's pouring, the heart's breaking
Wondering n thinking, what do i deserve in this world full of lies.
So much of my effort, to make things straight
but no one's appreciating. Selfish.

All i ask for was just happiness.
ups + down = Happiness
ups + ups = Too good to be True
Down + Down = Tired

Enuf is Enuf. Cant hold it anyMore.
I leave my Fate up to you O' ALLAH.
Pls guide me to the Correct Way.
Forgive my Sins..

2007-05-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

Sleepy Sleepy Sleepy..
These few days, i wonder why i feel so lethargic and sleepy.
Rashes are improving. But sumhow feel that there are things that i cant eat.
Appointments will be next Month with NSC.
BUT, 2 days time, im gonna eat SEAFOOD again in JB
Before the specialist tell me that im prevented from eating certain things.
Let me eat them ferst.
9 days, 5 working days - > Thank you for your service.

On a softer note,
Unable to reach OR Phone's Dead
Am i being too Harsh??

On a Firmer note,

Im Hurt.

2007-05-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

My Internet Connection was down. Been Trying to Connect for the Past nights but to no Avail. The Wireless Network shows that im connected. However, i was still unable to connect. Probably due to the low signal strength. And due to this, i was not able to update. So here it goes.

7th May( Monday) - Planned to catch the movie " Jangan Pandang Belakang" with Mal. But due to his commitment for a photoshoot, it had to be cancel last mintue. I was pretty down on that day though due to some personal reason and i was really desperate for some company at that time. So i call Fendi up, and i was lucky he was available to accompany me catch a movie. The Movie was...mmmmm how shall i describe it " Kelakar SEram' maybe? Coz, in the cinema which is full of Malays...(haha never experience that kind of atmosphere thou),its either all of us are laughing continuosly or screaming furiously. Normal lah kan, horror movie its the sound affect that plays a part..but somehow..the sound was berdegung..i dunnoe why. And another point to note, i got to see "Pierre Andrea". Khekehek...

Hmm...seems that my life is so full of boringness. I've been counting the days till my last service in SIAEC. IT hurts...WHo's not? 2 yrs of service there...and suddenly im out of there. I feel so dissapointed. Why did god create that asshole?? "Menyekat Periuk Nasi Orang" Dont he have a heart? I guess Money, Position has made him lose him self. Deep inside my heart, i really wanted to stay there as a permanent staff that is if they offer, but if they decide to renew my contract, then i guess in the meantime while i found a good job, i will take it.

Oh yah, im down with BAD RASHES! It made my face looks so swollen, the skin feel so tegang, my eyes so sepet...The feeling of having this type of skin on my face is truly bad. I feel so insecure as if im an alien..I wish i could just hide inside my room till it recovers but i CANT! I GOT TO WORK! and The DOc wont give me an MC for RASHES!! Sighz..i made my way to Raffles hospital, hoping that they can find the cure to this, they say thay will refer me to a dermatologist, but thinking back..since i myself am not sure whether i will still be working at the same place..so i decided to opt out and so to polyclinics for a referral to Skin Centre. Its much more cheaper that way and even if i have stop working..i can afford to pay rather than a privatised one which can cause me a BOOM! SO..i will be going to Polyclinic tommorow...i really hope they will give me a referral..I want to get to the bottomof this. ITs so ITCHY!!!

And for now...i got to survive one more NIGHT AT WORK with this RASHES! ARGH!!!!
K..getting ready...TATA!

2007-05-10T18:20:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....

Something wrong with blogger. All the tools are not in line. Seems blogger is losing its standard. Somehow, one day..all the bloggers will run to other website. BUt for now, i still can stand it..and thus.sticking to it.

(sings)
Satu Labah-Labah Boleh Panjat Tinggi.
Bila Hujan Turun Labah Cepat Lari
Terbit Matahari Labah takder Lagik
Labah boleh Panjat Sekali Lagik...

Haha..yeah..Went to Watch the Labah-Labah Man yesterday With another 3 of My collegueas. Zul, Kino and Fyz. They were from the nite shift and so met me at TM GV at 10.45am. ANd guess what, my silliness takes its place. I wanted to go to Tampines but yet i ended up taking the Train to TANAH MERAH. Thats what they call "Peh SELenger!!"
Overall rated..Labah-Labah Man was great. There's some terkejut scene. But sumhow i find one scene very cute and funny. where the secretary buzz her boss to remind him his medicine and all. Ending was touching...but it made us learned that we have a choice to make.

In the middle of the show, get shocked when he call me. I thought i was just about to accept the reality..but then his call make me confuse. Frankly, im in a confused state of mind. And His Reason was a bit convincing. But, of coz, lesson learnt not to trust fully...and thus i shall stand on the grounds...and remind myself each and every time...
A point to note, he distracted my labah-labah show...guess my friends noticemy expression. Seems that i was kinda tensed up. but Ahh...Who cares...hmmm Pirates of the Carribean will be showing on 23rd May....Im gonna watch that too :-)

Thats all for now..C YA!

2007-05-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

Im Lost for Words.

Im Totally Confused.

I dunnoe How To React.

Am i supposed to Be angry? Pissed?

Am i Supposed to cool off and Relax?

Or Am I supposed to Knock My head And Cry?

And Tonight, I Feel the Urge to Go CLubbing.
Maybe i need to change my lifestyle.
Is that the right thing to do?
i Dun Know, But What i Know...i feel like stepping into that Place.

2007-05-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

I GuEsS the PiCturEs Says It All..

:-)

2007-04-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

BaCK TO WERK!!!!

After a "long" break, it's time to get back on my feet and WORK! Awww, it is really a drag man. Few Days at home, and im already feeling lazy to come back to the daily "no life" routine.

Yesterday, had a really long day but yet fun events with Zul and Fyza. Zul and Fyza came back from their night shift and meet me up ard 1030hrs at Tanah Merah InterChange and head off to Chinese Garden to our Destination "Jurong Swimming Complex". They must be tired. Zul had a nap on my Bantal Shoulder while fyza is controlling not to sleep. So We Reach there, get changed..snap some pics. Since all of us will be jumping into the water, so the camera has to stay inside the locker. So, if you are hoping to see us playing in the pool..guess not!:-P. We spent almost 2 hours there. I really like the man made wave...HEHE. So cool...and Shiook!! Ehough of Soaking ourselves, we get changed and head off to PizzaHut/KFC and had our Lunch. Gosh! u cant believed, we were totally Famished. We Ordered so Much...more like a 6 PerSon Meal..HaHA..We ORder a Reg Super SupReme Pizza, 1 Lasagne, 10 pc Sweet and Spicy Drumlets, Garlic Bread, Starry Muchies and 2 Cheese Fries and of coz..2 Lemon Tea, 1 can of PEpsi and 1 BOttle of PEpsi since we bought the Meal. HAHa..can u Imagine 3 Young Ladies ate that Much. HEHE!

After that we Went to Bugis and we Shop Like Hell mostly Makeup. My oh My..enuf is enuf. Im not GOnna Spend any Single Cent anymore on Makeup for this month. I spent a hundred over just on Makeup. Some for my Exam which is coming soon..and some for my personal Makeup. Around 1900hrs, we head back home, while me...despite the tirednes and the pain that my sole is giving me, i had to make my way to Tam p LPZone to retrieve my jeans that i ask them to tailor. Once done, i quickly went back. My Sole Couldnt take it Anymore.

Today - i Went over to MArdy's Place to practice my Makeup on her SIs. Her Sis, Marzura is a replacement for her since she cant make it on the exam date. Luckily she find me a replacement, if not..im dead! BErsyukur i got someone to be my model. Well, reached around 1300hrs, grab a bite ...and start of with my Makeup. Let the Pictures do the talking ( Pictures courtesy of MArdy

ME on the Job. Done with her Around 1 hr. I guess thats great. That means..i got half an hour more to do her Hair Properly

I Like THis Pic. She Look SO FlawLEss.

Here's THe PrincEsS. She Looks Good!

Thanks MarZura for Being My Model.

2007-04-23T14:13:00.000+08:00

On Annual Leave

CuRrenT UpDate Of MySeLf - Getting Better A Little i Shall SAy. The Flu Have Gone and only The COugh ReMains. HatEs it So Much Coz it will Make Me Difficult To Breath and Ended up Having Asthma. I Have only 2 bottle ( is it called bottle??..mmm i cant find the right word) Left. Thot of Getting it in JB. But Plan With Enotz Was Cancelled due to HER Was beIng CallEd up To WoRK Last Minute! SomeTImes I HAte PoliCe Job! Muahaha! SO i Guess i got to Request it at the Company DOctor..Hmmm medicine Are Free, only consultation Fees of $5 will be cut From my Pay.

Yesterday..Went to MaRiana's WEdding. She Look Gorgeous! Uncle Shis and Aunty Zainab look Amazing too..and not ForGetting the Chubby Bubbly HuDA, Shine out in Lime Green. Hehe..I see quite a number of SIA people. Hehe...Everyone was like Woah! Haha..well they always saw us girls in uniform..and suddenly we dress up..its like ahaha...an eye popped out for them. Yeah bumped into Ry as well at yesterday event. Was quite surprised but thinking back..hehe she must have known Mariana thru Swissport since they are of the Same Company.
Im grateful to know thier Family especially Uncle and Aunty. Ive already treat them as my own Parents. Always go up to them when i have Problem, and Uncle is always there when i have problems. Im just Lucky to know Uncle And his Family. Hehe..i Ended up Spending the Whole day at uncle's Place..It Was Raining...s Uncle told us not to go back ferst..and so we sat there until 4+ hehe..Kita REwang Mata jer lah..So..one of uncle Daughter already got Married.. So Left Huda..and his 3 " anak buah" at work.

Ok..im getting ready to go out with my parents to Tamp. Getting some Stuffs. Ok ill update again for the tommorow event..wee i cant wait!

2007-04-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

--**Dayus???**--

Akan Kiamat ke Dunia? Jenis Lelaki yang Baik dan Pemimpin dah Pupus pada Zaman Ini?

Dimana Letaknya HarGa Diri Seorang Lelaki?

MeminJam Wang Dari Kaum hawa

Dahulu Kala, Lelaki aMat Ego SekiRAnya MereKa Perlukan Bantuan segi Duit. Mereka Tidak Akan Jatuhkan MartAbat MereKa dan Meminta Dari Kaum Wanita. Pada Mereka, Perbuatan Ini Amat Memalukan Kaum MeReka. Seolah-Olah, MeReka yang BerBuat SedeMikan tidak Punya Harga Diri.MeMang Sifat Lelaki itu begitu, Pemimpin Sebuah KeluarGa. Dan BolehKah MeReka Memimpin Sebuah KeluarGa SeAndaiNya Masalah Duit MereKa TerPAksa Minta DAri Kaum Hawa? Amat MeMalukan.

MaSih BerHutang dan Masih Mahu Meminta WAng DAri Kaum hawa

BagaiMana Kes Ini Pula. DI Tahap Ini. Si Hawa Mesti Pikir..LeLaki ini Tiada PendirIan dan TidAK Mahu berUsaha. TiAda SiFAt Malu Dalam DIriNya. SudaH BerHutang, TApi Masih AdA hati nak PinJam Lagi. HuTang Lama Masih Belum DiSEleSaiKan, Tapi Nak PinJam Lagik? Ishk Ishk! Kaum Adam SebegIni HanYa InGInKan CaRa PenYeleSAian Yang MuDah. Jatuh MarTabat Kaum SeBeGIni. TeRAmAt MeMAluKan.

yang MeMinta SimPati

Ini Lagik DashyAt. Dah Tak Dpt Apa yang DimInta..MenGaku berSalah. MeMinta AMpun dan Maaf..TETAPI DiUlangi PeRKara Itu. TiAda SiAPa yang MeMBantu. Di Saat Ini, Teman-teman Menyepikan Diri. Baru Tahu Siapa KaWan dan Siapa Lawan. Teman yang SenTiasa Di Sisi Ketika Saat Suka DAn Duka Tidak PerNah diHargai Satu Masa Dahulu. Dan SEkARang Tiada Siapa yang Hendak MenoLong. Ketika ini, Hanya Keluarga yang Dapat Membantu. Tapi..Keluarga juga tidak Dapat Membantu..Ishk Pelik! Pelik!

DiBeri Nasihat...SuPaya BeruSaha...Tegas Dalam Pendirian..Taknak Terima Lah Pulak...

Gasak Kau lah...Asalkan BerBahagia henDAKnya...

* Tiada berKaitan Dengan Sesiapa. hanya Pandangan Penulis Sahaja*

Terima Kasih

Wasalam

2007-04-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

--** Feeling Sick **--

Today, I felt sick. I started to get the symptoms yesterday. My throat was really painful. Sighz...Why must i get sick when im gonna take my leave from work. I had a full plan on the days that i took my leave, but yet i fell sick. I Even hate to Postpone my interview that im supposed to attend just now at 3pm. I dun Feel good and i dont want to make a bad impression to them. Thus, i called them and asked for postpone but the interviewer was not there. So they claim to return my call. Probably on Monday, i will give them a call again. I really hope they are sill interested in me attending an interview with them.

In the Afternoon, Kak Zie msg me..and i was told of the date of exam. Im so nervous and im lacking of confidence. Gosh, its been years that i did not take examinations..and hearing the words examination really makes me goosebumps. Sighz...

Ok so the planned for the upcoming Leave.

Sun (22th) - Uncle Shis Place for his Daughter Wedding. And Probably after that, i shall go out with Mal, but still not yet confirmed.

Mon (23rd) - TO Johor bahru With Enot & Nas.

Tue (24th) - To Jurong Swimming Complex with Zul & Fyza.

Wed (25th) - Interview again but still not sure - Probably will meet up Mardiana to practice my make up on her.I havent tell her yet, but hopefully boleh lah eh.

Haiz..I hope all my plans will go smoothly despite the fact im sick currently.Peace..

2007-04-15T15:42:00.000+08:00

I am feeling very pissed off with myself. I don’t even know why and what’s wrong. I don’t even know what the cause of it. Damn…I hate to be feeling this way. It’s like I don’t have any conclusion to this matter. Argh…can someone actually tell me what went wrong here?

Gosh. This internet is also getting very bored. Someone please give me some website to view. Once upon a time, internet was really the IN thingy. I or WE (the internet addicts) could actually sit in front of the computer for hours and surf all day long without even acknowledging other people and our meal times. I still remember when I was during the teenage times; Internet is like the World to me. Right after school, I’ll dump my bag on one side and log in to the internet neglecting about changing and washing up. Now, what happened? No More of the IN thingy. Everything has soared. Currently, I am only looking forward to MSN, particularly of course with the "gerek" people. But At times, it also does bore me off. Friendster - at times the things I saw in it hurts me real Bad. AnakMelayu - I am already tired with the "Hi ...Can u intro?" MIRC - Woah...Cerita lama…been like ages I did not go there and yeah...There are a lot of sex maniacs there. Multiply - Something that interest me a bit now with a lot of Mak Andams there and I could actually view their makeup practice. My Space - use to frequent there because Rasul was there. But now ever since he Neglect me there, even now at the present. I totally lost interest in that place.

SIghz…Im Bored …Plus Pissed

2007-04-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

--** Aku Benci Aku**--

I thot my Previous entry would sum up the Day..but i just culdnt help it..but to pour my feelings out..At this point of time, i really hate myself! I really hate the way i feel...And i really hate what im feeling coz in the FIRST place..I SHOULD NOT FEEL THIS WAY! It's stoooooooopid of me to feel this way..and i should have move on...And now, i realise only half part of me MOVED On...but there are still bits and pieces left behind.

WHy Must i feel that way??? I mean its up to him whether he have a girlfreind or not..He has the right since we are no longer together....but what im unhappy is Why when i was with him last time, everything was restricted..and now whatever he restrict me from..he did it himself..and even to find him in his Freinds page. Fuck! Why sia...Y is Life so Unfair ??? why during my time, when i want that the most..i was restricted and even being fucked off...vulgarities on me..but NOW...without feeling of guiltiness he publish just like that. It hurts me because i remembered at that time in point, i even go to the extend of deleting my account becoz of him..Argh...

But then Again..it really do strikes me when a statement was being said "that was the past...i think we should move on..since u've already moved on" At a point maybe he's right...Maybe i should not even be friends with him in the ferst place.. As much as i do not want enemies, maybe i should treat him like one. maybe i should REfresh my memory "How BAd he treat me..How he cheated me..How he took away my money..How his Mum reacted on Me." Maybe all that will play a part...And Fuck Care with whatever he wants to do..Whatever he wants to publish..hatever he wants to do.

On the other hand, Maybe loneliness feel me up badly and i dun feel the sparks i should have, feel and receive from my partner..And maybe due to that i feel this way...maybe due to that i have the silliest mine of doing a U turn...

At one point, i wish im not engaged in all these stuffs..
Good Nite.

2007-04-13T17:28:00.000+08:00

--** Masalah PerNafasaN**--

Assalamualaikum....

Hari nih aku tak Masuk OT lagik. Smalam Begitu Berkobar-kobar aku nak masuk Ot. Tapi pagi nih aku ada masalah pernafasan sekali lagi. Nihlah akibatnyer kalau tidur dalam Air-Con . APa boleh buat, belum mampu beli kipas. Duit tak masuk Lagik. ;P

So...Lepas amik Inhaler jer..aku terus tidur lagik..Hehe.Bangun then tolong mak masak jap..terus aku kemas sikit2 bilik aku.. Tercungap2 jugak...dah bis semua ingak nak vacuum..tapi tgk lah nih...SIL ngan Niece aku tgh melepak atas katil aku..tgh tido..Terbantut aku nak vacuum, nanti menganggu pulak kan. Vacuum nih kalau senyap takper jugak..bising mcm aeroplane tgh engine run...* i know im considerate* HeHE

Oh yah..btw Uncle dah dapatkan nama techinician tuh..HEHE...Aku so happy.. Walaupun aku nih belum ada guts nak berbual ngan dier..Tgk jer jadilah kan..Haha...
haiz..everytime aku berbual pasal kerja..sedih dibuatnyer..im left with 1 month pplus jer kat sana..Sedih giler seh..2 tahun kat sana..and then nak gi tempat lain suker2. AKu tak rasa boleh dpt jumper members gerek mcm skg..Haiz..TApi kalau dah bukan rezeki aku kat situ...apa boleh buat kan...Berdoa sahaja lah kan...

Oklah..i think nak gosok baju plak...Take care..apa2 aku update lagik.

2007-04-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

Roti Kirai

My body is aching all over. im feeling so tired lately. I slept at ard 2 am yesterday. IntEnDed to SleeP EaRly but i Was helpIng My Cusin to do HeR Resume. Wanted TO Meet her up , but she's only available like in the noon whereas im only avaibel during evening time. So..Decide to help her online instead.

Ok..so as per above title. I ate Roti Kirai with Lauk Kari Ayam. Hehe..Was helping my mum to Kirai da Roti...My niece suddenly was craving for roti kirai. Kids nowadays have becoming very the educated. Soon i was done with it.

That sums it all for the food. Now about work. Well i dun really know, sumhow the workload is getting heavier each day and i am struggling to cope with it. The US cage has been compressed to a smaller size. I just dunnoe mana lah si dektuh letak kepala hotak dier..DIer pikir US nyer barang nih sikit kehapeR? When the season dtg ..belambak-lambak. And yesterday definately tiring..my neck and body hurts like hell.I was having knots on my shoulder area. Hmmm....Oh yah my quotation have been given. now im aiting or another one of it..to compare..Probably we take the cheapest one. But Haiz..yesterday plak ABg G said he tak confirm, jgn last minit yg tinggal gi 2 org jer..Hehe..tapi oklah jugak sesekali...

Ok..i guess i need to make a mve now. On my nite shift tonite..and i need a rest..

K tAke Care Peepz..

2007-04-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

Parents back from Genting....

I was at home since morning...after my night shift. Slept at 11am....and wake up at 3pm..4 hours of sleep only. Dunnoe why i couldnt sleep. Probably its the weather..been humid lately. I cooked Mee Goreng and fried some Chicken Wing. And then i slacked infront of the TV till evening.

Mum & Dad came back ard Evening bringing a lot of food. Fruits..Otah2..chocolates and much more. Then my dad switch on the Videocam and we watch the video when they are there. Of coz..my mum took pictures of those two mongkeys..HaHA...just Joking..SI Enotz and Naz. Happily waving and waving at the videocam..Sempat plak sebut nama aku...Main Viking ehhh...Amcam Shiok tak?? Haha gua tak jeles...Maybe im going Genting with my collegueas this June...still in the process of planning..Weehoooo..i cant wait for it...So excited!!!!!
And i saw this couple..atas stage tao...angkat tangan kiri kanan depan...wat the hell they are doing?? cube explain cik enotz?? sebab tak record semua....

Ok next topic..about my job..haiz im left with like a motnth before my contract ends..Frankly im truly worried about it. Till now theres no news from any side..All are left clueless. I dunt want to go up to that person to ask...i dun want to make it as if im hoping for it..its no point doing that i tell u..unless im up to the idea of following each and every little things that he says..even up to the point where personal life is being controlled. Argh..i dont want that! I really hope and pray the outcome will be good. hopefully!..

Oh yah before i forget..i just would like to congratulate my deaest Buddy Mr Aqmal N for turning 23 years old today...haha...skg kiter dah sama umur...Weeeehhehehehe... anyway...
Semoga Dipanjangkan Umur dan Dimurahkan REzeki..Insyallah.

2007-04-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

Im sitting right at the corner of my room..with just my Laptop and Cell phone by my side. Things went wrong lately..and im so depressed over it. Mum and Dad is in Genting and my niece is back at their homies. And im only with my brother. ITs so Lonely Down here and The problems im facing definately adds up to all the loneliness.

i dunnoe what and how to say it. i just wish someone could come up on me..and hug me real tight and just say" Hang in there...It will be over soon...Everything will be settle shortly" But noOne is there for me. To come up to someone instantly and just say..would u be my listening ear? i have some problems. People will sure misunderstood in me taking them for granted. When i need them only i will find them. No! im not that Kind of person. And thus, i kept it to myself again.

I dunnoe what is the right way now. My emotions are going haywire..Maybe i should leave it as it is and just wait patiently as well as hoping "it" find its way back to me.
BUt my heart is throwing tantrum..i hate to feel this way..and i HAte to be in this situation...i need the companion..I need someone to care for me...but i should be grateful they "it" trust me and "it" knows that im big enuf to care for myself. In another words...
It" knows i can be independant and know whats right and wrong...

Sighz...

2007-04-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

Im definately am tired today...SLept like one Big Log rite after Work and i only wake up at 6pm in the evening. Woah! ThaT Was inDeeD Long Enuf. Usually, i'll tend to wake up automatically at 4pm but this time it really shows that im truly shagged. Probably due to i actually did not sleep at work on my night shift. I just couldnt sleep. I could only get to shut and rest my eyes.

I would like to mention about one guy which i do not know what his name is. HEHE *on my cheeky mode*. Actually been eyeing one of this technician at work. i mean not the "gatal-gatal " way of looking upon him lah. Oh Please..Well i just like to see his face and..yeah as u all know me..i get captivated easily by guys who have a nice and friendly smile. I saw him quite often and i dun really like layan him..even when he entered my office asking for some stuffs..i just open the door and ask him to get himself. SHit! I should have use that opportunity to actually have a chat with him but i was too shy that time. THen, there was a time i was in the smoking room, buying a drink from the vending machine and he was standing right beside the vending machine with his friend and he utter something. I was like "ah? and they laughed it off. God knows what they are talking about. Then..when they went out from the smoking room..they smiled at my uncle. My uncle told me and my friend, actually they wanted to befriend us..but we all are too stern. I laughed it off..since when we are stern..its just that we are not that friendly and we dont want to be label as "Minah gatal" at werk..making the first moves to befriend this guys.

Then again there was this incident where he was alone and im alone..and he actually talk to me..but hehe his pick up line was lame but cute...but then yesterday when i saw him..he was not even smiling to me..issit becoz he was with his friends? ntahlah..i wanted to smile but i was so shy..HAHA. Well i dun mean any gatalness here. just wanted to be friend with him. Thats all.
ITs kinda good to know these technicians..some of them are nice guys..I cant wait to see him again...Hopefully he speak to me.:)

Im feeling hungry at this moment but im like thinking twice..whether should i eat or not..since its already like 11pm...Hmmm...

2007-04-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

My Princess

Happy 5th BirthDay My Lovely PrinCess..Muacks!

Pictures have been uploaded. Pls go to CamWhore Gallery.

ShaGGed Mode

2007-04-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

--==Shagged Mode==--

Celebrated Iffah "my niece" 5th Birthday at Pasir Ris Costa Sand Resort.

Event is on the 31st March and 1st April

The Whole lot of us have so much fun

Fun = Camwhore!

So you can expect pictures upload from me later on. My Elder and younger cousin have been pestering me to upload the pictures but i simply DO NOT have the strength to do all this stuff. All i want now is some Rest.

Read this: I have not iRoned my UniForm yet and i guess im too lazy and shagged now.

So That is i need to wake up a bit earlier tommorow.

Gonna be a long day Tommoroe

Monday Sucks.

And i have to Work Alone..

:(:(:(

2007-03-30T02:18:00.000+08:00

Another One Down

Hectic....TIred...LEthargic..thats how i currently feel at the moment. Had a long day at work..Busy as a Bee... Although my job requires me to sit in the office almost all the times, but in a way the most affected ones are our mentality. It really affects coz my job needs me to stare at the screen. Probably becoz of the position im in everyday at work made my neck and shoulders HURT like hell.

Ok.one of my previous entry was about a collegue who got terminated aite? and now...another one down. My partner..whom i said was on MC. He resigned!! And that means..i have to manage my shift all by myself. If for a short period of time..its ok, But looks like its gonna be a long term basis till they find me a new partner.Im looking forward to it but at the same time..i wish it would be non-malay cos just in case if i dint get the job at the other end..and if they offer me perm there..hehe its easier for me to take leave during festive season.:)

I guess im turning in real soon. My eyes are heavy..and my neck plus shoulder have been aching lately and i dunnoe why. Anybody can give me a massage???

2007-03-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

Ive been staring at this "Racer"( a name i got for my laptop) for quite a long time trying to blog but it seems nothing came out. NOt to say that my mind is currently blank and i got no idea at all to blog. In fact, there's a lot of things inside my mind and tis kinda messed up till i dunnoe which to attend ferst.

For sure, there is something that is troubling me..and disturbing the peace of my mind. Nuthing interest me at the moment. Was tidying up a bit of my room, when suddenly the mood changed tremendously and i started to stare into spaces. I tried to distract myself by watching some vcds, but that too desnt work and i ended up sitting infront of Racer and staring at it. i thot i could blog..but i failed in that too. It seems so hard for me to blog personal things nowadays. Probably im afraid that by me blogging about what i feel in here would eventually depressed me deeper..and thus i kept it to myself.

At the end of the day..
1) My room is not totally tidied up
2) Not a movie i completed watching
3) Im still depressed.

2007-03-26T00:22:00.000+08:00

Kenyang Kenyang...

Hmmmm....

I assumed i would be richer this month due to the two cycle payment, but luck was not on my side..i got only 1 cycle..so not too good but again not too bad..coz it also means..next month im richer. Haha..

So...last two days..aku gi shopping. Rancangan sepatutnyer shopping ngan Enotz. Tapi di saat-saat akhir, terpaksa batalkan disebabkan enotz dipanggil kerja. So aku ajak Fyza, kawan kerja aku untuk temankan. Nasib baik jugak dier boleh pergi, kalau tak nampak gaya merayap sorang lah. So..kiter go SIm Lim seperti yang dirancangkan..Mata rambang kat sana..Mcm2 benda ada..But aku beli yg patut jer lah..so aku dptkan Speaker untuk Laptop aku. Serbagun sebab..ia oleh digunakan untuk Ipod Sekali. Lagi satu barang, oh yah aku beli Ipod Casing..Crystal Case Warna BIru..Then kita pusing2...and we head off to Bugis. Gambar Speaker Baru aku. Cun tak????

Ok..then we go to bugis..gi makan kat KFc..and i bought myself a pair of shoe and aku beli hadiah untuk anak sedara aku. Her bday is coming. Aku belikan dier baju..tapi suker atau tidak..wallahualam! Nak amek..taknak sudah..haha! Then kiter singgah kedai Adidas..ive been eyeing this bag..lawa giler. tak tahulah org lain nampak lawa ker tak..tapi yang penting aku suker..korang tak suker..apa aku kisah.Kwang kwang! Nasib Baik..lah Adidas kat Bugis tuh tak jual bag tuh..kalau tak..ada chance aku borong jugak.HEHEH!

K..citer smalam plak..LEpas OT..kiter sekumpulan..Uncle Shis, Cik hamid, Cik Suarli, Abang G, Zul,Fyza, aku dan Guest Of Honour "Sufri hudi".gi makan kat Kampung Chai Chee. Its actually an ocassion mcm Farewell Part for Didi lah sbb he was being terminated..APa leh buat rezeki dier bukan kat situ. Rezeki aku camner plak eh?? mmmm..argh taknak pikir ar. So..kiter samapi sana 9.30mlm. mungkin sbb ramai orang..kauz..service dorang dahsyat siol..satu jam ktier tunggu..tak sampai jugak makanan. Kiter semua dah lah tahan perut sbb nak makan malam..kira2 dlm 10.45 mlm baru drg hidang..TOuching siol! PErut Melalak giler! THen kiter start lah makan semua...there was a poin bagsa perut dah takleh take it...Ingat dah habis lah kan..ruper nyer ada 3 dish lagik yang belum kuar..Masyallah! Dashyat! At last kiter bungkus..and bagi2 bawak balik. Apa taknyer..the set is for 10 pax..yg ada cumer 8 pax..hehe

First Dish: COld Dish..tak tahu lah apa dlm dier..lantak ajer
Second Dish: Sharkfin Soup..Nikmat siolz..( belen bungkus)
Third Dish: Nasi Jagung
Fourth Dish: Ikan Bakar
Fifth: Udang Rangup
Sixth: Kangkung bElacan..sedap tapi tawar sikit..Dah lapar telan jer lah
SEventh: Keladi..err tak sentuh pun..tak reti..(bungkus)
Ini partlah ingat dah habis...rupernyer
Eight: AYam Lemon SAuce ( bungkus)
Ninth: Baby Squid (bungkus)
Tenth: Chap Choi Veggie(bungkus)
Last: Desert(bungkus)

Kenyang Kenyang.....*Burps* ALhamdulilah...

Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki pada yang mulia CIk suarli dan Cik hamid Sbb Belanja kiter2 nih semua..Amen!

2007-03-22T02:14:00.000+08:00

Hari ini Punya lah penat. Woooish teruk juga aku niari. Dah almost sebulan lebih aku kerja sorang, PArtner aku ntah hilang ker mana...terus ghaib. Dgr2, Officer sampai carik dia kat rumah tapi tak dpt jumper. dan Skg nih Boss aku pun dah tak tahu nak buat apa lagi, melainkan menyerahkan pada HR untuk membuat keputusan. Dan kerana itulah aku harus buat semua perkara sendirian. Ada OT pun hmmm..bukannyer boleh harap sgt lah kan. Dulu ada si DIDI, ringan sikit beban aku..responsibility aku. sbb dier banyak dpt membantu aku, walaupun cumer sikit jer yg dier tahu..tapi ada lah jugak yg dier boleh bantu. Si Asten OT tadi..dier cuem buat 7 barang jer..AKu pulak takder masa nak tgk apa yang dier buat..AKu very the busy.
Niari aku main kejar-kejar..barang tuh takder lah hilang lah transit lah..penat seh..
Communication breakdown lain..Haiz...

Actually aku nak type lagik..tapi tangan dan mata tak mengizinkan..so aku belah dulu ajer lah k..
Sambung besok..C ya~